Disclaimer: I dont own Grey's Anatomy, Shonda does. If I do, it would be Kepner's Anatomy

Chapter 1

April locked herself for days. She didn't feel like to face how unfair fate turned down her dreams cruelly. She tried to manage the shame she should face when she spend her thanksgiving's holiday with her family this year. She hadn't even called them to inform the news. It was even harder with the whole church have been prayed for her. Sometimes she just has to dial the number of her parent's house, but she turned it off before anyone could hear her shaking stammering crying voice.

She told Jackson that she was okay. But she wasn't. How could she? She failed the damn Boards, lost her virginity, no.. she lost her virginity first, then she failed the boards, and lost her job. It wasn't like she regrets the wonderful sex with Jackson. She wanted him, or at least had wanted him that night. And the day after in the toilet. But sometimes she would imagine what it would be like without the sex. She would have pass the boards as one of the most eligible trauma surgeon, a role model of chief resident, and having decision on the make, whether she stay or move out from Seattle Grace for very good trauma surgeon program.

She heard someone knocking her door

" April, open the damn door! You barely eat for days!" Jackson voice roared around the flat.

" April! Just open the door please!" The knocks turned into pounds.

" You have to come out sooner or later. We clearly need to talk!"

" April! you can't do this to me."

The door opened. But it wasn't April's but Alex's. " Come on mate. I have to go back to the hospital at 01.00 AM, can you just let me sleep for the next 3 hours?"

" Sorry. It's April. She haven't eat or come out for days." Jackson

Alex frowned " Who said she haven't eat? She ordered Chinese noodle just before you come home."

Jackson sighed. Somehow he didn't like the idea of her came out from her room when he wasn't there

" Maybe she just doesn't want to talk to you or see you, since she talked to me anyway." Alex smirked. It wasn't like he wanted to get Jackson jealous or something, but seeing Jackson gone crazy for April behavior was giving him some thrill. And she didn't actually talk to him. It was just a simple 'hi' and question whether he would like to order some of Chinese noodle or not

Alex slammed the door behind him, leaving Jackson alone while staring at April's door.

Jackson was looking for beers in the fridge and found some pizza left over's there. It must be April's. He felt like a fool for concerning her empty tummy since she would come out for some food, if he wasn't there. Maybe Alex was right. She just didn't want to see him.

But why? She said herself that she wasn't regretting the sex with him. She said herself that she was okay. But he knew April for almost 5 years, how could she be alright about this falling fate on her? He always knew that she always write something on the red notes that said " I'm the future of medicine" and all of her dreams to be the best surgeon ever. So how the hell she didn't regret it? This made his heart felt heavy. Heavy with the fact that he was the one who took her saint Ms. V and going to leave her in 2 days.

He leaned himself on the fridge and waiting for the re-heated pizza and took a bottle of beer. He could hear something from April's room, it was like she's moving around and doing something. He sighed as he heard the door opened.

April walked out her room wearing sexy black dress and even wearing some make up. She walked pass him like he wasn't there. He hastily caught her and he grabbed her wrist.

" Where are you going?" He looked at her right to her eyes

April looked at the wrist he was holding. It felt so tight and hurt, and she didn't feel like to answer

" I'm asking you, Kepner, where the hell are you going?" His stern voice scared her sometimes

" Joe's." She said flatly and directly urging him to let her go

But he kept her hand even tighter " We need to talk."

" No. You do. But not me. I don't even want to hear anyway. Now let me go." It was the longest sentence she ever spill on him for the past five days.

" I miss you." He said slowly

" But I'm not. Let me go, Avery! You hurt me!" Her voice start to raise up

Jackson let go her hand and she immediately storm off the flat, slamming the door and left him with the silence.

It was 01.00 AM. Jackson couldn't sleep, so he was lying on the couch and watching some lame program on National Geographic instead. He could hear Alex was late and rushing to go to the hospital. Maybe he could wait for April. Just to make sure that she will be home safe. He didn't expect her come home sober, of course she would be drunk, but he must see her before she locked herself again for days again.

It had been a month since the boards and almost a week since she didn't go to the Hospital, she directly just stopped coming since Hunt couldn't afford her next year. She actually had a month left to work at SGMWH but she took a week off. She managed herself to He completely understood her feeling of rejection, lost and shame. A few days ago he dreamt about him being happily perfect in Tulane, having a special case and research of plastics and having lunch with his fellows while calling April to come over from California for weekend. But now he could remove the 'happily perfect' and 'calling April' parts. He'll move to Tulane this Sunday. It was mean, two days left for him to make things settled between him and April. He was eager to go. Wasn't he?

He looked up to the ceiling and the door just opened.

There she was, kissing unknown guy passionately while bragging into the flat. She tried so hard to open her coat between those heavy breaths and kisses. The guy stroked her shining red hairs and another hand on her bum. Sometimes she giggled and trying to make their way into her room.

Jackson sat on the couch, watching them kissing in front of him like he wasn't there. April was drunk, of course she was. She wouldn't do this if she sober. He was sick. Definitely sick of seeing this. Hours ago she threw his words out and left him dying to see her back to her sense, the April who loves Jesus, hard worker and eager one. And there she was, in front of him kissing someone and getting laid. April Kepner was getting laid again. Somehow he didn't like the idea of someone else doing it with her. He felt like he knew the guy. He seems familiar for him, maybe someone from Joe's bartenders or hospital...

Wait, someone from the hospital?

Maybe one of former patient

He knew this guy

No, it couldn't be

He was his patient!

And Jackson was the one who give him the ability to fuck!

It was the guy who had a new penis months ago!

TBC

A/N Remember the guy, who had penis transplant on season 8? ;)

This is my first fanfic, and haven't beta-ed yet. I'm waiting on my PM to be replied by one of beta. so, maybe i'll re-upload the beta-ed version. so I believe there're tons of grammar mistakes or typos.

please be easy on me

and review :)

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