(Bells pov)
I might seem like an asshole to many people. I may seem like I'm also an idiot to simple things when I'm not. I may seem like I don't know what love or hate is but I do, it's just different for everyone else. I may seem like I know nothing when I know more than what you think. I live my life how I want to live it, just like many others live their life how they want.
I know what it feels like to lose someone special, to love someone and would do anything to get them anything, even if it means I get hurt or even die.
I'm Bell Swan, and this is my story.
-Chapter 1: Meeting Someone New-
My story begins in a small little town called Forks. Why it's named after a utensil, I don't know and I don't ask. Anyway, I was hanging around LaPush with my "brother" Jacob Black. He was more like a younger brother to me and I his older "brother".
I'm transgendered, I was born a girl but I'm transitioning into a man, I'm not gonna go into much detail about this till later on in my story. This situation is different from most people actually not always the same.
Anyway I was with Jacob, we were currently drinking a couple of beers at Lapush Beach listening to some old songs, what can I say we're a couple of teens still stuck in the early 2000's.
"Hey Bella….. are you gonna tell Leah about…. You know?" Jacob asked as I looked out into the water, the waves hitting the beach gently as if not to disturb the sand.
"I already told her….. she didn't take it to well, but I'm giving her some space." I told him as I took a swig of my beer. Leah is mine and Jacobs friend, but me and her didn't become friends till after I already had my bottom and top surgery so I looked like a boy to her. She had feelings for me and I told her the truth before she tried to ask me on a date or anything.
"I can talk to her and try to explain if you want." He said and I looked at him and shook my head.
"Leah is a big girl, let her come and ask me if she has any questions or anything." I looked over to the road and saw some of Jacobs "friends" I took that as my cue to leave his friends consists of Sam, Paul, and Jared. Let's just say we have gotten into a couple of fights, for….. Reasons and well, it's just they don't like me, for me. That and I guess I'm part of the reason of why Sam and Leah broke up, or that's what Sam said, I shouldn't listen to him but I honestly don't know anymore.
"See you tomorrow Jacob." I said as I headed to my truck. It's a big old rusted red truck, I like it, Jake and me built it back to its, somewhat formal glory to which we are very proud of, I mean we have a ways to go but we're proud of what we have accomplished.
"See ya later Bell." He called out as I got in my truck. I waved to him as I drove away, and headed to my fathers home. His name is Charlie, he's ok with me and my change he wished I had changed my name to Charlie Jr, but we have a laugh about that. I finally got home and parked the truck in the driveway, shut it off and headed to the front steps. But before I went in a took a breath and looked at my childhood home just a bit.
My mom and dad divorced once I was born, they were pretty young when they got married, and the only reason they did get married was because they were gonna have me. My mom didn't want to stay in Forks all her life but my dad wanted to stay. So they broke it off and my mom is currently in Jackson Florida with her new husband Phil, a Major League Baseball player. He's an ok guy, as long as he doesn't say anything bad about me, to be fair he has learned to keep quiet when I'm near by due to the fact that I broke his nose when he thought it was a great idea to call me a sinner and that I should burn, all because his daughter had taken a liking to me.
"Hello Bell." I heard and saw my neighbor Mrs. Paterson wave to me. I smiled and waved back at her as she started to walk to me and I met her halfway.
"Hello Mrs. Paterson how's Mrs. Paterson doing?" Yes Mrs. Patterson has a partner who is also a woman.
"She's doing just fine, she's out back gardening, I thought it would be nice for you to come over and talk with us, since your dad isn't home right now." She said and I nodded and followed her. You see these two ladies are in their 60's, they're very kind and they do care a lot about me, I think of them as my other grandmothers since my real grandparents are gone.
"How are you Bell?" I heard and saw Mrs. Paterson in her gardening outfit, that consisted of a big floppy hat, she likes to be called by her first name which is Lilly.
"I'm doing fine Lilly and you?" I asked as I sat next to her and looked at her beautiful roses. How she can keep them alive in this town is a mystery to me.
"I'm doing great, took a nap not to long ago and it helped perk me right up." She laughed and I smiled a bit as I watched her work on her beautiful flowers.
"Can I ask you something…. You and Mrs. Patterson?" I asked and she looked at me.
"What seems to be on your mind dear?" She asked and I rubbed my arm.
"I know my situation isn't really the same as yours, but….. how would you cope to losing a friend just because you're….. different?" When I had asked that she pat me on the head gently and Mrs. Patterson came out with some lemonade and handed us each a glass and sat on the ground with both of us.
"Well it's different with everyone…. I wouldn't think they were meant to be my friend if they couldn't accept me, and Mrs. Patterson believes that they would one day realize that we aren't all that different and kept the idea that if they want to be friends again then they can be." Lilly said and I sighed a bit and looked at the ground.
"I don't know….. I mean I told them I was different because I didn't want them to….. like me in that way and then get mad later on for not telling them earlier."
"Honey just keep a positive mind, if they ask questions then help them understand why you do what you do." Mrs. Patterson said and I nodded and drank some of her lemonade.
"Alright, keep a positive attitude and just wait….. for it." When I said that Mrs. Patterson gave me a hug. I'm not much of a hugger but when they hug me I just can't help but let them. It's calming in a way.
"Has your mom called you or anything?" Lilly asked and I shook my head no. My mother isn't really a bad woman she just chooses to take the wrong side from time to time, she's a bit of an airhead but that's her. It's not that good of a feature to her but you can't change my mothers mind on much things.
"No but I wouldn't blame her I mean I did break her husbands nose." I said and they both laughed, I couldn't help but laugh as well.
"That boy deserved it, saying you need to burn just because of who you are is like me saying he needs to burn for getting a divorce with his last wife." Lilly said and I couldn't help but smile a bit. She means well, trust me she does.
"Well, thank you for helping me a bit." I said and they smiled as I got up and handed Mrs. Patterson her cup back and I headed home after Lilly gave me a hug. I went to my room and laid in my bed, and looked at my phone, I saw a message blinking on the dating app I had downloaded a while back, so I opened the app and clicked on the messages and looked to see a photo of a woman with short spiky black hair. I got to admit she does look like a little kid, so I messaged her back.
Bell: "Ok tell me you're older than what you look." And in an instant I got a message back.
PixieGirl: "Yes I am older than what I look like, I'll take that as a complement though."
Bell: "Lol sorry I had to ask, I didn't want to get in trouble or anything."
PixieGirl: "That's fine, it's ok to ask, just to be on the safe side, now how old are you?"
Bell: "I'm nineteen, I'll be twenty this summer, actually."
PixieGirl: "Oh man you're actually older than me."
Bell: "Really? How old are you?"
PixieGirl: "I'm eighteen but I'll be nineteen next month."
Bell: "So you're in high school like me, it says you live close by, do you live in Forks?"
PixieGirl: "Yes I'm in high school, a senior like you, and actually I do live in Forks of course."
Bell: "Small world, so you'll be attending Forks High than, maybe we can actually meet in person and talk, if you want that is."
PixieGirl: "That would be nice to actually talk to you in person, me and my family just moved here to so it would be great to know someone there already."
Bell: "It's good to know someone when you go to a new place, I kinda had that when I moved back here."
PixieGirl: "You mean you've moved back from somewhere else? Oh where were you do tell."
Bell: "Well, I've been to Germany I only lived there for a year, I've also been to Italy, and then Arizona before I moved back here to Forks."
PixieGirl: "Why did you have to move?"
Bell: "My uh, mother had remarried and the man she married is a Major League Baseball player, so we had to move around."
PixieGirl: "Your parents are divorced?"
Bell: "It's weird that I'm telling you all this, but you also aren't telling me anything about yourself, why did you and your family move to this boring old town?"
PixieGirl: "Understandable, well we moved here because my father is a doctor and they had transferred him here, but before that we use to live in Alaska, and before that, Russia, basically cold places."
Bell: "Wow, no wonder you're a bit pale, well you could come with me to LaPush, they get some rays of sun there."
PixieGirl: "Well thanks for the offer, I'd just have to bring my siblings with me."
Bell: "How many siblings do you have?" I was a bit curious of this, how big of a family does she have, are they really nice? What is it like to have siblings, I had a lot to ask on this matter, with me being an only child it's lonely at times.
PixieGirl: "I have three older brothers and an older sister."
Bell: "So with four siblings added with you and your parents that's seven family members in total, that's a lot to be honest, how does your mom do it, it must have been hard."
PixieGirl: "Well, we were already in our teens or a year younger when they had adopted us." I froze at those words on my screen.
Bell: "So they aren't your real siblings? Do you know what happened to your real family? You don't have to answer if it's a personal issue, I'll understand."
PixieGirl: "I honestly don't want to talk about that till I know you more…. So why the nickname Bell?"
Bell: "Understood, trust needs to be earned, and it's just a shorter version of my name, for now, so why the name PixieGirl?"
PixieGirl: "Shorter version of your name? What is your name? Oh and well… I got the nickname Pixie from my older brother Emmett, I could have gone with Tinkerbell, but I went a different route."
Bell: "Don't laugh but….. My real name is, Bella, or Isabella actually."
PixieGirl: "So you are a girl?"
Bell: "Well-" I stopped as I heard the door so I got up and set my phone on the table yes it's rude of me not to finish but I will apologize later, as I headed to the kitchen to see my father taking off his jacket.
"Hey dad."
"Hey Bell, how was the visit with Jacob?" He asked as he put his jacket on the hook.
"It was great, well I had to cut it short when Sam and them came, you know how Jacob changes around them." I said as I rubbed my neck and looked at the table.
"That boy needs to know better, he knows those are bad kids to be around and how they treat you, I should talk to Billy about this." He said and I shook my head.
"No it's fine dad, we can talk like adults when it comes to this."
"Jacob is acting more like a child, and you're older than him." He said and I couldn't help but chuckle a bit.
"We can talk about this later, how was work?" He smiled a bit.
"Nothing new, just the average Drunk, nothing new really happens here." He said and I nodded.
"Right, with a small town like this, it's hard to commit a crime without people knowing." I said and we sat at the table as my dad grabbed some old takeout menus.
"Ok so we have the option of-" but before my dad could ask my phone went off a couple of times and I looked at it, seeing messages from PixieGirl, so I hurried and sent her a message apologizing for my absences and told her that I will be looking for her at the school parking lot tomorrow.
"Make any new friends today Kido?"
"Sorta, I get to see her at school tomorrow, her and her family moved her."
"Hm then she must be Dr. Cullen's daughter, one of them at least, I got to meet him today, nice man." He said and I nodded.
"Alright so Take-out or diner?" He asked and I thought.
"Diner."
"Good choice." He said then went to go get changed and I grabbed my jacket and waited for my dad.
"Alright Bell, lets go." I then got up and we headed to the old town diner, once there we sat in our usual spot and we got the usual food, hamburgers with seasoned fries for me, steak with fries along with potatoes for my father.
"So you're gonna meet one of Dr. Cullen's kids, do you know who?" He asked and I froze. I never asked her name.
"I um…. I didn't ask her for her name, all I know is that she has short black hair that… That all spiked up in every direction, it's cute really." I said and rubbed my arm.
"Got a crush already?" He asked and I shook my head.
"No I just think it's cute that's all, no feelings for anyone, none at all." I said and we were given our food and ate in silence for a bit.
"So no crushes at all?" He asked and I chuckled a bit.
"When did you want to be involved in mushy things like crushes?"
"I'm your dad, I have to know what's going on with you." He said and I smiled a bit.
"Don't worry about it dad, if I do get into a relationship you're gonna hear it from some random person in town."
"Well, that's true but to be fair I would like to know before I hear it from someone in town two weeks later." I looked at him and nodded.
"I'll make sure to tell you when I do end up in a relationship dad, I promise." We both smiled at each other and I rubbed my neck, we then finished our food, and we got peach cobbler for desert, to take home. Once home we went to our separate rooms for the night, I was just about to close my eyes before a beeping sound was made, and I looked at my phone, to see a message from PixieGirl.
PixieGirl: "Sorry to bother you but I have no idea what you look like, you didn't put a profile photo of yourself." Well she was right, I didn't put a photo of myself on there only a photo of my old husky. So I got up and looked for an image of myself on the phone, realizing I never take photos of myself I got up and took a photo of me real quickly in the full length mirror not really thinking on what I look like, I just sent it and went back to bed, wondering what tomorrow will bring.