This is my second fanfic and I really hope you would review so I would know whether to continue this story or not…There is a special reason why I like it but let us keep it a secret ;) Sorry for possible grammatical errors. THERE WILL BE LEMON AND OTHER FRUITS IN THE FUTURE.
Pairing: Sasuke x Naruto
Summary: Naruto was absolutely lost. What will happen when he ends up in a band and meets this angst ridden raven haired Sasuke and tastes him and his world? (rated M for upcoming LEMON in future chapters) REVIEW, should I continue or not?
Disclaimer: I have no rights over the characters or what so ever (do not sue me Mr. Kishimoto), I am just loaning them and returning to the rightful owner (Mr. Kishimoto). I just own the story, do not plagiarize – it is based on a true story. I will bite your head off if you try.
Fill Me Up, Buttercup
It seemed like ages. It took almost a decade and nothing had changed in the end. Naruto found himself lost among his friends and the loneliness ate him up bitterly every day. The boy had always managed or at least he gave that impression to the others. Nine years of constant pain, being hated and not acknowledged.
He always seemed to be at ease everywhere and the smile he gave was supposed to be genuine. It all was a façade in order not to let anyone in his heart – he could not bear that someone would destroy his inner being. He was the one to lead his friends but did not know where to go. He protected the ones he loved so that they would not be hurt.
Friends and passers-by changed but he was always the same. All those roles and the life he led were different depending on the people around and somehow he lost himself along the way. Nobody knew who the real Naruto was.
After nine years it was a new school. Only two of his friends came along but they were the closest ones to him. New school did not bring new waves and actually it made all worse. Worse than being hated, is not to be acknowledged; a state where nothing exists. Another three years the same and it was all empty even before this.
It is so easy to get caught in depression he thought and for the sake of others acted out those few years. He thought that he did not want to be weak because weak people end up loosing in life. It all seemed perfectly fine before the eruption in a certain café with Ino and Shikamaru.
These two were Naruto's closest friends after the others were scattered around the city doing what fit them best. Shikamaru was always wise and had amazing sense of humour. Ino was sweet and always put her friends first. They were the best friends to have but he was never really able to talk to them. He did not believe they would understand that he was hollow, only an empty shell of himself although he was not sure whether he had been anything other from the start either.
There was no one he could talk to, to tell his problems that he had never shared. He was so tired but kept on going for the sake of everything around him. After turning sixteen Naruto realized that he wanted someone to love and love him back. Everybody else around him seemed to be happy dating the ones they felt something for and that saddened Naruto to death. He thought to himself, "…if love could kill the pain…"
The days passed by but there was a glimpse of hope to be found; a girl named Sakura. He loved to watch her eating with her friends and she appeared to be so shy. He wished it to be love but was disappointed in the end. The girl almost noticed her if there was not that Choji guy who poisoned her mind. Maybe it was not such a good match after all. Naruto promised himself not to get excited anymore and locked his heart – hopefully for an eternity.
To kill his frustration, Naruto ended up with Shikamaru to a rock concert near his home. Those concerts were the only thing that really amused him and were a proof of his existence. It took so long to achieve the position he now held. He was able to greet those guys as equal, but they were not his real friends instead more like casual passers-by who stayed a little longer than usual.
At that gig he really almost made friends, Sasori and Deidara. Those guys were casual, funny and more over treated him like a human being he was. Naruto found himself a bit attracted to Deidara who was open and warm person – he almost seemed like a brother. That was maybe the reason why Naruto never approached the guy although he was a bit confused to find himself attracted to a same sex person. Naruto thought it was only brotherhood and that his longing eyes did not really follow the guy in particular. They seemed to follow everybody.
Deidara was a proof that Naruto longed for love and touch he had never felt and he was already sixteen. The anxiety in his heart beat like a drum and he could not make himself breathe. Naruto was just suffocating and coughing his insides out. His spine got crooked but it was not the pain – it was the feeling of loosing oneself. Even after drying the salty tears the vomit came up. He almost cried at the concert but bit his lip so that no one would notice.
What is actually love? He thought to himself. Someone to hold, to tell everything and the person would understand no matter what? Naruto found himself unable to answer that question.
After a brief moment of silence Deidara slapped Naruto's shoulder to tell him that he was forming a band but they lacked a singer. Naruto smiled and jokingly said that if they did not find any other guy or even sheep he would volunteer. Naruto was not actually serious but said that to comfort this somewhat sweet and dull guy.
It seems that Naruto forgot about his promise and kept on living like he always did until that one Wednesday. That day was like any other day in his puny little world; it was snowy and Naruto dragged himself to school. Everything was the same, Sakura not noticing him and that casual chit chat with Shikamaru. In the evening his phone rang which was a bit peculiar because he was not the talkative guy on phone and did not use it that much. On the screen was the name "Deidara", why the heck was he calling?
Naruto had totally forgotten the promise and even the fact that he gave the guy his phone number. With trembling hands he answered the phone afraid of what he might hear. Deidara asked him to join the band, but where were the sheep??? Naruto panicked but wanted to give it a try because he already liked Deidara and Sasori. The guy on the phone said that there was supposed to be three guys in the band already and he would become the fourth. Naruto already knew the other two, they were Deidara and Sasori – but who was the other unknown member?
The only thing he could possibly do know was to get together with those three. Being nervous Naruto asked whether it was okay if he took Shikamaru along to a meeting so that he would not be so out numbered. It was okay. Naruto was panicking the whole three days but it was not just bad feelings – anxiety grew in him by the time they got to the market place with Shikamaru. There he spotted the waving Deidara and the silent Sasori. Next to them stood a guy with raven black hair with a face that told Naruto he was not interested.
Everyone was introduced to one another although the third guy neglected the whole situation. The raven haired guy was called Sasuke and Naruto admired how cool and casual the guy seemed without ever saying a word. They headed for a café where it became very clear that this Sasuke guy hated Naruto's guts. He did not even talk to Naruto and getting answers from him was -needless to say- impossible.
Naruto had trouble to understand Sasuke and his motives because he had not done anything to upset the guy. Naruto felt himself uneasy and unable to lighten up the atmosphere. He felt somewhat sad because he thought he could have made a new friend. Deidara was smiling happily and offered Naruto coffee. The bunch of guys were chatting and joking around – all except Sasuke. Naruto felt disappointment crawling inside him but did nothing. The time was up and it seemed that everything would work out fine.
Next week Deidara called and asked Naruto to join him to the rehearsal. Naruto took Shikamaru with him again so that the situation would not feel so awkward. The rehearsal place was this grumpy old basement which had seen better times. The air was thick and it almost smelled like an old library in which Naruto liked to spend time for the same reason.
All the boys were a bit shy and the first time was just to let Naruto see how things work. Deidara played the bass, Sasori was behind drums and Sasuke, the angst ridden boy, had his guitar on him. Naruto and Shikamaru listened to the boys playing and had fun time joking with each other.
Naruto could not still miss the fact that Sasuke glared him with despise in his eyes. Naruto said quietly to Shikamaru that the raven haired guy absolutely hated his guts. Shikamaru took a look and muttered to Naruto that he was probably right and without realizing it made Naruto even sadder than before. Sasuke stared at the blond haired and blue eyed guy on the sofa and hoped that Deidara was just kidding about the guy joining their group.
Although he did not like the blue eyed one he had to admit that the guy's smirk was one of a kind and that he could get along with everybody. It still not changed the situation and Sasuke kept killing the guy with various ways in his mind.
After the rehearsal, it took one week before the next one and Naruto had had time to think everything in his mind. He came to a conclusion that he would make Sasuke his new friend and prove that their band would work out just fine with him in it. The next band rehearsal was on the same day as a gig where Naruto was supposed to go with his friends but he thought he had enough time to do both, but little did he know.
In the basement was madness at loose; other guys had joined them too and now it seemed it was all hell loose with alcohol in the mixture. Naruto just liked to watch those guys and smirk inside knowing that he was a lucky guy to own pales like these. Although Naruto did not drink so much he had a constant urge to go to the bathroom but not by himself – he did not know where the bathroom was.
Frustrated Sasori gave Sasuke the order to accompany Naruto in the bathroom. The boy was already dead drunk. Naruto panicked; why the heck it had to be the raven haired guy of all those people? Sasuke did not seem to be willing and snorted but went with it anyway. Sasuke had troubles to stand but he managed to lead the way. Naruto was a bit uncomfortable with the situation and kept babbling about anything that came into his mind.
Sasuke was so wasted that he almost went to the same toilet with the blond boy and was amazed at the situation himself. Naruto locked himself in the toilet and breathed slowly and thought that Sasuke was acting a bit weird. Although the guy did not speak nor talk on the way to toilet and back; it was obvious that he listened because of the grinds he made beside the blond.
In the basement room Sasuke sat beside Naruto on the sofa and started to tell about his ear plugs – what the heck? The guy really could talk? In the end he sang a song with Naruto. The singing part was a miracle because Sasuke did not sing and no he did not know how to sing. How did this blue eyed blonde make it? How was Sasuke able to across his presumptions? The guy did not know it even himself.
Time flew like never before because Naruto was having so much fun. He befriended with Kiba, who was a guitarist in a similar band. This guy was amazing; Naruto almost found him as his soul mate. They were chatting until it was Naruto's time to go to that concert in the centre of the city. He would have liked to stay but he had made a promise and his father was going to pick him up.
Deidara was happy-go-lucky and with the courage of alcohol run to Naruto and crabbed him to a tight hug. He said that Naruto would fit just perfectly – he had proved himself to be a nice guy. Naruto was almost at the door when Sasori surprised him from the back by hugging him too and nudging his head against Naruto's nape of the neck. It was time to go but the raven just stood there, not hugging nor saying goodbyes. Just standing silently and staggering a little. Naruto gave him the brightest smile and nodded; it was time to part until next time.
The gig was amazing and Naruto loved it with his whole heart. It was sad though that those guys did not come too, he thought to himself until his phone rang. It was Deidara again. Did he forget something? Or did I? The answer was neither. Deidara had just called to mumble that Naruto was a marvellous guy and some other stuff that Naruto did not hear nor understand. It was not just one call – Deidara called him three times and Sasori too. Those drunks!
Then the shock came when the phone rang again but this time is was Sasuke. Why oh god why, did I piss him off? Thought Naruto. He calmed himself down and answered the phone as casually as he could. The line was mute for a while until quiet but velvety voice whispered something. Naruto had to leave to a quieter place outside so he could manage to hear what the other drunken boy said.
"I…come with…me…how about…café…on Sunday?" What did he say?!? He invited Naruto to a date? What the heck! Naruto laughed nervously and said that the other boy did not need to make up anything with this. He was okay. Sasuke would not listen but insisted a date. How could Naruto say no? He could not.