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Juvia Point of View
Juvia had thought that by becoming a Fairy Tail mage, Juvia would have nakama. That Juvia would no longer be the little orphan girl that no one wanted. Or the Rain woman that everyone stayed away from in fear of their lives. But even here, in Fairy Tail, Juvia was not truly accepted. Juvia was so happy when Cana-chan yelled out to Juvia after Juvia had thrown herself at the lacrima, but soon after Juvia was at the back again.
Juvia didn't understand, why didn't Gray-sama love Juvia, or at least think of Juvia as nakama. Why was Juvia's love rival always so much better? Lucy had everything, Lucy had Natsu and Happy as a family, and all of Fairy Tail as her nakama. Why couldn't Juvia have Gray-sama? Was it so much to ask for? Juvia could feel the rain around her getting heavier, but Juvia didn't care, Juvia's rain wasn't hurting anyone.
"Juvia? Why is it raining?" Juvia turned, and saw Levy. The closest thing Juvia had to a nakama, Juvia searched Levy's eyes, hoping to find some sort of emotional response, but Levy was only concerned about the cold.
"Levy-chan, are you cold? And Juvia was remembering sad things." Curiosity flittered through Levy's eyes.
"Why? Why would you think of sad things?"
"Sometimes Juvia likes to remember how bad things were for Juvia. So Juvia can always see how much better things are now. It makes Juvia feel warm inside." She smiled sadly.
"Okay, then. Let's go back to the guild." Levy said, Juvia had felt a small blossom of hope appear in her heart when she said that and had slowly started to reach her hand out, but Levy had already turned her back on Juvia. Hope crushed, she stood her ground, "Juvia thinks Levy-chan should go first. Juvia wants to stay here for a bit longer."
"Okay then, but Juvia?"
"Yes, Levy-chan."
"Don't do anything you might regret." Levy gave her a meaningful look, before walking off. Normally this would have Juvia fuming, but right now Juvia merely gave a small shrug. It still hurt though for Juvia's 'nakama' to think they needed to take responsibility and tone down Juvia's love for Gray-sama. Juvia loved Gray-sama, and gets berated for it. But Lucy could flirt with everyone and make Natsu jealous, and everybody would fine and laugh.
Why was her love wrong?
Maybe if Juvia acted more like Lucy, or looked more like Lucy. Would Fairy Tail love her then? It wouldn't hurt to try? Would it? Slowly getting up, Juvia left for Lucy's apartment. The more Juvia thought about it the more excited she became. This might actually work. The door was locked but Juvia was made out of water and easily slid through the gaps. Opening the drawers Juvia pulled out the first thing in there and put it on. Excited she opened the door to the bathroom to borrow a brush.
Only to find Lucy sitting on Gray-sama's lap.
"Hahahahaha!" Lucy burst out. "I'm sorry. It's just…I've never…I've never seen you in pink before." She giggled while Gray stared on horrified.
"Oh, sorry for interrupting…" Juvia, turned away and closed the bathroom door behind her. Walking briskly intent on leaving she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. And Juvia hated it. All that dieting had been for nothing, Juvia's breasts were too small for the bright pink shirt. But too tight everywhere else, the muffin top bulged out of the bottom, and Juvia could see the bright red stretch marks on the top of her thighs. Sprinting Juvia ran back to the lake, where she began to cry uncontrollably.
It was bad enough that Juvia was fat and tried to squeeze herself into Lucy's pretty clothes. But it was even worse that Gray-sama saw her like this, Gray-sama would probably never talk to her again. Even Juvia could see how disgusted he was. By tomorrow, everyone would know. Juvia was too embarrassed to ever see them again and they wouldn't want Juvia anymore. Especially if Juvia was fat and didn't have nakama to help do the larger missions. Juvia would have to change guilds again…but Fairy Tail was the most accepting guild. If Fairy Tail didn't want Juvia, no guild would.
Juvia was useless.
Juvia didn't want to trouble Fairy Tail with her body, so she returned to the first place she saw sunlight, and fell backwards to become rain once again.