Disclaimer: Naruto is not mine, otherwise Itachi wouldn't be that much of a psycho as he turned out to be in Manga Chapter 386...
Author's note: Well, what can I say...this little piece was written some time ago, while watching the german dub (shudder) of Naruto. It was an idea that popped into my head and wouldn't leave. Personally, I think it is not really good, but I wanted to post it anyways. Hope you enjoy it!
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Learning
He wasn't stupid.
He wasn't blinded by rage or hate.
He knew exactly what he did when he attacked Itachi.
He knew perfectly that he could not defeat his brother that day, not even with the help of the cursed seal.
He would like to say that it wasn't like this.
He would like to pretend that he didn't knew what he did.
But he knew.
Knew why he had feared to be killed by anyone else.
Knew why he couldn't defeat Itachi.
Knew why he lacked hatred.
Knew why he attacked.
He didn't wanted to kill, but to be killed.
Killed by the same man who had murdered his entire clan and now was all he had left.
He wanted to die that day, so the pain would end.
He didn't wanted to be strong enough to defeat Itachi, only strong enough to be accepted. Strong enough to be worthy to be killed by his brother.
But he wasn't.
His brother was right, he lacked hatred.
The worst was that he couldn't hate, simply couldn't hate Itachi enough.
But as he relieved the massacre of his clan for a second time, as he had to watch helplessly how everyone was slaughtered by his brother, Sasuke learned to hate.
He learned to hate his own weakness.
Sasuke learned to hate himself.
And maybe it would be enough to defeat Itachi.
END
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Author's note: Here you go...I hope you liked it. As always constructive criticism is appreciated, and please be aware that English is is not my native language(so, if you find errors, it would be nice to point them out, so I can fix them).