on snape and lily. lily's pov.
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You love me. Passionately, angrily, painfully, mournfully.
You know I cannot love you back, not with that growing darkness within you.
I am but one star in a sea of pure night.
And even a star will eventually die.
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You look at me and I stare back at you with hatred, betrayal, regret, loss.
You tell me you're sorry. I say it's too late.
I turn away. I turn away because you love me.
And I cannot love you back.
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Your lip curls as you see me with him, your most hated enemy.
I should tell you, James doesn't hate you.
How could he, when he's trying to atone for Sirius's mistake?
You don't listen though and my heart breaks.
Because I cannot stand the hatred between the three of us.
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We stand on different sides of the battlefield.
I wish we didn't have to fight.
Not like this, with the betrayal in your eyes as you see me holding James's hand.
We raise our wands.
And sparks fly.
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There are too many regrets in one life.
I don't think of them as I frantically rush to save my baby.
But I think of them later, as I watch my baby's painful 17 years without me and James.
I wish you didn't treat him so.
I wish a lot of things.
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We look at each other in a field of white.
You tell me my son's eyes are just like mine.
I whisper I know.
I know you looked into Harry's eyes as you died.
I know your Patronus is like mine.
I know you still love me.
But we weren't meant to be.
We never were.
But my heart knows… if things were different, perhaps I might have eventually loved you back.
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But in an insane world like ours, it's impossible.