Quinn

Why does life have to be so complicated? So much has happened to me in the duration of one year. The baby, getting kicked out of the house, the Cheerios as well. But most importantly Rachel freaking Berry. She drives me completely crazy. With her stupid little outfits, the bloody argyle sweaters make me want to vomit all over it, the sweaters would actually look better if I did. Her midget height and the way she always thinks that she is the best at everything she does. It drives me insane. I don't understand her.

Then realisation hit me.

"Jesus Christ." I murmur. No this cannot be happening, am I envying Rachel RuPaul Berry right now? Is that even possible? I curse again. Of course it's possible. She has the perfect little life. I chuckle, yeah that's for sure. Her school life is a living hell. But as I look at her from across the room, I see her. She looks so happy.

"Hey Q, you alright? You spaced out for the Glee lesson." I turn around and I see Santana's determined but caring eyes. I sigh.

"Hey S, I'm fine. Couldn't be better." I smiled but I think it looked more like a grimace more than anything.

I slowly get up and walk to my locker.

I knew she didn't believe me, but I know she can't be bothered enough to care. No one cares about me. I thought Puck did, but I know full well he only cared about Beth. Finn surely doesn't because he has Ra-Berry. And everyone else is other too scared of me or just can't be bothered with my problems, like Santana. Which is completely understandable, I'm a mess. But there is one person who still wants to be my friend, Stubbles. It makes me laugh and I keep on asking myself why? All that I have done to her, I'm a terrible person. Sometimes I wish I can be Lucy again. That innocent little girl who refuses to cause harm. What happened to me? All I wanted was popularity, and where did that get me? Straight back to the bottom.

"Quinn?" I felt a tap on my shoulder and turn around, Rachel. God she looks beautiful today, her big brown eyes have a twinkle in them. Her smile and her perfect teeth and those li- okay stop she's talking.

"So what do you say?" Oh crap, I missed all of that I was so distracted by the way her mouth moves when she's talking, imagine what they would be like when- holy shit Quinn snap out of it.

"About what?"

"Did you listen to a word I said? I know I tend to ramble but it's no excuse" I covered her mouth with my hand.

"Rachel, I've had a rough day. Can you please repeat what you said?" I give her a soft smile, god she's cute when she's frustrated.

"My apologies, I am having a bunch of people from glee over tonight at 6:00pm to have some 'bonding time.' It would be absolutely wonderful if you would attend." She finished off with an award-winning smile and a wink. I give her a genuine smile, "I would love to."

That took her completely off guard, her eyes almost popped out of her head. But she contained her excitement by giving me a hug. I slowly wrap my arms around her and enjoy the moment. I almost cried, I'm pretty sure she is. "I know I'm amazing but I don't think the tears are necessary." I chuckled. She jumped right out of my arms and was rambling so many apologies.

"Wow, hey it's okay. I'm touched." I reassure her with a soft smile. She smiles and nods. Walking away.

"See you at 6:00pm!" She's crazy, but now I feel cold and lonely. This sucks.

"What to wear? What to wear?." I'm pretty sure half my closet is on the floor. I haven't been out since the baby drama so I haven't been shopping recently. I really want to call Santana, but I know she's going to be busy with Brittany. Or should I say 'busy.'

I gave up and put on one of my simple sundresses. I sighed, I really wanted to impress Rachel. Who am I kidding, she's a straight as an arrow. I don't even know what sexuality I am, I was attracted to both Finn and Puck. So maybe I'm Bisexual? Yeah, I'll leave it as that.

"Shit! I'm completely late!" It's 5 past 6, how long have I been daydreaming? I put on some mascara and run out the door. My mother isn't home, she has to work long shifts at the diner since she divorced my father. As I said earlier, why does life have to be so complicated? I jumped in the car and drove. Just finally did something right, divorce that douche bag. I know it's wrong to talk that way about my father. But he caused so much heartache in my family, all I wanted was my parents to be happy. That was the day I decided to remove Lucy and be that perfect daughter my parents wanted me to be. I have to thank plastic surgery, hair dye and ballet for that.

I am half Quinn half Lucy now. I now dress in that innocent way she used to, get lost in a book to avoid socialising. But I still don't know how to be her. She was such a good person. Lucy would never have hurt a fly. I stop the car after I arrive at Rachel's house. I now talk as if Lucy was a dead twin sister. I sometimes wish I can wake up in an alternate universe where I'm still Lucy. I never changed who I was just to fit in. As I knock on the door and wait, I realised as that beautiful girl who stole my heart completely. She is still her, even though the whole school population wish she did. People now think I am Lucy's sister because they think she moved with her father, how wrong they are makes me laugh.

"Quinn! You made it!" Rachel showed me another surprised look, I inwardly roll my eyes. But smile anyway. "Of course I did."

AN: Hey guys. Sorry for stopping it here. It's really late and I needed to stop. What do you think? This is the first Faberry fanfic I have written so I need some tips :) thanks!