Breathe
After Edward Leaves Bella in New Moon – both sides of view. Song 'Breathe' by Taylor Swift
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
Cos none of us thought it was gunna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Pain ripped throughout my body.
He was gone. He was gone.
He can't be gone.
He said he loved me.
He LOVED ME!
Doesn't he care? How can he just change his mind, just like that?
After everything, he just leaves me?
Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cos its tragedy and it'll only bring you down
No I don't know what to be without you around
No music. Never any music. No movies – I can't handle to romance. It seems so fake in comparison to what I had with Him.
No, it's bringing me down again. I can't go down. I have Charlie to consider.
But what can I do with out Him? He was my life, my future,
What can I do without Him?
And we know it's never simple never easy
For a clean break no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
A clean break, that's what he'll call it. Help me heal.
But I can't heal.
No now, not ever. He's gone.
Now no one can save me.
Poor pathetic Bella, who needs a Vampire to cross the road.
What can I do, now that the only for normalcy has just up and left? I don't know anything else, or anybody else.
And I can't
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathing hurts now.
I try not to breathe too often. It sets my lungs alight – sometimes, that pain is the only thing that proves I'm alive.
I can't breath without Him.
But I have to. For Charlie, for Renee.
Never wanted this never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
But people are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
And nothing we say is gunna save us from the fall out
My poor Bella. I never wanted to do this.
I wish I could tell you. I wish I could tell you that this was better for you in the long run. That this little bump in the road would save you.
I didn't account for the physical pain though.
It's like she's kept my heart with her, and it the distance is too painful.
But I can't go back – I can't ruin her life again. Not again.
And we know it's never simple never easy
For a clean break no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
But how can I not? She's the only light I've ever known. I know this is supposed to be a clean break, but why are my wounds still feastering, why do I feel empty, hollow?
Why do my hands still trace circles around and around, trying to replicate the feeling of you, but no surface is as smooth.
And I can't
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
I don't breathe at all anymore. I just stay here, watching a clock in a dark room.
The seconds creep by.
I tried once, but the pain was so exaggerated, that it wasn't worth the repeated effort.
I wonder if it hurts her as much as it does me?
It's two AM feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this not easy, easy for me
He took them all away. The nightmares woke me up screaming again. Charlie doesn't come up anymore, so I cannot share my revelation. He sent them all away, my whole family – Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie – Alice, my best friend.
Is He trying to kill me from afar?
I don't know which is worse – knowing that they're never coming back? Or the fact that he sent them away?
It's two AM feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
I miss my family. Even Rosalie. It's killing me, but somehow, my family isn't family without Bella.
I lost my one friend when I chose to save her life.
2:01 AM – that's seven weeks, 2 days and 7 hours since I left her.
And we know it's never simple never easy
For a clean break no one here to save me
Who is going to save me form this endless torture now?
And I can't
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
I'm going to start breathing again, despite the pain it causes, despite the pain that He causes.
I'm going to start breathing again – for her, because she has to breath as well.
(I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry)
I wonder, if I ever see that person again, will I say sorry? Bella wondered as the nothingness slowly took over.
I wonder if I'll ever see her again, Edward wondered from somewhere in Alabama.