Ikuto just doesn't realize anything does he? Our concern. Our hurt. He just goes off at the call of her whim. With us he was stubborn and cruel, but with her I'm not sure if he's showing his real side or a side that he just made up. I hate this I might be jealous but I don't care. I miss when he was with us and he would play and make us smile. Those days when we just smiled and spent as much time as possible together. I miss him. I miss my brother. I sometimes wish she didn't exist I wish I could revolve time and go back to the days when things were right. Back to the days that were perfect. We would all be gathered in the same room watching a movie. Me falling asleep and then the next day waking up to my friends. I wonder whatever happened to those days. But I have learned that with age comes change and without change we can't grow. We can't grow as people we can't grow at all. Ever since that day every time he leaves I get a sudden burst of anger towards her that's dragging him away from us. Every time that she comes over I put on a fake smile and go on through the day. I wonder how much longer this can go on? One day I wonder. One day will I ever be able to look back and laugh about this or will I one day end up crying myself to sleep because of this?