Title: Letting You Go

Author: Sariyuki

Disclaimer: All characters used in this fic are owned by Maki Murakami, the great author of Gravitation series *bows*

Notes: The following is Hiro's feeling towards his bestfriend, Shuichi. Hiro, being Shuichi's bestfriend couldn't express his feeling towards Shuichi because he cared so much of Shuichi's happiness. Rather ... he'd suffer silently ...

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How much longer could I stand this?

How much longer before I break down and cry?

If I hold this feeling a little bit longer, would I die?

I kept thinking to myself. Which one is the cruellest ... lying to yourself or lying to your best friend?

I've never felt so lonely like now. Never felt so out of place. Out of ... love.

I felt so tired.

Perhaps I should just let it all go away. Let it drift away.

I turned my gaze to the night sky. So many stars were up there, twinkling, blinking, and winking at me. They were more alive than me.

Once more, I walked down the same street I usually walked with you. We used to walk this street on our way back home. You used to be with me.

I walked alone, talking to myself. I felt kind of crazy ... but that's okay.

I almost hoped that I'd find you on my way. I smiled, realising that I was stupid.

Why would you be here 'coz you've got Yuki now.

I still couldn't use to say his name. Yuki. My rival.

I smiled bitterly again, he's not actually a rival really 'coz you've chosen him. I was no rival to him. I was just another loser in this world.

Is this what people call "broken heart"?

I ran my fingers to my chest. Why is it so painful?

Why I can't let it go?

I kept thinking of the days when it was only the two of us. There was no Yuki back then. You were only mine. We were happy to have each other. But I guess that's not enough for you, ne, Shuichi?

I reached the parking lot and found my bike there. I put on my helmet and turned on the engine. I didn't intend to go home. Not now. I wanted to chase this feeling away and to run away from everything. I accelerated and my bike roared in anticipation.

It would have been so easy if you'd only make me cry, Shuichi.

Than told me that you're leaving me.

It's hard. It's tearing out my heart.

It's so hard letting you go.

I wish that I could cry.

Wish that I could find a way to ease this pain.

I didn't see it coming. The car was also speeding. Instinctively, I tried to avoid the crash but I couldn't keep my balance. I fell. I felt the asphalt scratching my skin. My bike was thrown some metres away from me. Blood was dripping from somewhere of my body.

It was strange.

It's so strange, Shuichi.

My body didn't feel anything. My body didn't feel painful.

I lifted my hand and place it on my chest. Why is it here that is so painful?

I don't understand, Shuichi.

I don't understand.