She was disoriented. Messing up again and again. He tried to fix her. He patched her up but she kept falling apart. She could never be whole. Never.
She had no comfort. No sympathy. Only a memory. And it KILLED her.
He was gone. And she couldn't chase him. Impossible, because he loved her. Not me. He never did. And the blow was too hard for my mind. He loved her. Her
I was never strong. Never. I put on a show and people believed it. Pushed them away before they did it first. I wasn't about to be vulnerable, left in the hands of whoever may please. To poison my soul with lies and promises only to be broken and my hope disintegrated into the shadows of what is me. I want to be someone Who is not me. I write. Maybe to make a soul I never had. A feeling I've never felt. A life never lived. A breath not taken. One to replace my own. Do I even have one anymore
She's beautiful. Truly she is. I'm happy for her with any last bit of happiness left. I don't have allot
What I have I don't deserve. I misuse happiness and turn it into pain and betrayal. I took him for granted. I pushed him out of my heart with no way in. He stayed in the depths of it anyway. I should have expected this
Trying to pick it up matters less and less as the seconds pass. I hold onto nothing and no one. That's the way I am. And I am forever me. No escape.
He said he wants to be my f r i e n d. That he'll comfort me and be there. Always there. But his lips were my sympathy, his eyes my resting place. Now I dare not see his face. He belongs first to her. And I'm a miserable fool.
I wish I was a spirit. To hover the grounds once touched, to remain unseen and to only see but never to be heard.
A n d r e walked into the room and I hid in my hands. lying on the floor and half expecting someone else. A n y o n e e l s e
My eyes were dampened and stuck with aged tears that faded into my skin. His first words struck me down just a little bit lower.
"You okay?"
...The thought process took minutes
"Of course I'm okay! Why wouldn't I be okay!" I was harsh. No surprize.
"It's what happened with you and Beck "
"I don't care what happened with me and beck!"
My yelling echoed across the room. I made no sense at all.
"Jade, I know-"No!"
No one could break me
"You do!-"I don't!" Cut
"Fighting the world don't make it go away" Cut number two
"You don't know me" She let out with no strength left. Tears were streaming down her eyes slowly but heavily. There was nothing left. She was too weak. He had cracked her open. Done
She closed her eyes as he held her. Someone. She didn't know anything. She knew absolutely nothing at all. Nothing. All she knew was someone broke her wall. Someone. He got inside. She had one hope now. Just one. Not that he would fix her. Or even comfort her in her misery. But that he wouldn't break her. Never.