A/N wrote this when I was really bored, so sorry if it's bad.

It's true that no one will ever want me, because it was what hetold me. He said, "That I should be unloved and cause nothing but pain." But he never listened to my side of the story. He only saw what it seemed like, but did not try and comprehend. And it hurts more and more everyday just to see his face, around school along with his family, my former family, knowing that they hate me. Just thinking their names hurts causing me to flinch. What did I do you may ask, nothing absolutely nothing…
~~flashback~~
We went to Mike Newton's party, just like any other Friday night. Edward said he will be back in a few minutes. After about ten minutes I could not see Edward anywhere so I went look for him. I decided to ask Alice,
"Hey Alice have you seen Edward anywhere"

"No, why isn't he with you?" she replied her words slurring together.

"He said he would be back but I can't find him"

"Don't worry, he's probably around here somewhere" And left dragging Jazz with her.

"Edward! Where did you go?" I yelled into a hall and went in it thinking Edward would have been in one of the rooms. "Ed..." I was cut off by someone covering my mouth, by an unfamiliar hand. Their arm snaked around my waist and dragged me backwards. I tried screaming, but no one could hear me because of the music roaring downstairs. I saw who took me here it was Jacob, and I knew that his intentions were not good. I always thought Jacob was my friend.

"Jake, why are you doing this?" He ripped my shirt off and kept proceeding before replying. I started praying that Edward would come and save me before it was too late.

"Because I can never have you any other way but this." The tears kept streaming down my face and suddenly he rammed in to me and my innocence was gone. "Well who would have thought Miss. Isabella was still a virgin." What I was saving for Edward just gone. With every thrust that followed I only felt like I was betraying Edward. All of the sudden the door flew open and I saw Edward, fury laced within his eyes. He did not register the tears in my eyes, or anything else and stated that I was useless and would be a whore.

His exact words were "You are just a stupid bitch, who wanted nothing but a fuck, and I guess I was a waste of your time then. And now look you thought I would not find out but I did, and you're only crying to make me feel sympathy for you. But that will never work, because from this day forward the only feeling you will bring to me is hatred. Why did you play with me, I thought you were a bad liar, but instead you are a brilliant actress. Was I just a game to you, while you had fun on the sidelines? With a mutt" And he stormed out, leaving me behind with a smirking Jake.

~~end of flashback~~

Now every time I see one of the Cullens they just send a nasty glare at me that makes me want to die. I might as well be dead seeing how I never sleep and barley eat nowadays, after knowing how worthless I really am. After months crying does nothing, and now I am just a body with no soul left, just lifeless. Charlie is too busy to notice how I am. My only family now hates me more than the most evil thing in the world. The thoughts of ending my life have entered my mind countless times. It's not like any one would miss me right. The whole town hates me after Edward told everyone what happened. I made up my mind I would write one letter to Edward and give it to him before I commit suicide. Because as it is; I am worthless right?

I finished writing the letter in study hall, and my next class being biology I will slip the note in to his bag. Waiting for biology has never taken so long. On my way to class l received many glares, and occasional comment of how I was a slut. Today none of the comment bothered me, thinking of today being the last day to live made me happy, something different from my usual deadness. Today would be the last time I actually look at Edward. I took his appearance in, he look just as bad as I did, but he had Tanya hanging off his arm. Should I be angry that he has someone else now? Maybe; but he hurt me I don't know what to feel. I put the letter in his biology book at the end of class when he was not looking; knowing he never uses it unless it is needed in class. I left school that day smiling seeing how it would be my last day for ever. I never did see myself graduating; I guess something in life never happen.

The drive home was a peaceful one, as the day set my mood perfectly filled with thunderstorms. Once home I put my bag in my room and wrote a quick note to Charlie that I would forever love him, but I would not be returning, but I put the note in his room in case he came home early and found out. I took the sharpest knife find in the drawer and went out of the back door to the edge of the forest. I remembered how I forgot to mention to Edward how I planning on committing suicide, oh well he will find out once it's too late. I started to slice my wrists, instead of feeling pain all I felt was nothing but I could see the red blood trickle down my white skin. I cut another slit in my elbow near a vain so it would happen faster. My last few thoughts were about Edward and how I loved him, but my question is should I still love him, even after he did not let me explain. But my heart will always love him no matter what. I prayed that Charlie and the Cullens would have a happy life without me. Because all I do is cause pain.