My life is a Taylor Swift song. How much more pathetic can you get? Don't get me wrong, I am a major fan of Taylor Swift but she writes the same stuff about her being invisible, her crush not liking her, finding true love then losing it, getting angry and making up, yada yada yada. I mean come on, not everyone's life has that much drama. Unfortunately, mine does. Well, sort of. You see, I am in love with my best friend who I have known since I was 7. His name is Edward and he is just absolutely gorgeous. He is super tall with well toned muscles, bronze hair that is always sexily messed up, a beautifully crooked smile that he threw at everyone that made him happy, and, my personal favorite, piercing green eyes that seemed to look straight into my soul. Of course, if they really did, then he would know that I am in love with him! Ugh, this boy infuriates me. To top his amazingness all off, he is the quarterback of the football team and insanely smart. So cliché, right? But its shockingly true.
Anyways, I have known Edward ever since I moved in with my dad when I was seven after my mom remarried to Phil. I am so happy I did. Don't take it the wrong way though. Phil is a great guy, its just that their relationship was very new and I didn't want them to feel put out by me. So I moved myself out here to be with my dad, Charlie, who is totally awesome. He is pretty quiet but I know he loves me and couldn't be happier that I live with him. I was pretty scared to move out here because I knew no one but I made friends really quick. You see, the day after I moved in (and I moved in the summer so I was off school), the Cullen and Hale families came over and introduced themselves. The Cullens lived down the street from my dad and the Hales lived across the street. They came over and brought their children who just happened to be my future best friends. Dr. Carlisle and his wife Esme had Emmett, 9, and Edward and Alice who looked nothing alike though they were twins, both 7. The Hales had Rosalie and Jasper who were also twins, both 8. I still remember that day like it was yesterday…
~Flashback~
"Dad, did you see where I put Mr. Fuzz? I can't find him anywhere and I already unpacked my boxes," I said as I came running down the stairs, my brown, wavy hair bouncing in a ponytail behind me. Naturally, being the total klutz I am, I tripped on the final stair and fell flat on my face.
"Oof!" I said as I picked myself up off the ground.
"Bells? Are you alright? I thought I heard a thud," Charlie said as he came running to see if I was alright. When he came in and saw that I was up and functioning, he laughed.
"Oh Bella, you are still just as clumsy as you were as a baby. Good to know you haven't changed," he said as he came over and wrapped me in a big hug while I grinned up at him. "Now, lets find this Mr. Fuzz of yours. He is a teddy bear, I assume?"
"He sure is! And he's really fuzzy" I said in all seriousness as Charlie just laughed at me.
We both went into the living room and searched high and low for the bear and we just couldn't find him. When we were just about to go into another room, the doorbell rang and I ran to follow Charlie who was walking swiftly to the door. Once we got there, I saw a bunch of kids out on the porch and 4 older people smiling at Charlie and I through the screen.
"Hey Chief Swan! We heard your daughter came yesterday and thought we would come and introduce the kids to her," said a man who looked very nice. I liked him immediately.
"Well hey there, Dr." he said as he opened the door and shook the man's hand. He hugged the women who walked in behind the doctor and shook the other man's hand as well. "How have you been Richard?"
The kids, who were behind their parents filed in after them surprisingly quiet. I took in each of them at once. First, there was a really big one who looked like he could be in third grade with curly brown hair and wide, brown eyes. Second, a smaller boy with blonde hair and clear, blue eyes came trailing in behind the first. Behind the blonde came two girls holding each other's hands, a small one with short, dark hair, and a tall one with long blonde hair. They looked like they were really nice, I decided. Behind them, followed a cute little boy with long, messy hair that looked like the color of the pennies in my piggy bank. He looked the nicest I decided as he looked around the house with kind, green eyes. His eyes found me, hiding behind Charlie's leg and he smiled what was the first of many crooked smiles at me. I smiled shyly back at him as I blushed and ducked my head.
"My goodness, Charlie, is this Bella all grown up? Why the last time I saw her, she was barely walking!" Said a kind looking woman with brown hair, standing next to the doctor.
"Oh she's so beautiful, Charlie! Just look at her, so old now!" The other woman with blonde hair exclaimed. Charlie stepped to the side, giving them a full view of me and I smiled shyly at them all as I blushed a deep red.
"Bella, these people live right around here and they've brought their kids to say hi," Charlie said as he smiled down at me. I stepped in front of him and smiled at all of them kindly.
"Its nice to meet you," I said quietly. All the kids stepped toward me and offered their names.
The short girl with dark hair stepped right up to me and wrapped her small arms around me in a friendly hug. "I'm Alice and I can tell that we are going to be best friends!" she said in a high-pitched voice. The blonde girl stepped up after her and gave me a huge grin and said, "My name's Rosalie and I like you already" I smiled back at her as the big boy stepped toward me and gave me a huge bear hug that squished all my bones. "My name is Emmett the Mighty, but you can just call me Emmett," he said as he released me. The tall, blonde boy stepped up to me next and gave me a shy smile, saying, "I'm Jasper." I gave him an equally shy smile in response. Finally, the last boy came up to me and beamed, saying, "Bella, my name is Edward and I think you are very pretty." I blushed bright red but responded saying, "Hi Edward. I'ts very nice to meet you."
~End Flashback~
And that was it. It was the first moment I met Edward that I knew he was destined to be my very best friend and that's how it has been ever since. Emmett and Jasper are the brothers I never had and Alice and Rosalie are the sisters and best girl friends a girl could ever want. When we reached high school, Emmett and Rosalie started dating, as did Jasper and Alice. It seemed perfectly normal to us, though, because Emmett and Rosalie were always flirting with each other and making out when they thought no one was watching. Alice and Jasper were just adorable because they could just sit next to each other for hours without saying anything but saying everything with their silence. As for Edward and me? We stayed best friends and knew everything there is to know about each other. We spent practically every waking moment together and even spent some nights together. You see, we have this really close relationship that if I am super upset about something, Edward will just come to my house and spend the night with me, just laying there, comforting me with his songs or vice versa, just me without the songs. Did I mention that Edward plays the piano? Well if I didn't, he does. And those are the songs he would hum to me. Charlie never knew what was happening because when we were in 4th grade, we set up ladders going into each other's rooms so that we wouldn't ever have to use the front door. It has been very handy throughout the years because I am guessing Charlie would flip out if he knew that Edward was sneaking into my room at night, even though we are doing nothing wrong. So anyways, that's where Edward and I stand on the whole relationship thing. Best friends who, I am pretty sure, can't get any closer.
As I got into Edward's car on Monday morning, I couldn't help but overhear the conversation between Edward and his long-term girlfriend, Tanya, or a.k.a., the Beast but only by the rest of our group. We would never tell Edward or he would kill us all. "Tanya, I already said I was sorry! What else do you want me to say? I was just joking around with you. I didn't know you would take me seriously." A long pause followed and I assumed Edward was getting an ear full.
"Tanya, listen to me please! I am truly sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry." Another pause. "Well, I don't know what else you want me to say. Talk to me when you forgive me, or don't. Its up to you," He said as he shut the phone with a frustrated groan. He slammed the phone down onto the dashboard and put his head on the steering wheel. I wasn't sure what I should do so I just put my hand on his shoulder lightly and rubbed soothing circles on his back. After a minute or so, he sat up and turned to me, giving me a slight smirk.
"Good morning, Bella. Sorry about that. Tanya was just being…Tanya, I guess," he said with a sigh. I removed my hand from his shoulder and placed it on his hands that were gripping the wheel so hard, his knuckles were turning white.
"Edward, its fine. I still don't know why you put up with her, though. She seems to always be so angry at you lately" I said as I looked at him. He looked at me with pain in his eyes and said, "I honestly don't know anymore. I say the littlest things and I just set her off. She just doesn't understand when I am joking around with her and she ends up being offended! I guess I just can't joke around with her like I do with…" he trailed off as he turned his head toward the road and started the engine.
I also turned to look at the road and took my hand off of his. I assumed he was going to say "with you" but I didn't want to make a fool of myself and say anything so I sat in silence. It made me happy to know that he realizes I get his jokes and stuff and that he is more comfortable with me. I just wish that he would realize he was in love with me too.
As we pulled into the school, I looked around and saw Alice and Rose standing next to Emmett's jeep. Emmett and Jasper had probably already gone to drop off their practice gear in the locker room. I grabbed my bag and got out of Edward's car, making my way over to where the girls were standing. As I drew nearer, Alice squealed and ran over to me, wrapping me in a tight hug.
"Alice, its good to see you too," I said with a laugh. "But I just saw you on Saturday when you nearly killed me so what's with the overenthusiastic greeting?" I asked with a playful smile on my face. I, of course, was referring to the shopping trip she, Rose, and I all had in Port Angeles. I hate any type of shopping anyways, unless it's online and even then it's iffy, but going with Rose and Alice is just pure torture from Hell. They seem to think it's fun to give me a billion things to try on and force me into the ugliest clothes that are supposedly in style. This particular Saturday wasn't as bad as it usually is and I ended up getting some really cute stuff.
"Bella, you are wearing one of the shirts you bought on Saturday! I am so proud of you," She said as she wiped a fake tear off her cheek.
"Yeah, Bella. It looks fabulous on you! We picked good, Alice" Rosalie said as she came up and gave me a hug.
"Thanks guys, but it really isn't that big of a deal. It's just another shirt," I said with an eye roll. I looked to Edward for back up but found that he wasn't with me anymore. I looked around to see where he was and saw that he was pressed up against his car in a full make-out session with Tanya. I winced when I saw them and looked over to Rose and Alice and saw they had sympathetic looks on their faces.
"I guess they made up," I said with a sigh. Just then the bell rang. "Come on guys or we'll be late." We slowly made our way to the school and said our goodbyes, seeing as we didn't have any classes together, except lunch. Rosalie and Alice both new about my love for Edward and truly felt for me. They were both willing to help me do something about it but I was too scared to ruin our friendship so I made them swear not to tell anyone, even Emmett and Jasper. As I walked into my first period English class, I went to my usual seat with a heavy heart, knowing Edward wasn't going to be sitting next to me today, seeing as things are now ok with him and Tanya. If only he knew how I felt, and he felt the same I thought as I slid out my notebook, preparing for the long class to start.