Quinn :Staring up at the ceiling. Drained. Alone. I saw him get up his eyes cast over me.
Will: All the life was drained out of her eyes. She lay there looking defeated. Almost dead.
Quinn: I wish I was dead.
Will: I wish it hadn't gone this far.
Quinn: Senior year and I've finally found myself. Who needs friends. I'm not sure what the turning point was , dying my hair, the nose ring or when I finally realised that none of it was worth it anymore, all I know is I'm never going back. As I pushed open the red plastic door and strode into the hallway everyone stared. When I walked down the middle everyone parted like the red sea. But in a different way than before , they all moved out of fear rather than respect. I could see Rachel staring at me through the choir room door , she can have another slap if she thinks I'm coming back to Glee. It never really made me happy.
Will: Another year. But I've got so much more prepared for my Glee kids. We're going to win nationals I can feel it. It's a last year for a lot of them and I want it to go out with a bang! I want them to feel special. Walking down the hallway I notice walls of students sticking to the lockers as if they were watching something. Wondering if I have to break up another cat fight I poke my head round to check out what everyone was looking at.
Quinn: I can see Mr Shuester trying to get a look at me, to see how much I've changed. He'll probably pull me to the side and give me one of his inspirational pep talks. I'm over anything to do with that man or his stupid club.
Will: At first I thought it was a new student. But then I saw the eyes, the big green eyes and the perfect bone structure and realised who it was.
Quinn: I'm trying hard not to break into a smile at how ridiculous he looks. I mean , dropping his jaw really isn't a good look for Mr Shue. I just give him a good stare as I walk by. Followed by looking him up and down.
Will: I can't believer it's her. Now I wonder if she'll come back to Glee.
Quinn: I'm never going back to Glee, ever.
I'm cutting class as usual behind the bleachers and I hear the clicking of tiny heels approaching. Then I hear.
"Quinn?" and realise it's Rachel not a teacher of someone important, I light up a cigarette. "Look , we were friends once," she says giving me the puppy dog eyes look. As far as I remember she told my boyfriend that I cheated on him so she could date him. So we're not or ever have been friends. "Come back to Glee, we need your glamour and you're actually a good singer Quinn."
"People grow apart deal with it." I say stopping her in mid sentence.
"I'm sorry you're so sad Quinn. Mr Shue was asking where you were and everyone misses you."
"You never understood the pressure I was under it sucked. I'm not interested in the boys, make up or polyester outfits."
"We've been through so much together. We're practically a family. This is our year to get it right. Just…..look we'll be happy to welcome you back whenever you're ready." she finished , then strutting off in her tiny heels.
I know Glee Club is her whole life but I just can't do it anymore. People need to leave me alone and accept that this is who I am. Just because Rachel Berry tells me who I should be or what I should do doesn't mean she's right or that I'm gonna do it. No one can control me anymore. Not my mom, Puck, Rachel, Mr Shue. Nobody.
Will: First Spanish lesson of the year then our first Glee Club meeting! I hope we have enough members to compete at sectionals this year. I heard that Zises left and I don't even know about Quinn. I don't understand why she's gone so astray she had everything a high school student could want and more! The students start to filter into the classroom. I call out the names , after I call out Quinn's I can see an empty seat next to Puckerman. Rachel walks into my lesson 15 minutes late.
"Where've you been Rachel? Your 15 minutes late!"
"I'm sorry Mr Shue, I've been um…er…..busy?"
"Sit down" she scuttles to her seat in her tiny heels. "you can stay after class and explain."
"Great(!)" she muttered sarcastically. I turn around as give her a stare and she throws herself into her Spanish textbook.
Quinn: After Rachel scuttled off I put out my cigarette and walked to the main building. The school was quiet as everyone was still in class. I have to walk through the main building to get to my burn out of a car in the parking lot.
Will: After setting them all work Finn raises his hand.
"Er….Mr Shue do you still have my SAT resit? I kinda need it back, my mom says I have to do extra work so I don't forget stuff….err….can I just have it back please?"
"No problem Finn, let me just grab it from the teachers lounge. 5 minutes. Okay?"
"Mhmm" he mumbled.
Walking out of the classroom I can see a thin frame wearing black , and with pink short hair walking down the hallway.
"Quinn?"
Quinn: Oh God. Busted. Mr Shue has seen me I stop walking. Rooted to the spot.
Will: "MISS FABRAY?" I shout walking up to her.
Quinn: He shouts my name and I can hear him walking up behind me. He grabs my arm aggressively.
Will: I grab her arm and try to pull her back to class. But she just stands there and stares at me.
"What's wrong with you Quinn?"
"You can't control me anymore , I've got nothing left to lose."
I stand there stunned.
"Come with me." I say making her walk to my office away from the hallway.
Quinn: He makes me walk to his dimly lit office and sits me down on a chair him sitting on the desk opposite me. Staring through me. As if her was looking into my soul.
Will: Those eyes will never change. The only part of her that still remains beautiful is her eyes.
"What's going on with you? Why have you changed?"
"This is who I am." she says.
Quinn: "This is who I am." I say.
Will: "This is not who you are!"
"Let me give you a piece of my mind Mr Shuester." she says with the fire in her eyes.
Quinn: " I used to have everything. Dated the quarterback of the football team, was the captain of the Cheerios. I was the prettiest most popular girl at this school and then I joined Glee Club and it all went to hell. I just want you to know that I am never coming back to Glee Club , ever. Do you understand? I hope you're happy" I say standing up ready to leave. With all that out in the open I feel like I can finally be free of that stupid man and his club.
Will: After that insubordinate rant she stands up and starts to leave.
"Miss Fabray, wait. You know there's only one person that you care about in this world and that's yourself." She begins to speak telling me that I have no idea the kind of pressure she was under " I'M NOT FINISHED! You're not a little girl anymore Quinn. How long do plan on playing he victim card? Now you're a train wreck well congratulations but you come into my office and tell me it's my fault? Well then, I have something to say to you….. grow up." she leaves my office with tears in her eyes.
Quinn: Running down the hallway I realise how stupid that man is, to make a girl ,no, a student cry is pathetic.
I'm not going back into that classroom at least not while Mr Shuester is teaching there. Pretending to my mother that I'm ill so I can stay home and plan my revenge on him. I think surprise attack is the best way to go about it. But how?I go through mp3's and videos of us at Sectionals last year and all the footage from New York to try and give me any clues. I also stalk his Facebook page to try and think of things he doesn't like.
Looking through my photo albums on my laptop I see a old Glee Club photo that was meant to be thrown away. The type that I should've deleted ages ago. But looking closely into the glaring screen of my laptop I can see something. It's a picture of Tina and Artie together before they broke up. But in the background I'm hugging Finn and in the backdrop of the picture you can see Mr Shuester staring at me and Finn with jealous rage in his eyes.
Bingo.
He liked me? He fancied me? Is that wrong? I was only 16 back then, anything he would've done would be illegal. He could have hurt me. He could have taken my virginity. He could have raped me. Thinking about it he always used to stare at me after Finn told him I was pregnant. He always used to look out for me. I don't think Mr Shue would have ever hurt me. It's not in his nature. But still I need to be careful. If I want to get him fired I need to get him to do something wrong. The line between right and wrong seems pretty hazy right now. But we'll see.
I take a trip to my hairdressers and get them to remove the pink dye out of my hair and dye it back golden blonde. I also get them to put hair extensions in. So I can remind him of the way I used to look , the way he liked me. I also go through my old clothes and find something to wear for school the next day. Dress, Heels, Cardigan. I'm also going to brush up on my Spanish so he can be impressed at me.
The plan is to make him want me so bad , then get him fired. He's gonna regret the day he told me to grow up.
Will: "Quinn's been absent for days , I think I was too hard on her she really is a good kid. Just a little messed up. She's been through so much , I cant really blame her." talking to Emma and Coach Bieste.
"That's true, but she shouldn't be cutting class. And I never know where she's going to be to give her a pep talk." said Emma. Coach Bieste was still chowing down on her whole chicken.
"You know what I think?" she spoke up "I think she needs to stop being so damn dramatic and face up to everything. I mean come on Will you tried your best what more can you give her?"
"I don't know." I said getting up to leave the teachers lounge "I gotta go , Glee rehearsal I'll see you guys later?"
"Yep" said Emma.
"Sure thing" spat Coach Beiste as she ate her chicken. I left he teachers lounge and began walking down the hallway to the choir room.
Quinn: I was walking down the hallway when I first saw the back of him. The woolly hair, the silk vest with a pair of Levi jeans. I smiled, he had no chance. I ran up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around in surprise.
"Quinn?" he said.
"I'm so sorry Mr Shuester, I was so out of line the other day in your office I don't know what's been wrong with me. I think I got a little lost this summer, hanging out with the wrong people. I just need a fresh start." I said lying through my teeth.
"Well…..I'm glad you've cleaned up your act Quinn. I'd like you to talk to Miss Pilsbury though just to check your sorted out…..you know…..emotionally. I don't think I'd be any good with that. Just protocol …..you were very angry the last time I saw you."
"Sure thing Mr Shuester."
"And I have to say…..I'm sorry myself. My behaviour in my office was inappropriate. I shouldn't have shouted at you, or made you cry." he said pulling me to one side of the hallway, behind some lockers" You really are a great girl Quinn, you just need to believe it." he said with his hand on my shoulder sort of stroking me. Boy oh boy he has no clue of what's in store for him.
"Water under the bridge." I said giving him my famous "Quinn" smile.
"What are you doing this lunch?" he asked me.
"Well I was going to see Miss Sylvester about Cheerio trials, why?" I said raising my eyebrow.
"Because I know 12 people who have missed you so much, please come back to Glee. Everybody misses you."
"Right…I can always see Miss Sylvester tomorrow."
"Great." he said. There was then this awkward moment where I didn't know what was going to happen. He pulled me close and gave me an awkward hug and said "I'm so glad you're back Quinn." I'm sure it was just friendly but you never know. I need to work on creating a strong teacher student relationship so I can crush him and break his heart.
Will: I pulled her into a hug. Which I wasn't expecting to be as awkward as it was. I think if anyone saw us it could be seen as wrong. Now she's beck to the old her , I can feel that this year is all falling into place. I'm so happy that she's pulled herself together. She's such a brave kid.
Quinn; We walked to Glee rehearsal together. As I walked in the room everybody stared at me like I'd grown another head or something. I sat down in an empty seat next to Rachel she gave me a hug, tears of joy in her eyes. What a loser. As she hugged me she whispered in my ear.
"I'm so happy you're back Quinn" then I broke away and smiled at her trying to convince her it was a real happy smile worked a treat. She grabbed my hand and didn't let go for a while. I don't know why she's getting so damn emotional we were never really close.
The whole awkward Glee rehearsal went by and everyone just got used to me being back again. It was like I'd never really left. After it had finished and everyone was leaving and Mr Shue was still here highlighting sheetmusic I tripped on the last stair coming down from my seat in the choir room. On purpose of course. And he ran over to me. I pretended to be blacked out for a few seconds. To listen to him, to see what he'd do. My forehead was stinging with pain.
Will: She fell tripped over her heel on the last step I think. I ran over to her. Her eyes were shut and her forehead was bleeding. I sat her up and her eyes were still closed. I let her back fall into my chest as I tried to shake her awake , tapping her shoulder gently. Her perfume smelled amazing. Now she was back to normal. The beautiful Quinn I couldn't help thinking she was beautiful.
Quinn: I could feel his heartbeat on my back when he let me flop into his chest. I could hear his heavy breathing in my ear as he was saying my name trying to wake me up. I opened my eyes and pulled away from him slightly to make myself look uninterested in him. As I tried to make myself look like a was waking up hazily.
Will: She batted her big beautiful lashes and opened her eyes. To reveal the beautiful green gems beneath. I couldn't help myself feel a slight spark of electricity where if she'd have been older I would've kissed her. But then she pulled away. Waking up from the fall.