*HERE IS THE TAYLA AND DEAN WHAT IF STORY I HOPE YOU LIKE IT*

I walk into our hotel room after visiting my son at his cemetery and running into Roman. He was the LAST person that I wanted to see today but yet he was there. "Hey," says Dean to me as he is sitting on the edge of the bed. "How was it?"

"Sad," I say, "and I ran into Roman while I was there."

"How did that go?"

"He tried to talk to me," I say, "but I'm really not into talking to him. I'm still upset with him over the whole Vanessa situation. I just wanted time alone with Toa not time to have to hear him try to talk to me. I will talk to him when I'm ready."

"I'm sorry you had to deal with that today," he says as he gets up and walks over to me. He wraps his arms around me as I wrap my arms around him and rest my head on his firm chest. A place I have gotten familiar with. I take in his scent and just hold onto him as tears fill my eyes thinking about Toa and what used to be. "How about we go out to eat and go see a movie this evening to take your mind off of everything?"

"Okay," I say through my tears as I don't want to separate myself from him. He's become my comfort in the last few months and he has always been there for me to help me through some of the tough times. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with him; I was supposed to just use him to get my husband back but somewhere down the road I ended up falling in love with him and falling hard. It's a complicated situation but deep down I know what I want. "I need a couple minutes by myself all right?" I say reluctantly breaking our embrace.

"Okay," he says before he gives me a soft kiss on my lips. I smile as I make my way to the bathroom.

I sit down on the side of the tub as I pull my cell phone out of my pocket. I slide it on and type in my code to unlock it. I see that there is a voicemail on my phone from Roman on Christmas Day. It has been sitting there for a couple weeks and I just keep looking at it debating if I am going to listen to it or not. A part of me feels that I should at least listen to it because I can always delete it if I don't like what he says but another part of me feels like I should just delete it and move on with my life. It's been over 4 months of us being separated and while he has made every effort to talk to me I have made none. I don't know where I want to go or what I want to do. I'm stuck in a state of confusion torn between two men that I love with every part of my body. They couldn't be any more different either; Roman so dominant and aggressive but sweet and caring while Dean is more laid back, sweet and caring. Dean listens when I talk but Roman on the other hand does not. I feel I communicate better with Dean than I do with Roman. I stare at my phone deciding what I want to do. I take a deep breath and delete the voicemail before I even listen to it. I just don't want to hear any more excuses or any more begging to get me back or for me to listen to him. I'm just done with it all. I told him I felt we were falling out of love with each other and right now I can't help but believe that we have or at least that I may have. I'm still confused and lost as I stand up and walk out of the bathroom. "Are you okay?" he asks me when I appear in the bedroom.

"I'm fine," I say. "I just needed a minute," I say as I take a seat next to him on the bed as he immediately wraps his arm around my shoulders pulling me closer to him so that my head rests on his shoulder as he kisses the top of my head. I take his free hand into mine and interlock our fingers. "You know I love you right?" I ask.

"Actually," he says softly, "that's the first time you've told me that. Are you sure?"

"I'm sure," I say. "I do love you, Dean but I still love Roman."

"I know you do," he says, "you two have been together so long you don't know how to not love him. You probably always will love him no matter where you end up."

"I know I will ALWAYS love him but I don't think I love him as much as I did. He really hurt me when he did what he did. I mean first he kissed Jordyn and then came Brittany. He was with Brittany during the toughest time of our lives. Our son JUST died and we were on a vacation trying to heal and focus on ourselves but when I was sleeping at night he was talking to Brittany telling her about OUR trip and what WE were doing. She knew I was married to him but she didn't care. He didn't' care either. He didn't care about how I felt. He wasn't even going to admit it to me until I found out myself. Then all he could care about was his stupid cellphone. The fact he had gotten caught cheating didn't mean a thing to him. Then he made promises and promised me this and promised me he wouldn't do it again but of course here we are again. Our adoption counselor, Dean! The woman that we hired to help us adopt a baby so that we can start our family and yet he tries to destroy our family by sleeping with her. I thought we were trying to be start a family; not destroying what we have? I mean I walked in on him with her in MY bed. The same place he spent the day making love to me. A place that WE share together. There was no respect there; none at all. I don't know, Dean. I just feel like he's never going to change. He's never going to be the guy I fell in love with. I hate to say it but I think that guy is gone. I don't know."

"Tay," he says, "you know no matter what you choose to do I will support your decision as long as you're happy but I want you to know that I will NEVER hurt you like Roman did. I wouldn't do that to you. You're too sweet, too beautiful and just too amazing for me to do that to you. I honestly feel like he was the biggest idiot in the world. He had the most beautiful and intelligent woman by his side and yet he chose to cheat on her. He doesn't deserve you. You don't deserve that. You deserve the best, you deserve the world, Tayla, you deserve to be happy. You don't' just hurt the woman you love most and then try to make it up by f**king them on the kitchen table. That is just wrong," he says, "Tayla, I love you and I probably always will," he says as he lifts my chin with his hand so that I'm looking into his blue eyes. "I just want you to give me the chance to prove it. Please, Tay," he says with a soft smile as I smile back at him. I say nothing as his soft lips catch mine and his tongue slides into my mouth finding mine. Our tongues twist together slowly and sensually as I take my hand to cup his face as I feel his arms wrap around me tightly. The passion and intensity growing in our kiss, his hands slide up my shirt and find their way to my breasts as he takes them into his hands and massages them causing me to moan against his lips. His mouth breaking apart from mine leaving me breathless as his lips find my neck kissing it and softly nibbling on it as he makes his way to my collar bone gently sucking on it causing a moan to escape from my lips, I smile as his hands leave my breasts and find the top button of my shirt. One by one he unbuttons my plaid shirt before I slip it off of me as he lays me back on the bed, his hands taking control of my body, touching me everywhere, his lips owning my body with each soft kiss he gives me. My breaths heavy as I feel his soft lips on my stomach, kissing it softly, licking around my belly button and nibbling at my hip bones and his hands find the button on my jeans and he unbuttons them quickly. He pulls them down a little before I help kick them off as he takes his shirt off exposing his firm chest and perfect abs. I take my hands over his shoulders as he towers over me and take my hands over his chest and trace his abs with my fingers. He lowers himself down and kisses my lips softly and passionately as I take my hands through his hair. "Tay, can I make love to you?" he whispers against my lips.

"Yes, Dean," I say caught up in the passion, the intensity and the energy. He kisses my lips quickly before he stands up to remove his jeans followed by his briefs exposing his erection. He pulls my underwear off of me quickly as he spreads my legs softly and rests himself between my legs. I feel his erection on my inner thigh as he leans down to kiss me once again as we share another passionate kiss as I feel him slide into me softly, gently and perfectly. He begins to rock his hips moving himself in and out of me softly, passionately as the heat between us grows stronger as our lips never break apart and our tongues never part. His movements are steady and slow, passionate as I moan against his lips with each movement he makes. I pick up on his rhythm as we tangle ourselves in the sheets as we make love to one another. The passion growing stronger, his movements more intense, his moans and groans of passion getting louder matching mine, I feel the wave of ecstasy taking over me and before I can control it or hold it back I feel myself begin to shiver, my toes curl digging into the sheets as my nails dig into his back as I find my climax releasing myself around him as I cry out in pleasure. His movements pick up before I feel his body convulse and hear him growl out as I feel his erection grow larger inside of me. He groans out in pleasure as he fires his release deep inside of me as we share another passionate kiss as he finishes his release. His body collapses on mine as we both try to catch our breath as I keep my arms wrapped around him and his face is buried in my neck softly kissing it and nibbling on it. "That was amazing," I say still out of breath. I have never experienced so much passion as I just did with Dean. Roman has his dominant game going on which I love but what just happened with Dean was amazing.

"I don't disagree," he whispers in my ear as a smile forms on my face from our intimacy. "Let me have this afternoon with you," he says, "let me make love to you over and over again," he whispers between his soft kisses and nibbles.

"You can make love to me as much as you want," I say with a smile and it isn't long before we spend the rest of the afternoon making love to one another.

After our afternoon of making passionate love to each other which was for the first time since we got together we take a shower together before we go out to eat before going to see a movie. "So when do you go back on the road?" I ask.

"In a couple days," he says as he holds my hand as we eat our dinner together in a small Italian restaurant. "I don't want to leave you but I have to do what I need to do."

"I know," I say with a smile.

"So what does everything that happened this afternoon mean about us?" he asks looking at me with his blue eyes, a smile on his face and his dimple.

"I don't know," I say. "I think I love you more after today," I say with a smile.

"I just want a chance to love you and give you what you deserve," he says with a smile. "Please let me be that guy. Please choose the one that won't hurt you."

I smile at him as my dark brown eyes meet his. I let out a deep breath and say, "Dean, I choose you. I'm going to give you that chance to prove to me that you won't hurt me and that you love me."

"What about Roman?" he asks.

"I will handle Roman," I say, "you just focus on us. Okay?"

"Okay," he says with a smile before he leans over the table and kisses my lips. "I love you, Tay."

"I love you too," I say with a soft smile. As much as I love Roman I just feel like we aren't meant to be together and I don't want to risk being hurt again. He's hurt me way too many times and I think Dean will hold true to his promise and won't hurt me the way Roman has hurt me. I just have no idea how I'm going to break this news to Roman. It won't be easy but I have to do it somehow and someway. It's going to break his heart but it breaks mine having to make this decision that I wouldn't have to make if he hadn't cheated on me for the second time.

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