We all think we're going to be great. And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met. But, sometimes, our expectations sell us short. Sometimes, the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady… standing… still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected… is what changes our lives. -Meredith Grey
Meredith sighed and looked at Kaylee Henderson. She had just gone through her patients scans and found out what was causing the jaundice. Her patient had gone into hepatic failure. Her liver was shutting down.
Meredith knew that she wasn't going to get a liver in time because of her drinking. Kayla was an alchoholic and hasn't been sober for the required six months to be a candidate for transplant. UNOS would never agree to the surgery. She had to tell her patient there was no hope because of her horrible immune system.
Meredith opened the door to her patients room and braced herself because she knew this wouldn't be good.
"Hello Ms. Henderson", Meredith smiled.
"Hi, umm... do you have any idea when I can get out of here because my mom called and wants to know if I'm coming down for her birthday next week", Kaylee asked as Meredith cringed
"Thats what I came to talk to you about Ms. Henderson, You see you won't be able to be dischared". Meredith choked out but continued speaking."You have whats called Hepa-"
"Hepatic failure, my livers failing isn't it"? Kaylee chuckled.
"My mother always told me this would happen. Its how my father died, he drank until his liver failed him. Everyone blames his death for me drinking. But really, its just that I'm addicted. You don't need to say anything else, I know how it is. I need to be sober for at least six months to be able to receive a liver. So please...just leave. Meredith sighed once again and left the room.
Meredith was walking towards the nurses station when suddenly she had trouble breathing. She stumbled over to the dest and leaned over on top and tried to catch her breath.
Breath Meredith, come on its not hard! Just in and out!
Just in that moment Christina came bounding down the hall to talk to Meredith about the surgery she just preformed.
"Meredith, oh god your never gonna believe what I just did! I, Christina Yang successfully pulled a big metal rod from a man's heart"! Christina looked up at Meredith and could tell something was wrong.
"Mere, are you ok? You look really pale, maybe you should sit down". Began Christina.
Christina pulled over a wheelchair and sat Meredith down into it. Christina now had a clear view of Meredith's face and noticed she looked cyanotic.
"Meredith, can you breath"? Christina burst out.
Meredith shook her head no and grabbed onto Christina wrist hard and coughed out."Hel-p".
This sent Christina into a flurry. she couldn't lose Mer, she was her person. Christina was really worried because of all the other times she had almost lost her. Her mind wandered back to after Meredith had gone into surgery to have a c-section and almost didn't come out alive. She remembered the horrible feeling she had shared with Derek when Bailey came out and started crying. She was overjoyed to walk into the OR and see that Mere was still here. Suddenly Meredith's breathing stopped all together and she passed out in the wheelchair.
"Page Bailey, Shepherd, and Webber to stat, and lets get a gurney and o2 in here now"! Christina barked out.
A few nurses brought over the requested items and started to set it up. They got Meredith on the gurney and started to bring her to a trama room. Just as they got her hooked up to the heart monitor, Bailey, Shepherd, and Webber all entered the room and looked down at the person on the table with wide eyes.
"What happened"? Bailey asked, as shocked as the two men behind her.
"I don't know, I was telling her about my surgery and then I noticed shy was turning blue and she said she couldn't breath".
Right then Meredith's eyes started to flutter and she was waking up. Right away Meredith noticed that she was in a trama room and started to get up but was pushed down by a hand.
"Meredith you can't get up, you had a respiratory attack. You need to be admitted for the night so we can do some tests to find out why this happened." Derek stated.
Meredith rolled her eyes and removed her o2 mask so she could talk.
"Im fine. Theres nothing wrong with me, besides I need to go and pick Zola and Bailey up from daycare."
Derek chuckled. He knew she would say she was fine, she always did that. Avoided the problem and pretended everything was all right.
"Mere I'm going to pick up the kids and you are going to stay the night for observation. What if something is seriously wrong and you and your heart stops."
Meredith couldn't help it, she burst out laughing. Eventually the laugh became a cough and she couldn't stop. Suddenly the heart monitor started beeping fast and Meredith's airway closed.
"She can't breath! Get me an incubation tray." Christina shouted at the nurses.
Christina quickly set up the tube and turned on the oxygen. Meredith's stats began to rise once again and everyone let out a sigh of relief.
"Yeah.. your staying here tonight." Derek whispered in Meredith's ear as he gently kissed her on the forehead and then walked out to go pick up his kids.