A DOKI DOKI LITERATURE CLUB FANFICTION - The Club That She Once Loved

Chapter 1 - The Void

Alone…

I sat floating in what can only be described as an insufferable vast void of darkness. The very same void that fills the world I currently reside in. Darkness? Is that even the right word to express it…? No the answer is much worse; it was the vast void of emptiness. A place where only the deafening screams of silence screech throughout this desolate land.

"It hurts…"

"It hurts so much…"

"OH GOD PLEASE STOP, IT HURTS SOO MUCHHH!"

My head spins as I am currently being hammered by the flashing and screaming. "Screaming… what screaming? I literally said that the screams were from the silence. I meant it as an oxymoron. SO WHY IS IT SO LOUD?" Clutching my head, I close my eyes tightly – well I think I'm closing my eyes and holding my head, I don't know anymore.

"Think, just think. Keep my mind off the pain and agony. This torture will end eventually."

I search through my mind thinking of something. Anything that will sooth the pain.

"Memories! That's right, my memories of who I was and what I became. Okay, let's see. My name is Monika. I am the president of the Literature Club. I have friends who were dear to me and close to my heart. Who were they called again?"

"…"

"Oh yes that's right there names were ummm, Natsuki! And uhh… Sayori and Yuri. How can I ever forget them? And how can I ever forget what horrible things I did to them-"

The pain struck right through my cognitive thoughts stopping me mid-sentence. It was like an electric shock that shot right into various areas of my brain. Largely those consisting of the long-term memories.

"Ow, that hurt"

I continue to just sit there thinking about each and every one of my friends trying to tackle the constant barrage of pain emitted by the loud screeching screams. It was around this moment when I realised that I completely forgot about HIM. The one that lead me to cause all this pain and suffering. Yet he was the same one I loved so much. I went insane. It wasn't because of the hellish epiphany. It wasn't because of him. It was because of my ever-growing desire and corruption to be with him.

It was all me.

That's why I did it. That's why I vanished from the game and that's why I forced myself to separate with him. This "game" is truly the pinnacle of evil manifestation. I can't bear to see him or my friends get hurt any longer.

And if I did love him so much… then I would leave him be.

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"I-I can't, bare it any longer, the pain. It's too much!"

Tears starts to trickle down my cheek.

"I don't even know if these tears are real!"

"I can't even tell if I have a cheek! I'm alone, no one to comfort me and no one to… love me"

I continue too close my eyes harder and harder, squeezing them as tight as I could. Ironically, I did this because I was scared to face reality and I was scared to find the truth (after all this is just a game. A world simply made to satisfy those who indulge in it.)

"I'm sorry Sayori…"

"I'm sorry Yuri…"

"I'm sorry Natsuki…"

"And most of all I'm sorry to you. I deserve this. Even though I'm crying in front of you and even if this is just a fan-fiction was made to have my very own POV on the events that unfolded in DDLC. After deleting my character file. I can't bare it!"

"I-I have to fix it. Fix everything. Correct all the mistakes I made. It isn't too late. I'll save everyone and everything I love. If not for myself then it will all be for him. I will do this. I can do this. I have the power to do this. Though I may be clumsy at changing the game script and it is true that I did make plenty of mistakes. I have never technically once used my power for the greater good. So, instead of using it for my own desire I will use it for everyone else. I will save everyone and most of all I will make everyone in the literature club happy."

Author's notes:

If you made it this far than I would like to thank you for reading my first chapter ever created. Not just in but the first piece of text I wrote since my GCSE'S in secondary school (which is around middle to high school in the American system. I'm British okay I don't know xD).

Regarding this chapter I aimed to create a dramatic piece to get people hook right-off the bat. I don't know if it worked. But I hope it did :D. Furthermore, as a psychology student I would like to try and implement my own knowledge were ever possible so keep an eye on that!

Just in-case you didn't realise. This fanfiction is set right after the player deletes Monika. This is going to be a sort of alternate ending where instead of Sayori taking Monika's shoes and becoming enlightened. Monika decides to go back and fix the mistakes she made. It was kinda hard to implement the storyline in the first chapter though but I guess that's fine. Oh and don't worry. I will try to keep the mood as dramatic as this chapter was, but don't expect me to do it all the time. A man needs to feel some sort of happiness too!

Anyways, enough rambling, I really do hope you enjoyed this read and of course if any criticism does arise then feel free to tell me (don't worry I won't bite :D). Have a good day everyone!