You
know the feeling, the one where you don't ever want to stop, and you
wish the night would never end? The weather is just perfect, warm
with a cool breeze and you know that that is right where you want to
be. Nothing is going on in your head, just the thoughts of how
handsome the man your holding is looking tonight. You can't take
your eyes off him, it's like the whole world has stopped, and just
for that instance your happy.
However
working up to this one perfect moment is something rather difficult.
You try to make the man your in love with notice you. When he does,
your heart is broken because he doesn't feel the same. Then
something happens that takes you to the point of breaking and you
hate everyone and everything.
That's
were I, Tin-Tin, was just a few years ago, but now Alan is in my arms
and I in his. We are holding each other tight and nothing will pull
us away.
"Alan!"
Except for that, Alan's father calls and Alan jerks away.
"I'm..."
He tries to say but I stop him.
"I
know be careful," I place a kiss on his cheek before he runs off.
Sometimes
it's hard to know that he might not come back, and on those days I
don't sleep. Something is different today somehow, something evil
has embedded itself into my head.
"Don't
let him go!" It keeps shouting to me. I can't of course pull
him out of a rescue saying, "Sorry Alan, I hate to do this but I
have a bad feeling. Can you come home please?" No that wouldn't
be right and it can't be done.
I
pray though as I watch the thunderbirds lift off and take to the sky.
"Don't
worry," Grandma Tracy's voice comes. I turn just in time to see
her walking onto the balcony towards me.
"I'm
not," I tell her not just to comfort myself, but her also.
"We
all have our worries I guess," She says then she looks at me.
"Tin-Tin,
he really loves you," She says softly and turns to walk away.
"I
know," I whisper then turn to walk back into the house again.
