Disclaimer: if I owned this show I'd have had a lot more shoujo-ai in it!
Chapter 1 : Letting go.
Natsuki's pov
It was driving me crazy. Every time I tried to let go of her, herhold on me tightened and the worst thing was that the she didn't even notice. I had been in love with her for as long as we had known one another but Shizuru had been completely oblivious towards my feelings. And then one of the worst days of my life came.
(flashback)-
"Natsuki," Shizuru said "there's something I have to tell you. But promise you won't laugh or anything like that."
At that time I still thought I had a chance so of course I thought she might be confessing to me. As you can imagine I was ecstatic but managed to hide it behind an encouraging smile and a nod to show I wouldn't do any of it. Imagine my shock at what came next.
"I think I'm in love with Ahn Lu." An adorable sheen of red dusted her delicate features. My heart shattered at those words but the only indication of that fact was the widening of my eyes before I said "Are you certain? Because we both know she's a terrible flirt."
At those words she smiled teasingly and said "Ara ara could it be that Natsuki is jealous?"
Immediately my face did a tomato imitation and I yelled "of course not, I'm just worried about you! You're my best friend so I don't want to see you get hurt." I immediately regretted those words when her eyes lit up with happiness. "So you'll support me?" there was so much hope in those words I just couldn't deny her that. "Yes Shizuru I'll even help you get her. But for now I really have to go."
Without looking at her I stood up and walked to the door trying to ignore both the burning stare of Shizuru's eyes and horrible pain of my shattered heart. "I'll see you tomorrow so we can plan for you to seduce the seductress." I thanked the heavens that my voice was a lot steadier than the rest of me.
The moment I stepped out of the front door the tears I kept from her were streaming down my face and while I knew I shouldn't have driven my bike in this condition I also knew I couldn't show any of my grief to Shizuru. So I drove home confused, angry, sad and a lot of other things. On the other hand I was happy as well after all, my best friend finally found someone she loves which meant I could finally move on as well.
(End flashback)-
This was a year ago and I have to say my plan to get over her… failed miserably. I only fell more and more in love with her. She was just so cute when she stuttered as she talked to
Ahn-san and every time we planned about it her mask came down, it was mystifying to see her like that. I have to admit that I was quite jealous at the effect the other woman was having on Shizuru but I was also happy for both of them when they got together.
This all happened in the first half year, the next half consisted of me pushing Shizuru away into the arms of Ahn-san which worked splendidly… a bit too good if you asked me.
Tbc.