Theme: 25 Voice

Title: To The Post Office In Heaven

Word Count: 559

Summary: Yuugi writes a letter he will never be able to send.

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Hi.

I just want to talk for a bit about my feelings.

Sometimes, I feel afraid. And I hear a voice in my heart, telling me to go on. To live without regrets. To remind me to never turn back, to do my best with the cards in my hand, and to keep walking towards the light. That voice reminds me that I'm never alone. Whenever I lose heart, I remember that you were here once and you guided me. I can almost feel your hand over mine. And I don't give up.

See? Even after all this time, you're still covering me. Isn't that what we promised? That we'd be partners? That we'd have each other's backs?

I don't wake up in the middle of the night calling for you anymore. I can go months before something reminds me of you so much that it hurts. I can go to our old places and talk to the same people and sit in the chair you used to sit in while I slept again.

It's only when I'm with someone else, alone, and they're so obviously interested—when someone I like, I care for is asking for more and I have nothing to give—that your absence burns. You see, it wouldn't be fair to them. I know I promised I wouldn't wait.

But even when I'm with someone else, I think of you. My first love. At this rate my only love.

It doesn't bother me. I swear it doesn't. Everyone pushes me about it, but I'm not lonely. My work takes me all over the world, and I have so many new friends and so much to learn and so little time. That's something else I learned from you: there's no knowing for sure what will come. You said once to me that you wished you could stop the sands of time from flowing, so that we would always be together. I know how you feel.

But I promised you all my memories, see. And I want them to be great. I want to live, as much as possible, until my time runs out, and our eternity begins. I believe that. I know that we'll be together again—whether it's in the world beyond that gate or in another lifetime.

I wonder, are you looking up at the stars, as I do? Do you imagine that beyond that sky is another world, just out of sight, waiting?

Do you miss me? I miss you. The others don't talk about those days so much anymore, you know? It used to be because they were trying to spare me, and themselves, the pain, but now we're all grown up. I don't talk about it myself.

Everyone's changed. Even me. You'd be proud of how we turned out. Did we seem like children to you? We aren't anymore. And I guess you must be different as well, now that you're where you belong.

I want to belong there, too. We promised we wouldn't waste any time waiting, but I lied, Atemu. It's wrong, but I'm selfish. I hope you're waiting for me. I hope that someday we can pick up right where we left off.

I've gone on for too long.

This letter doesn't make much sense, does it? I guess it doesn't really matter. You've always understood me.

— Yuugi

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A/N: Jumping on the fifty themes bandwagon! I've finished this fic - meaning daily updates - but if you want to see sequels to any of them, let me know in your review and I'll consider it. I rated this fic M because there's some smut, but most of the fics here are clean.

Enjoy! And please review!