My hand makes its way to the door as I push it open. Starbucks in Union Square has become Aubrey and I's hangout since the very first time we had to buckle down and research for our 20 page essay on some irrelevant time in history that I can never get etched out of my mind.
I can't believe that a year has passed and I was already in my sophomore year at NYU. Just two years ago, I was singing in the choir room in Lima Heights, Ohio. Now I'm in the big apple majoring in Journalism hoping one day for an internship at Vogue. Sigh.
We made our way to the line of people desperately wanting that pick me up to brighten up their stressful, pathetic lives.
"Grande Nonfat Mocha?" she said fetching for her wallet.
"You know me so well" I said with a smile as I made my way to an empty table.
I reached for my phone as an oncoming text message came.
Rachel(12:35)
Hey Kurt! I left you & Bree two tickets to my show. It starts at 8pm, don't be late :)
"Grande Nonfat Mocha for you" Aubrey said as she handed me my drink and took a seat across from me "Who's that?"
"Rachel, sending yet another ticket to see her. I swear you would think after the third time seeing it she would get the hint that I don't want to go anymore" I said taking a sip "What should the excuse be this time?"
"Major hangover?"
"How many major hangovers can I fake before she gives me an AA intervention"
"Article?"
"I already told her I finished"
"Your ass hurts from all the sex you're getting"
I literally choked on my drink as we laughed hysterically. People began to give us looks as to question our insanity at this hour.
"You're unbelievable. So are we still having Ryan Gosling Movie Night tonight?"
Aubrey and I have movie nights every beginning of the month on Saturdays because we have nothing else better to do. I honestly don't know what I would do without her. After moving to a new city and not knowing, not remembering how to get around. The last time I was here was Nationals and we spent most of our time going in cabs. With loans to pay and a new apartment, I have no room to pay for cabs. I could still remember the first time I got on the subway and how Aubrey laughed the whole time because of the amount of times I was swiping in my Metro card before I finally made it through. You can take the kid out of Ohio, but you can't take Ohio out of the kid.
"You know it Kurty. I wouldn't miss that beautiful man for anything in the world."
I smiled as she handed me the latest issue of Vogue and gushed over Amanda Seyfried's article as I wasn't aware of the cold wind that hit my back signaling the door opening.
"I swear I'm this close to getting into that fashion show. I just know it." I said glossing over the pages.
"Uh huh" she said, unaware of anything that was coming out of my mouth.
"What do you keep staring at? I told you that guy is obviously gay."
"It's not Nick. It's this guy in the corner. He looks awfully familiar, but I can't put my finger on it."
"You do that a lot with the amount of hookups you endure" I said creeping a smile as she kicked me from under the table.
"Oh shoot, he saw me staring."
I laughed as I turn around and suddenly my heart dropped. This couldn't be happening. He couldn't be here. This was the one place that was different. That was away from him. Our eyes met and his eyes grew wider, suddenly aware of who I was. I grabbed my bag and Bree's hand and rushed outside of Starbucks.
"Shit shit shit shit!" I said as I began to speed walk my way through the crowd, still holding on to Bree as she threw unpleasant words at me.
"KURT STOP!" she said as we stood to a halt as I looked around mentally crossing my fingers that he wasn't following us.
"Remember that guy I told you about. Remember the pictures from Facebook. That was him. That was Blaine"
Saying his name out loud for the first time in months still stung. All this time I was doing perfectly fine just living my life, going to school, and leaving my old life behind. Now I feel like all my hard work was being tore down.
Aubrey saw the stress in my face and reached in for a hug.
"I had a feeling. The bowtie gave it away"
We let go of our embrace and began walking towards our apartment. His face kept flashing in my mind. The way he looked at me, more or less like he knew he will find me somehow in this big city.
And god dammit he still looked more gorgeous than ever.
But what got me on edge was that he wasn't alone. He was with Sebastian.
"Fucking Sebastian. After everything that asshole did to him, to us. I can't. Why would he?"
"Kurty boo, you're yelling"
I wasn't aware the amount of people I was attracting and how red I was becoming. But it really bothered me that Sebastian actually won. He got exactly what he wanted. But did Blaine really have to go around flaunting him? Especially in the city where he knew I would be.
We made our way inside the building as I fished for my keys and open the door. I planted myself on the couch, looking more angry than upset on what just happened a few minutes ago.
"I need to go out tonight. I need to get wasted. I need to empty my mind on what just happened"
"What about Ryan Gosling?" Aubrey whined, a smile creeping from her face.
"He can wait. We're leaving at 10" I said as I made my way to my room.
I scattered my room for my iPod as I lay on my bed and scrolled through my iPod for my playlist. The first song began to play as Somewhere Only We Know drowned through my ears.
*****
I wasn't aware I fell asleep as Aubrey came barging through my room in nothing but a bra and underwear holding on to two outfits.
"Should I wear this or this?" she said as she dropped the clothes on my bed.
I rubbed my eyes and picked the outfit on the far right.
"Kurt, we don't have to go out tonight. We can just stay here" Aubrey's voice was calm and concerned as she put her shirt over her head before heading to the other side of the bed.
"No, I need the loud sounds of Gaga playing. I'll be fine. It's just a shock you know. I should have seen this coming. It wasn't only my dream to move here"
She got off the bed and began heading out before giving me a warning.
"Fine. But one sulk and it's me, you and Ryan Gosling."
"Fine. I'm going to take a shower and get ready."
Nightlife is one of the few clubs that I found in the city that are great for everyone. I had a few hookups here and it's great that I can be myself here and not be afraid that someone is going to throw me in a trash can or worst slushy me. But then again it's not high school anymore. Thank god.
We made our way inside as the music pumped through loudly enough to converse on any little dirty secret and no one being able to hear it.
"I'm going to get some drinks" I shouted as she nodded and made her way to the dance floor.
I made my way to the bar and planted myself on one of the stools as I ordered.
"Well, well, well. Hummel is that you?"
I remember that disgusting voice anywhere. I turned to see Sebastian with the most disgusting smirk on his face.
"I left Lima for a reason to get away from your meerkat looking face. What the hell do you want? I'm here to have a good time"
"I'm not looking for any trouble. I'm just here to have a good time too. Wow, it's been a while Hummel. How's life?" he said sitting on the stool next to me.
"Are we honestly going to do this here and have this conversation?"
Sebastian fucking Smythe trying to hold a conversation with me like he has the fucking balls to come to me to gloat on how he's probably doing god, I don't even want to know.
I can feel my face getting red and took a gulp of the drink in front of me as I asked for another.
"Whoa there, slow down, don't want a stranger taking you home tonight" he said
"If I wasn't in this club with my best friend over there and drinking this very good drink, I would punch you in the fucking face. How dare you come up to me with that ugly ass smirk and think that now that you have Blaine you can parade yourself like you're the shit. Ha"
He looked more confused than angry or scared.
"Blaine? You think I have Blaine-shit, I wish."
My anger simmered down as I became the one confused.
"I thought-I saw you guys at Starbucks"
"I'm only in town for the week. I go to school in Chicago so I thought come by to see Blaine. Though when I think about it we have been on some dates..." he said the smirk rising again
"Fuck off. I'm going on the dance floor" I said, totally remember what an asshole he is.
As I headed towards the dance floor, Sebastian caught my arm.
"At least let me buy you one drink for old times. Meerkat to GayBoyToy"
When does the Kurt Hummel ever past a free drink?
"Fine, but one drink"
One drink, five, I lost count at some point.
"But really, but really w-what the fuck is the point of the bowtie. I just rather see the bowtie somewhere else" Sebastian said as we both laugh loudly.
"He looks like a preschool sexpod"
My sides were ready to collapse from laughing so hard.
"I didn't realize how much fun you are Hummel. We should do this more often. Truce?"
His hand stood lazily out as my hand shook his. He then pulled me in closer as our lips brushed against each other. I pushed away from him, not processing what just happened, my mind was fuzzy.
"Um" I managed to say.
"I-I'm sorry. Damn, that was."
"Not disgusting"
How we ended in a bathroom stall still bottles me.
Our lips collided as his hands made his way to my ass. He moaned in my mouth as my hands made its way to his hair. His tongue traced the bottom of my lip asking for its entrance. My mouth opened as his tongue searched for mines. God, it was getting hot in here. His hands shied away from my butt as he began to fumble at his belt, his lips touching my neck. Suddenly the door of the bathroom slammed open as a familiar voice ranged loud.
"KURT! I know you're in here." Aubrey said as I heard the clicking of her heels on the pavement.
"Shhh. Maybe-maybe she will go away" I managed to say to Sebastian. But that only made us laugh like little preschool girls.
The bathroom door swung open as we looked at Aubrey with widen eyes as we burst out laughing.
"Really Kurty. Shit. We're leaving" she said as she grabbed me by the arm. I almost stumbled as she grabbed me by the waist.
"I was having-having fun Breeboooo"
"Too much fun babe" she said as we made our way outside, leaving Sebastian in the bathroom stall.