-.transparence.- … been long since I had uploaded no? I just felt like writing and posting… cos.. its our break here.. :D… uhm.. YAOI WARNING yea… . :D (YukiShuichi, AU, One Shot ?)

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Freefalling

I look at the watch.. It was already 4:32pm. I turned to my editor, saying that I'll just get some fresh air. She looked at me with skeptic eyes. I smiled a little, just to reassure her. She looked at me one more time, then nodded.

I closed the door softly and walked the silent corridors of the hotel until I see the small side exit. Opening the door, I started climbing up flights of stairs. After a few minutes, I came across a door. Not knowing where it would lead me, I opened it and came across a dark and narrow stairway. Taking one step at a time, I realize my surroundings getting brighter and brighter. It continued on like that until I suddenly found that there was nothing above me, no roof or anything. The stairs stop and it lead me to the building's helipad.

I can already feel the chill of the night air as the sun begins to set. I sat near the 3 inch high ledges and looked at the sight before me. The streets were alive with life as the neon lights of different establishments flicker open. A wanton wind passed me by, feeling a slight shiver as it caresses my bare skin. I looked at the gray sky thinking that, 'Just like that time…'. I felt a drop of water sliding down my right cheek. I wiped it off, muttering that, it started raining. But the water just kept on flowing, and every time I would wipe my cheeks, they would always get wet and then I realized that… it wasn't raining.

'Just like that time… huh?'

Flashback

'Its over Yuki, I found some one else now…' He said, turning to a smiling Ryuichi. 'It was fun while it lasted, but I'm happier with him. At least he loves me, you don't…'

The door creakily closed. The apartment seemed so much quiet now… and.. sad. He brought all his belongings with him, there was no thing left of him… And then I realized…

No more pink blob running around, proclaiming his love for me everyday. No one trying to win me over anymore. No one there to take care of me when I'm sick. No one there to embrace me every time I would—…

I blinked, once, twice, then, hastily standing up on my feet and reaching out for the door knob. I hesitated—then I looked outside the nearest window, he was with Ryuichi, laughing while entering the black limousine there. He was smiling… He seemed happy… and then… He kissed Ryuichi. I was filled with mad jealousy and burst open my door, only to see the elegant car speed off into the distance. I didn't even know that I ran outside until I felt the rain soaking through my clothes.

I laughed to myself, wondering why I was remembering this. It was what? Three? Two years ago? 'And I have never moved on…' I gazed at my left wrist, and took of the silver watch I always would wear… I found that it didn't have batteries in it… 'What was the use then?' I asked myself. To hide the scars. I answered… I admit… I was jealous… and is still. But… he looked so happy that day… He was never like that… when he was with me. I love him… but I don't own him. He has the right to be happy… without me. The saying goes, I f your loved ones are happy, shouldn't you be happy too??. Yes… I made him happy… by leaving him… but what about me? Don't I get the chance to happy too??

I looked up at the sky… I felt water on my cheeks again… Was it raining….?

Yes… it was raining…

only..

you weren't there to hold the umbrella…

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a sequel or pre-sequel or none at all… whatever response I get from you.