Why Won't You Love me?

Tsuna's POV

I watched as Hibari-san bit the other students to death when we were in middle school and now, we are both adults, and unfortunately, he didn't change for the past ten years. I am now the boss of Vongola Family and he is my Cloud Guardian.

I sighed. I kept on thinking why I fell for him when he gave me nothing but fear and pain for our every training.

"Herbivore, you're on your own stupid world again." Hibari-san stated when I just stared at the report he gave me.

"A-ah… S-sorry…" I stuttered as I signed his report. Sawada Tsunayoshi- Vongola Decimo

"Tsk!" he turned back and left.

I sighed again. Why can't I just tell him that I love him?

xXx

Every night, before I go to sleep, I would stare at the starry sky. I am the sky… Tonight, however is not a starry night. The sky is almost entirely covered with the clouds.

"Hibari-san…" I whispered. And damn it, just by saying his name, I got hard.

I gulped. I walked to my bathroom and stripped off my clothes. I turned the shower on. I stood under it letting the water flow down my tired body. I gripped my member and started stroking it slowly. I supported myself by holding on to the wall in front of me.

"Ah… Hah…" I panted as I stroked faster. I closed my eyes and imagined Hibari-san doing it to me. I blushed but I continued to stroke myself. "H-Hi…bari…san…"

I stroked furiously until a creamy ribbon flew out of my crotch… Darn… until when will I do this? I want Hibari-san but he'll never like me back, will he?

xXx

I stared at the woman standing in front of me. She's wearing nothing. She's barely covering her body with a blanket… Hibari-san's blanket.

"A-ano… I was just about to call Hibari-san… Gomenasai." I said as I turned back.

"What are you doing here, Herbivore?" Hibari-san asked sleepily from behind the naked girl.

"Ah… N-nothing… H-Hibari-san…" I answered and walked away with tears flowing on my cheeks. I ran to my room where I cried my eyes out.

"You're so stupid, Dame-Tsuna." Reborn said from the door.

"Shut up! Leave me alone!" I screamed tears still flowing out of my eyes. My voice was muffled by the pillow covering my face.

I heard Reborn chuckle as he left me alone.

Damn you, Hibari Kyouya! I'll get you no matter what! I told myself stubbornly.

xXx

I watched as Hibari-san got down from his car. He was wearing one of our identical suits but he has a purple under shirt.

I sighed. He looked so damned handsome and I can't help but sigh as I appreciate the beauty given by Kami-sama to him.

"What are you doing, herbivore?" Hibari-san asked when he caught me staring.

I blushed furiously. "N-Nothing…" I answered as I looked away. I bit my lip to stop it from quivering.

"Whatever…" I heard him say as he walked away.

xXx

I was walking in the corridors of the Vongola Famiglia Manor when I heard some commotion happening in one of the rooms. I barged in only to find a drunk Gokudera and a very drunk Onii-san.

"Gokudera!" I screamed making my storm guardian flinch.

"J-JUudaime… Go-…Hic…Gomenasai…hic!"

"Tsu…na…" I heard Ryohei onii-san's voice but ignored him.

I sighed as I helped him stand up. I had his right arm around my shoulder and my arms around his waist to support him as we walked to his room. I laid him to his bed and walked back to the room where onii-san is currently sprawled on the floor. I also helped Kyouko's brother stand up and supported him while I walked him to his room.

I took a deep breath as I was about to go to my office. I walked past the room where I found Ryohie onii-san and Gokudera. I walked in and found some more wine. I sat hesitantly on the stool. I took a glass and a bottle of wine and started drinking.

I was in the middle of my drinking when the door burst open. I looked at the intruder with a ready glare.

"What are you doing, Herbivore?" Hibari-san asked as he walked towards me.

"Drinking." I answered followed by a hiccup. "Isn't it obvious?"

"Why are you drinking?" he asked with a raised eyebrow… or something.

I stood up nose-to-nose to him. "You don't know why I'm drinking?" I asked.

He just raised one of his eyebrows which made me annoyed.

"It's because of you, you fucking moron! Don't you get it? I love you!" I screamed at him. Realization hit me hard in the gut. Oh, mother fucking shit! I suddenly woke up from my drunken state. I stared at the slightly wide eyed cloud guardian in front of me.

I shook wildly. Yeah, I said it. There's no backing down now. I pushed him back until his legs hit the sofa and he stumbled backwards.

"What the-" I cut him off by kissing him straight on the lips.

He pushed me back. "What the hell are you doing, Tsunayoshi?" he sat up.

I straddled him and kissed his lips. Tears started to flow on my cheeks and I embraced him to hide them. "Why?" I whispered. "Why won't… you love me?"

Hibari-san tensed beneath me.

Oh, shit… I eased back from him. "I-I'm so-sorry…" I stood up and turned back. I started walking to my room with wobbly legs. Oh, shit! What the hell was I doing? I gripped my chest to stop the throbbing pain. How did I fall in love with him? How? Why?

Somebody suddenly grabbed my shirt which made me turn around.

"Are you okay?" Kyouko asked.

I stared at her wondering why I didn't just fall for her and not for Hibari-san. I forced a smile. "I'm fine. I'm just a little nervous about tomorrow."

"Oh, yeah, tomorrow, you'll have to talk to Byakuran, right?"

I nodded. I knew that tomorrow, my life will end. I'll have to talk to the cold-hearted boss of MIlfiore. He'll kill me and that's for sure. "So… Goodnight, Kyouko-chan." I said as I waved her goodbye.

"Goodnight, Tsu-kun." she waved back at me.

I walked to my room and lay on my bed. Tears flowed from my eyes again as my heart broke apart. He doesn't love me… He'll never love me. I covered my eyes with my arm.

The door burst open but I didn't give any attention. If I know, it's only Reborn to add more pain to my heart.

"Leave me alone, Reborn. I've had enough for the day. I'll be dead tomorrow so stop bugging me. Let me have some alone time for myself." I said.