You know him. Okey you only tkink you know him. Actually there is something hidden in him. Something only he knows, something that he never reveal. But if it gets trough him for a moment, tiniest bit end will come.

Sometimes traveling wih him you see. See dark behind his eyes. Behind all childishnes, behind knowledge, behind bowtie.

"The corner of your eye."

You never think about it. You never question it. After all there is that bit of sense in you. Without you he will become something worse. You maybe haven't heard of it but you know he has done something bad. Something wrong and terrfying just because there weren't anyone to stop him.

"Please, just find someone."

"I don't need anyone."

Sometimes in dark of night you can hear him. Screaming. Of pain, sorrow, memories. He has seen so much. Too much. You wonder how he's still sane. Well he's not.

"You just have to know one thing. I'm definetly a mad man with a box."

Sometimes there gets something trough. And you can see drastical changes in him. His movements. Suddenly so sharp and rough. His eyes no more green but almost black. Voice getting louder and it sends shivers down your spine.

"Why? It's all the eyes say: "Why?""

You experieced it once. With the ganger. The pain he went trough. The memories. The memories hurts the most. And you know that. The night he left you waiting.

Still hurts. But thats for you. What about him? About every regeneration. About every companion. Sometimes he tells you about them. He doesn't talk for them long. There is times when he just stops at midsentence. Then his eyes are empty. There is nothing there but lost and hunted souls calling him. It scares you the most emptiness.

"I could do so much more! So much more!"

You know that he is a good man but there is this one saying about good men. I think we all have heard of it. Of the Demons Run.

"Night will fall and drown the sun

When a good man goes to war."

The Doctor.

Oh! He is great.

Says those who have heard of him.

He's like fire and ice and rage. He's like the night, and the storm in the heart of the sun. He's ancient and forever. He burns at the centre of time and he can see the turn of the universe. And... he's wonderful.

Says pepople that have met him or traveled with him.

And that is all true. But we all have our secrets. Don't we? His is hidden deeper than ever. You like when he tells you about places he has seen, has saved, has loved. And you believe when he says he is gonna take you there. After all he is The Doctor. You don't realize that sometime he will leve you behing because he just couldn't bear the fact that you are getting older. And you will have to live normally. Can you do that? Live like Docotr's never been in your life.

He will move on. Get another companion. Travel across stars, save planets.

But you will be another lost soul inside his head. Always. Just as long as he'll live.

"I don't look back. I can't."

The pain he has to suffer because he know you are there somewhere living your life. Normally. The way he never could. But he will be proud. Of you.

"But the last time I was dying, I looked back on all of you. Every single one. And I was so proud."

And that is how you want to end this story. But you can't because there always be more. More of secrets. More of adventure. More of darkness.

But there is something so much more terrfying than darkness.

It is what is behind the darkness.