So, I figured since I was writing a happy Sarah/Cosima story, I should write one for Beth and Alison, I mean, they're just so perfect together! And I just love fictional lesbians so much...so yeah!

I'm so sorry, Alison, between the incident at work and finding out I could be hunted down and killed at any moment, I just can't do this anymore..if I'm going to die, I want it to be on my terms. But, before I go, I wanted..no, I needed to let you know, that I love you, you are the only light in this situation and if it weren't for you, I probably would have done this a lot sooner, but I just can't bare to be the cause of you tearing your family apart and I think you'll be better off without me. Just know, that wherever you are, even if you come to forget me, I will always be watching over you.

-Forever yours,

Beth.

I laid the note on the bedside table, taking one last glance at her sleeping form on those crummy motel sheets, sparing one more smile, for her sake, before exiting the room. My heart was heavy in my chest as I made my way to the train station, it would be quick, painless and there would be no chance of survival, I couldn't put her through that, she shouldn't have to suffer on my behalf, anymore than she already would.

With deft movements, I checked the schedule, nodding silently as I made my way to the right terminal. No one paid me any mind as I stepped near the tracks, slipping my heels off, dropping my bag next to them, before breathing deeply.

Just as the train came rumbling down the tracks, I heard it, a voice that sounded so much like hers. "Get away from there!" She screamed, as I looked behind me, my gaze catching the punk rocker, who looked just like me..and just like her.

I didn't have a chance to turn back around, to try and save my attempt at death, before she was grabbing me by the collar, yanking me away. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" She growled, yanking me further away, her gaze hard as diamonds.

It wasn't until we were at least a meter away from the tracks, did she stop to look at me. Shocked recognition flashed in her eyes, before she turned angry again. "Look, I have no bloody clue who you are, or why the hell you look like me, but life can't be so fucked, that you would try to jump in front of a fucking train, you daft dimbo!"

She kept a grip on my upper arm as she snatched up my purse and shoes, all but dragging me away from the train station. I could hear her mumbling things along the lines of how stupid I was and I was far too shocked to even try to argue.

She stopped at a dingy cafe, shoving me through the door and to a booth, before she started talking again. "Tell me why you look like me and then explain to me why you thought it was a grand fucking idea to try and jump in front of a train." She ground out, shoving my shoes at me, keeping a hold of my purse.

"I..we.." I paused, bringing a hand to my face, pinching the bridge of my nose, trying to fight the oncoming headache that dared to seep into my exhausted brain. "We're clones." I finally spat out, right before the waitress showed up.

She seemed to think it was just dandy that we looked like twins, I found it annoying and quite irksome. "I'll have a black coffee." I said, trying to sound more calm than I was.

She scribbled down my order, as my British doppelganger ordered hot tea, waiting until the waitress was gone, before shooting me a look.

"You're bloody joking, aren't you?" She spat, her brows raised at me. When I shook my head, she just leaned back against the booth, shrugging her shoulders a bit, before fixing that enraged look on me again. "Answer the second half of my question, why did you think it was a brilliant plan to jump in front of a damned train?"

I had no idea why this woman was so offended by my attempted suicide, she didn't even know me, but here she was, ignoring the fact that we were clones to scold me for trying to kill myself. "Things are..complicated." I said finally, nodding a thanks to the waitress as she set out drinks in front of us, assuring us she would be around if we needed anything.

When she walked away, the Brit was at it again, this time, leaning on her elbows, piercing me with her stony gaze. "Complicated doesn't mean you jump in front of a train, hell if it did I would have years ago, but no, I stuck around, you know why? Because I have people I care about, that I couldn't bare to hurt like that." She shook her head, tearing open a sugar packet, depositing it into her cup.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that suicide is weak, but you seem pretty well off, probably have a partner, nice house, nice car, that kind of thing, and if what you say is true, and we're clones, then yeah, it's complicated, but have you tried other ways of dealing with this, instead of just ending it?" She asked, stirring her now sweetened tea, before taking a sip.

I took a sip from my own mug, biting my lip. She made a fair point, but these things going on in my head were so..fucked. "No, I haven't..but you're right..I have people I care about and..I just..I thought they would be better off, you know?" I shrugged my shoulders, rubbing my face.

"Don't take them for granted, yeah?" She said, shaking her head again. She went to open her mouth again, when my phone started going off, the one I knew was only for when the other clones called.

Before I could stop her, she grabbed it, glancing at the screen, before answering. "Hello?" She said, as I tried to snatch it away from her, only to huff when she glared at me. "I'm Sarah and I assume Beth is the one I'm sitting across from, what was your name again?"

She nodded her head, before handing the phone over. "It's a chick named Alison, she sounds pretty worried." She shrugged her shoulders, before leaning back in her booth.

"Hello..Alison." I said, biting my lip, I could hear her sniff and it made my heart ache in my chest. "Alison, I'm fine..this woman..Sarah, she's like us..and she stopped me..I'm not..I won't, I promise." I murmured, wincing as she sobbed.

"You were just going to..to leave me..with a note!" She cried, making me feel worse and worse. "Not even a proper goodbye, what is wrong with you?"

I shot Sarah a look as she smirked at me, knowing she had fully thwarted me. "I know..I know, I'm sorry, I'm going to come back okay, so we can talk about this..so I can explain and so you can help me, okay?" I said, placing my forehead in my hand.

"Fine." Was all she said before the phone clicked off, making my heart sink into my stomach.

"Thank you, for that." I scoffed, holding my hand out for my purse. When she handed it over, she smirked again, while I pulled out enough for the tab. "Look, Sarah, once I get this all sorted out with Alison, we all need to talk, we need to explain to you what's going on."

"Alright, gimme your cell number, I'll use my brother's phone and call you tomorrow, we can set up a meet and greet or something, so you can prove to me I'm not crazy, yeah?" She shook her head as I pulled a pen out of my bag, scrawling my number on a napkin, before handing it over.

"You're taking this all pretty well." I commented as I slid out of the booth, watching as she stood as well.

"Yeah, well, you pissed me off and that kind of overrided my reasonability, I'm sure I'll gain it back tomorrow and insist that you're bat shit crazy, but until then, don't go trying to off yourself again, or I swear I'll bring you back just to punch you in the face."

"That made total sense." I shook my head, a slight smile on my face as I held my hand out to my punked out clone. "I'm Beth, thank you for dragging me away from the tracks." I said, though a part of me nagged that it was a mistake. I mentally shook it off as a she gripped my hand.

"Sarah, and you're just lucky I happened to be there, who knows what would have happened if I had been late, everything happens for a reason though, right?" She shrugged before heading out, leaving me feeling rather small.

I knew by the end of the night, Alison would have me feeling even smaller, but I was just glad she would have the chance to yell at me, like the Brit had said, everything happens for a reason.

Thank you for reading! Let me know what you think and if I should continue or not!