A/N: This is my first fanfic, but i don't care harsh or generous reviews i mean :) I do not own Twilight so DON'T SUE please :P

Chapter One:

Beautiful

BPOV

You're not good for me, Bella. Those words rang in my mind as Edward begged and pleaded for me to take him back. It was only about half a year ago that Edward decided to up and leave. Now he clutched my hand telling me how much he loved me and how much I meant to him. "Dear God, please make this dream end. Wake me up, please," I pleaded, tears flowing freely. Since Edward left me, I haven't been able to trust anyone. I was like a zombie wandering through a world that he hadn't existed in for centuries. This was how my life was, except I had nowhere to go because he was gone.

I knew how much I wanted Edward back but I didn't think that my heart could take it. I pulled my hand free of Edward's and ran toward Charlie's room. I locked the door behind me and flung myself onto his mattress. I knew Edward would leave if I asked him to, but I don't think that we could take that. That's if he really meant what he said, about him loving me. It would hurt too much to say those five words to someone whom I'm truly and madly in love with. I'd rather have Victoria finish me off.

"Bella please let me in," he whispered. I pulled myself together, just enough to face him. "Bella," he sighed relief strong in his voice. "I'm sorry I hurt you. I know that when I left, I left you bleeding." His glorious angel face was agonized when he spoke the next words.

"Bella," he spoke carefully. "Please tell me, have you moved on? Have you found someone worthy of loving you? Can you still love me? Just tell me you don't want me anymore, and I'll leave."

"I don't know." The words came out strangled, my body, frozen in place.

"When you decide, you know where to find me," he informed me before climbing out my window.

EPOV

"Dear God, please make this dream end. Wake me up, please," Bella pleaded, tears flowing in streams from her eyes. What have I done to my beautiful angel? She tugged her hands out of mine and ran for Charlie's room. How many nights has she cried herself to sleep because of me? How many restless days have I spent thinking about how my pathetic life had no use without Bella in it? She sobbed relentlessly in the other room. So much did I want to end my existence for making her life like this—so complicated?

"Bella, please let me in," I whispered through Charlie's bedroom door. Now, Bella faced me, her eyes swollen from days of crying—I could see that. Her face, her soft cheeks stained with streams of tears. She was as beautiful as I remembered. "Bella," I sighed, relieved. She hadn't harmed herself—she kept her promise. I didn't. "I'm so sorry. I know that when I left, I left you bleeding. Please tell me, have you moved on? Have you found someone worthy of loving you? Or can you still love me?" I spoke slowly. "Just tell me that you don't want me and I'll leave." Those words really hit me hard.

"I don't know," she whispered. My knees went weak.

"You know where to find me," I told her before dropping out of her window.

I wanted to run for miles and never stop. I wanted to go back in time and tell Bella, I loved her enough. I want to tell her how much she deserved better. I wanted to spend the rest of my existence—eternity with her. I want forever with her. I just want the best for my angel. I want her to be happy with me, with whomever as long as she's happy with him.

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BPOV

When he left, I collapsed onto my bed. WHY DOESN'T VICTORIA JUST COME AND FINISH ME OFF NOW?! There was a knock on my window and I looked warily to find Alice standing right by my open window.

"Knock, Knock. Can I come in?" She grinned.

"Alice!" I ran to her, stumbling a few times before reaching her cool arms. "Alice, I missed you so much," I said against the cool skin of her shoulder.

"Oh, Bella, look at you. You're an emotional wreck. I told Edward that leaving you would do you no good," she muttered, hugging me into her pixie-like frame. I cried again, this time thanking God that he didn't wake me up from my hopeless slumber. "Shh..Bella. Its going to be okay," she murmured trying to comfort me.

"Oh, Alice, I don't know if my heart can bear taking Edward back."

She took a step back to overlook me. "Well of course I think that you should take him back. You two were meant for each other."

I hesitated. "But how does our future look together?"

"Bella, I see you and Edward happy, getting married, being together forever," she told me. "As far not being together, it's all blank. Both you and Edward don't know what you would do without each other." I was absolutely speechless. I didn't know that Edward would want to marry me someday—that he really wanted to keep me forever.

"Bella, do you want to see Edward?" Alice asked after a few moments of silence. I nodded. So we walked out of my house and within a few minutes we were at the Cullen mansion nestled deep in the woods. I wasn't surprised to see Edward on the porch pacing. Once Edward set me down I ran up the porch steps and threw myself at Edward's body, burying my face in his chest, inhaling his sweet, addictive scent, committing it to memory. As if on instinct his arms wrapped around me and he buried his face in my hair.

"Bella, I'm so sorry," he spoke into my hair.

"I missed you the whole time you were gone. I love you Edward Cullen." A sense of conviction and righteousness settled onto the bottom of my heart. I truly belong with Edward.

"I never stopped loving you, Bella," he whispered. "Let's go to our meadow." On our way to our beautiful patch of sunshine, we talked about what we've been up to while Edward was gone. The answer was pretty much synonymous. I was depressed. Edward pretty much crawled into a ball and died. Well if he could die again. Once we reached our beautiful meadow, which was filled with patches of wildflowers, Edward set me down on my feet. "Bella," he began. "There is something that I've been meaning to do for a while." I gestured for him to continue, that was when he slipped onto one knee, holding my hands. "Bella," he murmured looking up at me through his impossibly long eyelashes. "We've been through our ups and downs, highs and lows, but NONE of that matters to me. All that matters is you. You were all I could think about while I was gone. You're all I can think about at any given place or waking moment. If I were able to dream, you would be all I ever dream about. You are all that I ever want and I promise to love you and only you forever. Every single moment of forever," he told me pulling a black jewelry box out of his back pocket. He opened it to expose a platinum ring with golden and black diamonds in the center. "Will you marry me?"

I didn't notice that the tears that built up in my eyes had spilt over the brim, but I managed to choke out, "Yes." Once that word was said, he lifted me up in his arms and twirled me around, before kissing my adoringly. When I finally gasped for some much needed air, he held my hand out sliding the ring onto my third finger—my ring finger on my left hand. And when he reached up, I thought to brush my hair back; he clasped a golden locket around my neck. On the front was the phrase 'forever, my love'. I smiled up at Edward. "Thank you, for loving me more than I deserve." Before he could protest, I pressed my lips to his.

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