Burning Desire
Summary: She wrapped her hands around his throat, knowing the only way to end this because he was always going to need this…and she was always going to want it.
Warning: PWP. Basically, just an excuse for me to have Bella and Jacob get down anywhere and everywhere that I can think of.
Chapter one: Need
"Fuck me," I whispered, giving him permission, taking him into my flesh, a soft invitation to madness."
― Emme Rollins, Dear Rockstar
It had been 175 days since Edward had dumped her and moved away with his family. At first, Bella had been depressed but through his steady support and friendship, Jacob had managed to help her pull through. Time began to move along much more quickly now; school, work, and Jacob though not necessarily in that order. It created a neat and effortless pattern to follow.
And Charlie got his wish: Bella was not miserable over Edward anymore.
Now she had a different reason to mope.
Bella laid on her bed, staring at her phone with a depressed sigh.
It had been 18 days since Bella had seen Jacob.
They had gone to see a movie, it was supposed to be a group thing with friends from school, but Jessica was busy, Quil was grounded, Angela and Mike were sick, and Ben just didn't feel like coming, so it ended up being just her and Jacob. She could not say she was disappointed though. Jacob was her best friend and she preferred hanging out with him than anyone else.
They ended up watching a cheesy horror film and having an enjoyable time…until Jacob tried to hold her hand afterward and she pulled away, which lead to a deep conversation about their feelings.
Jacob's hands were cupping her face, his lips hovering inches away from hers, and she was just about to close the gap herself before Jacob suddenly let go of her with a pained look on his face, turning his back to her.
"Are you all right?" Bella asked, reaching out to touch him and Jacob flinched, avoiding her eyes when she stepped in front of him.
"I'm sorry, Bella, but I need to go home," Jacob blurted, his voice strained.
He started to walk away, and Bella called his name.
He paused.
"You…You're not mad at me, are you?" Bella questioned, confused.
"No," Jacob was panting, "I'm starting to feel a little strange,"
"Let me drive you home, then," Bella said.
"No!" Jacob snapped, and Bella took a step back, "I mean…"
Jacob was trembling, and Bella hesitantly moved closer.
"You know that I would never hurt you, right?" Jacob said, and she put her hand on his back.
At her touch, Jacob let out a pained groan, before shrugging her off.
"I really think I'd better go home now," he said, shrugging her hand off and practically running out the door.
"Wait!" Bella ran after him, but when she got outside, he was gone.
Bella sighed again, checking her cell for messages.
She thought of their last phone conversation, 24 hours after his disappearing act at the theater.
"Hello?" Jacob's voice was broken, cracking.
"You sound horrible," Bella could hear his breathing hitch, "Are you sick?"
"I feel horrible," he whispered.
"You'll get better soon," Bella promised, "Is it the stomach flu?"
"No. This…This is something else." Jacob's breathing was getting heavier in her ear.
"What's wrong with you?"
"Everything," he whispered. "Every part of me hurts."
She could practically feel his pain through the phone.
"What can I do, Jake? What can I bring you?"
Jacob groaned.
"Jake?"
"I want to see you." he sounded anguished, "I want to see you so bad."
"I'll stop by later with soup and—,"
"No, you can't come here," he said, quickly and Bella could hear a rustling sound as if he was moving around, "I'll call you and let you know when you can come down again,"
"Jacob?"
"I've got to go," he said with a sudden urgency.
"Jacob?"
"Bella," he whispered her name and then all she heard was the dial tone.
That was the last time she heard from him. She had tried calling and even drove down there a few times, but Billy always intercepted her before she could see Jacob. She was going a little mad.
She needed to see Jacob. She needed to know he was all right and here his voice. She yearned for his carefree laugh and his infectious grin. She needed his warm hand around her cold fingers.
She fell asleep with her phone clutched in her hand and woke up to a dark shadow standing in her corner. She jumped, thinking it was Edward, reaching for her lamp.
"Don't," a familiar voice begged, and Bella froze, "Please,"
"Jake?" she rubbed her eye with her fist, "What's going on?"
Jacob said nothing, and Bella turned her lamp on.
She gasped.
Jacob was sweating, his face flushed red, and he was trembling.
"What's wrong?" she got out of bed, running over to him.
"Please, make it stop," he begged, and she reached out, taking his hand in hers.
His skin was burning hot like he was sick with a fever.
"Do you need to go to the hospital?"
"They can't help me," Jacob's hand tightened around hers, not painfully, "I need you,"
"Whatever you need," Bella assured him, and Jacob's eyes snapped up to meet hers, his pupils blown.
"I need you,"
Bella placed her free hand on his forehead and he quivered.
"It hurts," he whimpered, "…need you so much."
"I'm here," she said, running her fingers through his hair, "Tell me what's wrong,"
"I can't…17 days…It hurts," he was mumbling to himself.
"What hurts?"
Jacob's arms suddenly wrapped around her and she could feel something hard against her thigh. Her eyes widened, and she pushed Jacob away. He didn't fight, hunching over, panting.
"What's wrong with you?" she growled, "Is this some kind of prank,"
Jacob didn't answer, eyes wet with pain as they met hers.
"Seriously, Jake," Bella threw her hands up, "We're going to the hospital,"
"No," Jacob grabbed her arm, "Please…It's been…hard."
"That's a natural reflex."
"…for 17 days!" Jacob gasped out and Bella's mouth fell open.
"What?"
"I've tried everything! Everything!" Jacob sounded hysterical, "I went to the hospital. I drank old Quil's medicine. I even tried poking it with a needle. It won't go down!"
"Well, what can I do?" Bella asked, and Jacob started walking towards her.
"I need you…you're the only one…I can feel it!"
Bella backed away and Jacob kept coming until she fell back on the bed.
"Stop!" Bella shouted, and Jacob blinked, seeming to snap out of his trance.
"Oh, god, Bella," Jacob looked horrified, "I'm so sorry!"
He turned away from her and opened her bedroom door.
"Wait!" Bella cried, sitting up and Jacob paused.
He turned back to her, looking ashamed of himself.
"Don't go." Bella said, "Just…talk to me."
Bella expected Jacob to sit next to her, but instead, he sat on the floor, his back against the wall, staying as far away from her as he could. Bella wanted to tell him that he was being silly, then she saw the way his hands were shaking. She decided not to push him.
Apparently, it had started that night at the movies and ever since then Jacob had been having thoughts. Sexual thoughts about her. Well, he had already been having them before but never as intense. And then he had gotten hard, but neither jerking off or a cold shower would help. Then it started to hurt, and he had to tell Billy. Billy took him to the hospital, but the doctors couldn't figure out the problem. They thought he might have Priapism. They talked about draining blood from his penis and medication to restrict blood flow, but it didn't work. So, Billy had taken him to see Old Quil for some natural medication that might help, but it hadn't worked. And as the days passed, his thoughts about her grew more and more intense and he had been avoiding her out of fear. But tonight, the pain had gotten too bad and he lost control for a minute.
"I don't understand," Bella said, and Jacob wouldn't even look at her.
"I…I don't know what to do, Bella," Jacob said, quietly.
Bella didn't want to see Jacob in pain…but what he wanted…she wasn't sure that she was ready for that. She knew that it wouldn't hurt. She had broken her hymen with a toy once while Edward was off hunting. She thought about the vibrator in her drawer. She felt embarrassed, knowing that recently Jacob had become the person she thought about whenever she used it.
"Okay," Bella took a deep breath, "Let's do it,"
"What?" Jacob's eyes widened.
"I want to help you," Bella said, "But I've never done it before so…we'll have to do it slowly."
Bella expected Jacob to be happy, but instead, he looked even more miserable.
"No," he shook his head, "It's not supposed to happen like this,"
"What are you talking about?"
"I always imagined our first time would be special. After we had been dating for a while. I wanted you to love me when it happened. I don't want it to happen because you feel sorry for me,"
"Jake—"
"I shouldn't have come here," Jacob stood up, heading to the window.
"I named my vibrator after you!" Bella blurted out, and Jacob tensed, "It's not out of pity. I…I'm not in love with you, yet. But I do have feelings for you and I…I have thoughts about you too. Just…I'm sorry it's not happening the way you imagined it…"
Jacob didn't say anything.
"Just come and lay down," Bella said, "We…we don't have to do anything. You look like you're going to fall over. We'll figure it out tomorrow."
"I shouldn't—"
"Please?"
It took a little more convincing, but Bella managed to get Jacob into bed with her. He was tense, trying to stay as far away from her as possible, but she moved toward him, wrapping her arms around him and laying her head on his chest.
"Sleep," she ordered, and the tension eased from Jacob's body as his arm wrapped around her waist, keeping her close.
She could feel his erection pressed against her leg, but there was nothing that Jacob could do about it, so she wasn't going to say anything. It wasn't long until they both fell asleep and Bella was sure that everything would be better tomorrow.
…..
Bella woke up to the feel of warm hands on her chest, touching her breasts through her shirt. Bella kept her eyes closed as the memory of last night came back. She knew that she had fallen asleep with Jacob, so it must be Jacob's hands lifting her shirt to expose her breast. Her first instinct was to open her eyes and yell at him, but…
Jacob's hands were playing with her nipples. She had never had another person's hands on her before. It felt…good.
Bella moaned, softly and the hands moved away. Bella was disappointed. Jacob must have lost control for a second but hearing her moan had reminded him that it was wrong.
Soft, hot lips wrapped around his left nipple and Bella gasped, as Jacob's began to lick and suck it. His hand was playing with her right breath to keep it from being neglected. For a long time, he went back and forth between her breast, licking, sucking, rubbing, pinching. Bella didn't know her nipples were that sensitive, but she was completely soaked. Jacob's hips were grinding against the bed, she could hear his desperate grunts and could tell that it wasn't helping.
Jacob's hand brushed over her pussy through her shorts and Bella couldn't stop herself from gasping loudly, her eyes popping open. Jacob froze.
"Don't stop!" Bella said, quickly, then flushed, "I mean…I want to help you."
"I…" Jacob's pupils were blown, and he was breathing harshly, "I'm not going to fuck you,"
"Then what were you doing?"
"I thought that maybe…if I tried to…with you near me then maybe I could," Jacob was stumbling over his words, his hips still moving, struggling to find relief.
Lifting, Bella took off her shorts.
"What are you-?"
"Shut up," Bella hissed, then laid back down, "I'm keeping my panties on."
Jacob's hand brushed over her as if to check and Bella's hips bucked.
"You're wet,"
"Shut up!" Bella closed her eyes in embarrassment, "Just do what you need to do. I trust you."
Jacob smiled, relived before moving down her body until his face was between her legs. Bella wasn't expecting that, opening her mouth to protest, but then Jacob's tongue darted out, tasting her through her panties, and her protest turned into a moan. Pleased by her response, Jacob took a long slow lick.
"Just like that," Bella moaned, her hand finding its way in Jacob's hair as he continued, "Oh,"
Her eyes fluttered closed, and Jacob repeated the action, getting a slow rhythm going. Bella covered her mouth with her hands to muffle her moans. Jacob's tongue was moving faster, and he had his hands on her thighs to keep her legs spread opens.
"I'm gonna cum," Bella whimpered, tugging Jacob's hair and he pulled her panties to the side, his tongue finally touching her bare pussy, "Ah,"
That sent her over the edge and Bella came, Jacob continued to eat her out through her orgasm, still grinding against the mattress until she was left trembling. Bella noticed his fruitless rutting and gestured for him to get up. Jacob crawled up her body until they were face to face.
"I…have an idea," Bella panted, grabbing the bottom of Jacob's shirt and tugging it until he let her out it over her head, "Take off your pants,"
Jacob started shaking his head, but Bella stopped him.
"We aren't going to have sex," Bella said, "Well... there won't be any penetration."
"Bella, I…" Jacob frowned, "Not like this."
"I was just thinking that maybe you could rub yourself against me." Bella suggested, "Over my panties. That way your little Jake can get the stimulation he needs, and you can finally—"
Jacob was taking off his pants before she could finish her sentence. She finally got to see what Jacob had going on down there and Wow. He was much bigger than her toy. She wasn't sure that he would fit if he tried.
Jacob positioned himself against her and started to move. Bella gasped as he rubbed it across her clit over and over. His right hand started massaging her breast, his face was close to her, looking her in the eyes as he humped her. Bella started to move her hips in time with his, her hands finding their way to his shoulder.
"Fuck," Jacob groaned, hands leaving her breast and finding their way to her hips, "I want…I can't…it's not enough!"
Flipping them over so Bella was on top, Bella cried out when Jacob's hands tore off her panties. There was nothing between them now, Bella's legs were on either side of him and the lips of her pussy were pressed against the side of his cock. Jacob's hands were still on her hips moving her back and forth.
"Touch my breasts," Bella moaned, her hands on his chest as she started moving on her own.
It felt so…good. Better than good. Jacob's hands were playing with her breasts, his dick was rubbing across the lips of her pussy, brushing her clit with every move. Bella started moving hips faster, Jacob grunting, she threw her head back, her hand covering her mouth as she climaxed. Jacob's cock was pulsing, but he still hadn't come yet.
"What if you just put in the tip?" Bella gasped, "It might be enough to push you over,"
"I don't have a condom," Jacob grunted, "If I came, I might—"
"I'm on the pill," Bella said, eagerly, "Don't worry."
Jacob rolled them back over, so he was on top, and slowly pushed in just a few inches. He moved back and forth never going any further and Bella couldn't take it anymore.
"Oh god," she whimpered, before grabbing his ass and pulling him all the way inside of her, "Just fuck me!"
Jacob didn't miss a beat, his hips rolling into her, his hands fisting into the sheet beside her as he fucked her. His lips met hers, as they shared their first kiss. It was messy and passionate.
"Oh, yes!" Bella moaned, meeting Jacob's thrusts, "Fuck me, Jacob! Fuck me!"
Jacob shoved his tongue in her mouth muffling her screams as she came yet again. She forgot about why they were doing, getting lost in a haze of pleasure.
"It feels so good! It feels so good!" Bella moaned, unable to hold back as her nails dug into Jacob's skin, "Don't stop! Don't stop, please!"
"Oh god, Bells!" Jacob grunted, pulling almost all the way out and then pushing back in with one hard thrust, "I'm gonna come!"
Something inside Jacob seemed to snap, he thrust became faster, harder. Bella couldn't hold back her screams of pleasure, as Jacob literally fucked her so hard that her body started sliding across the mattress.
"Ah, fuck! Yes!" her legs wrapped around him, trying to pull him deeper, "Oh, Jake!"
"Fuck, yeah!" Jacob grunted, slamming into her, pounding her pussy, "So close! Can't stop!"
He started fucking her with all his willpower, and Bella squealed in delight.
"Oh, yes, Jacob! Fuck me! Fuck ME! Yes!" Bella's back arched and she tightened around him, "Oh my god!"
Jacob grabbed her hands, holding her wrist together with one hand, while her hips bucked against him, trying to get more. She needed more. She needed him to be closer, to be deeper! Her legs kicked out and Jacob dove into her for the last time before he finally came.
"YES! OH, MY GOD! Finally!" Jacob shouted as he spilled his seed inside her.
Bella was still bucking against him, moaning, until it was over.
They both stared at each other, panting, their bodies still connected.
"Thank you," Jacob gasped out, "That was fucking amazing!"
Jacob leaned down and kissed her. Bella groaned, opening her mouth, and deepening the kiss. Her legs wrapped around him again, wanting to keep him close. Her body felt strange. Jacob pulled away and Bella reluctantly lets him go.
"You don't think Charlie heard us, do you?" Jacob asked, and Bella shook her head.
"He's not here. He called and said he was working late,"
"Good,"
Jacob laid down beside her, pulling her body close to his. Bella knew that they should probably talk about what happened…but she was too tired to think of anything to say. All she knew was that she wanted to be closer to Jacob.
Even laying on his chest felt too far away.
Author's Note: This is basically Porn with a Plot. I know the first chapter is a little cheesy, but this was mostly just set up for the upcoming chapters.
Please review and let me know what you think.