Dearest Remus,
If you are reading this, I am either dead or you came across it while you were cleaning nervously again. I really hope it's the latter.
I'm writing this letter because I want you to know how I really feel about you, you know how I am with my feelings, I don't know the best way of speaking them.
But I want you to know that I love you, with all my heart, and I know I don't tell you that as much as I should, I should tell you that every second of your life, because that's how much it's true.
When we were in school you were my voice of reason without you I would have killed someone with my pranks, and I know I almost killed Snape. Those months when you wouldn't talk to me, were the second worst moments of my life. I would have taken my life if it would have made you feel better. I nearly did, but James talked me down.
Then just as our relationship had became normal again, Halloween happened. I was ripped from you again.
While I was in Azkaban the Dementors took pleasure in making me relive that and the night in the Shrieking Shack, over and over again.
It still even surprises me that I came out of there with as much sanity as I have, which is small.
But, wanting to see you again helped me. You have no idea how much I wanted to see you again, and hold you, and have you hold me like you used to… with out any doubt that I was a murderer.
When I finally broke free and saw you again, in the Shrieking Shack, with Harry, I was surprised that I didn't break down right then. When we talked, we cried, and I felt that we were somewhat connected again. I hope I never lose that now. I don't think I could survive that again.
And Moony, I know you get self-conscious the your a were-wolf, but I love EVERY part of you, wolf included. Please, never, ever think that that make you a horrible person, you are the most wonderful, loving, gentle, person I have ever known. I know you might not see it yourself, but everyone else does! Why do you think Tonks harbored a crush on you for so many years? (and don't say she was blinded by hormones or anything else you're trying to think of.) Or why Harry goes to you for support? Or why I love you so much? Because your you. Never forget that we love you for you, wolf and all.
I'm starting to run out of paper now, so I guess I should close this letter now...
I love you Remus J. Lupin, forever, even if I'm gone.
Please, if I am gone, and you do find someone you love, and they make you happy, be with them. I want you to be happy, even if it's not with me anymore.
All of my love,
Sirius Black.
Remus looked at the letter again, tears running down his cheeks. He didn't even try and keep them from spilling onto the letter.
He put his muggle cleaning supplies down, needing to clean earlier to calm his nerves, not even bothering to put them in their proper places.
He climbed the stairs of Grimmlaud Place, to the third floor, second door on the right. He opened the door, shed his clothes and climbed into the warm bed.
He snuggled close to the body next to him. Breathing in his smell, Remus put his arm over him and pulled him close.
Sirius sighed in his sleep and rolled over to face Remus.
Remus placed a light kiss on Sirius's lips and whispered.
"I love you too, Sirius."
End.