A/N: MEASURE IN LOVEEEEEE! SEASONS OF LOOOOOOOVE!

(Sorry I just love Rent)

I know I am working on another story but my mental health has just gotten worse recently so wanted to write something with one of my favorite vocaloids to cheer me up and this story is only gonna be 4 chapters. I don't have much else to say I hope y'all enjoy!

I don't remember my parents much. I hear they were great people and they loved me very much but one evening after my mother and father were returning from a movie date night a drunk driver hit them head-on. My father died on impact but my mother lived but was paralyzed.

My mother ran off with my father right after she graduated high school and only a few months later I was conceived. My father who was almost 10 years older than my mother had a good job and so my mother became a housewife and soon I was brought into the world and showered with love. But now my father was dead. He had savings and good life insurance but money was the only thing we had to rely on. My father never knew his biological father and his mother died of cancer when I was only a few weeks old. My mom got disowned by her parents after she married my dad. Now my mother who had never been to college, never worked a day in her life and was now disabled had to find a way to support her and her 2-year-old. I get why in that case she chose death instead. I am not mad at her for leaving me behind but I do wish she could have held on longer. I probably would have ended up in foster care after that if it wasn't for my moms best friend. Mom's friend was actually our neighbor when I was a baby and they had a son who was 5 years older than me. His name was Gakupo.

After I was adopted Gakupo immediately took on the role of doting big brother. He would play with me whenever he wasn't busy with schoolwork, he would stick up for me when I started school and we watched the same animes and read the same manga (even though I only watched and read those things at the time because he was watching and reading them). I know it's a cliche to have little sisters say "I'm gonna marry big brother when I grow up!" but there is a home video out there of me saying those exact words. I meant what I said at that time, I felt that way for a long time.

Eventually, when we got older I ended up becoming selfish with my feelings. Gakupo ending up being quite the ladies man in high school. He had lots of girlfriends but never brought any of them home. I only knew about them because he would post pictures with them on social media.

Once these pictures started surfacing I began to do anything I could to get Gakupo's attention back on me. I'd record anime for us to watch, I'd lie about doing badly in classes to get Gakupo to help me with homework. Sometimes I even cried, blaming my mood swings on periods or things being tough at school but he would always be right there by my side to soothe me.

Once I saw he was getting serious about a girl, at least I could tell it was serious because he would turn down my offers to hang out with him. But then she made the mistake of trying to invite him out on my birthday.

"Gakupo it's my birthday! You can't go to the movies, even if tomorrow is the last day it's showing!" I whined, faux tears filling my eyes.

"I… Okay I won't go. Plus I miss spending time with you booger," Gakupo eventually agreed as he patted my head.

"Don't call me booger," I said with a weak laugh. Even though I was still trying to put on a sad act so I could feel his touch a little longer… I was so happy he would stay for my birthday, I felt like I had won a long battle.

The next day my birthday went great! A few of my school friends came over, I had carrot cake from m favorite bakery, I got presents from everyone. I felt like I was on top of the world! But the next day Gakupo refused to leave his room. It was a weekend so our parents weren't concerned when he didn't come for breakfast, sometimes when he had a lot of homework he would sleep in late. But when lunch rolled around we still hadn't seen him. Mom knew he was awake because she could hear the faint sound of him playing a game on his PSP. Eventually she sent me up to his room with a sandwich, food in hand I knocked on his door.

"Hey Dingus I got your lunch, can I come in?"

I didn't get a response. I put my ear up to the door, I could hear that iconic persona music.

"Fuck it," I whispered as I opened his door.

Gakupo was staring blankly at his screen as he played his game, he was almost like a robot. At first he didn't notice me. I set the plate down on his desk and finally the sound of a glass plate hitting wood snapped his attention to me.

"I didn't give you permission to come in."

"Well I gotta make sure my brother doesn't starve! Plus I couldn't leave the food outside your door the dog would eat it." I said putting my hands on my hips and faking a pout.

He just looked at me blankly, he didn't even seem annoyed by me.

"All right I get the memo! I'll leave you now," I said turning to head to the door.

"Wait!" He suddenly said. I turned around.

"Stay for a moment," he said sitting up in bed and patting down the spot next to him.

I sat down next to him and neither of us said anything. He just looked very tired and a bit sad.

"Gakupo if something has made you upset you should tell me. You help me with all my issues I gotta return the favor sometimes," I said putting my hand on his shoulder.

He sighed then came over resting his head on my shoulder. I felt something wet hit it, he was hiding his tears from me. My heart was beating so fast but I rubbed his back and prayed to every god ever to not let him hear my heartbeat.

"Lily broke up with me." He eventually said after a few tears, his head was still on my shoulder.

"Why?" I asked, probably could have been more delicate but whatever.

"Yesterday I told her I wasn't gonna go to the movie with her but last night she called me angrily saying I stood her up, I even told her it was your birthday but she didn't believe me and hung up. I woke up to a breakup text and when I tried to call her she blocked my number."

"That's really shitty."

"Heh it is," Gakupo said faking a chuckle.

"Seriously though this girl sounds so high maintenance, it's probably for the best you two broke up." I said doing the best I could to cheer him up.

"I know, but a breakup has never hurt this much before."

"I'm sorry," I said running my fingers through his long purple hair. We stayed like that for awhile when eventually he got off of my shoulder and went to grab his PSP again. I left quickly and eventually just laid on my bed at stared at the ceiling. I definitely did win the battle but at what cost?

Gakupo was still visibly upset for a few weeks after that but he cheered up during summer break when we went to visit the college he got accepted to in Tokyo. In spring he graduated high school and went to Tokyo.

After that day in Gakupo's room I tried to get over him. After all Gakupo deserved to be with a kind and gentle woman, not with a spoiled little booger like me. But I couldn't do it. Eventually a few weeks before Gakupo was supposed to graduate high school I gather all my courage and texted him to meet me in his room to talk.

He came into my room a bit confused, I told him to shut the door and the gestured to my desk chair so he could sit in front of me. I decided to remain seated on the bed because if I stood up.

"Gakupo, I love you. I have loved you for a very long time but I have also hurt you by being selfish and I am sorry," I bowed my head a bit as I finished. he was very silent for a moment, when I looked at him for a split second I could see the gears in his head turning. After a few minutes of silence, he finally spoke up.

"Gumi I am so sorry but I just got out of a relationship so I cannot reciprocate your feelings. I appreciate you telling me how you feel and I'm sorry it will not work out, I hope we can remain friends." He stood up and gave the most respectful bow I had ever seen. At first this made me laugh but than tears filled my eyes. They were not caused by laughing too hard nor were they fake. They were bittersweet tears. I was sad to be rejected even if it was for the best but I was so happy her rejected me as a woman and not as his little sister.

"Thank you..." I muttered over and over. What Gakupo gave me was more than I could ask for.

That night I prayed for Gakupo to find a good woman and start a serious relationship and eventually he did. The second summer when he came home from college he brought a woman named Megurine Luka with him. Appearance wise she was defiantly his type but she was definitely not anything like Lily. When they graduated college they got engaged and I was probably even more stoked for the wedding than they were. A few months later when Gakupo and Luka had come down for my 18th birthday I eventually had a late night talk with Gakupo about what happened around my 13th birthday.

"I blamed myself for you and Lily's breakup for a long time," I said.

"Really? God you really shouldn't have. Maybe I should thank you I might not have meet Luka if I had stayed with Lily."

"Perhaps, but still I felt like I had been selfish with your time for just like Lily was and because of that I ruined a relationship."

"Okay you two are nowhere in the same league," Gakupo said "Lily wanted me to spend every minute of the day with her, she would say I didn't love her if I wanted to just eat lunch with my friends one day. You would take up a lot of my time I agree but I enjoyed spending time with you and if something came up and I couldn't you wouldn't claim I loved you any less or throw a huge fit." Gakupo reached over and pat me on the head.

"You are my sister Gumi and I will always be there for you."

My heart skipped a beat at that moment like it commonly did when I was a child. But unlike back then I didn't dream of our wedding and doodle his name inside hearts. We would both find different people to spend the rest of our lives with and even if my childhood fantasies of being Gakupo's wife never came true he was at least there to walk his little sister down the aisle.

A/N: I love Gakupo but I can never see Gumi and Gakupo as anything other than siblings. But still, I decided for my first season I would take an Aniimo approach. (If y'all know that song you know what I mean). Also, Gumi's release date ("Birthday") is in June and most summer breaks in Japan start in July which is why it wasn't summer break during Gumi's birthday. I felt like clearing that up but maybe I'm just over-explaining stuff. Leave a review if you loved it or if you hated it any feedback is appreciated!