Disclaimer: I do not own The Carrie Diaries nor the characters. I'm just a crazy girl having fun by writing about it.

Note: Some of the characters are based on the book: Lali, who is Carrie's best friend, and Peter, who is Maggie's boyfriend. It was with him that Maggie cheated on Walt.

Without further ado, I hope you enjoy the fic and let's start! x

Chapter 1
Live With The Choices You Make

It's a Saturday morning and I have been awake for about 20 minutes. I'm lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling and thinking about Sebastian... Or should I say Se-bastard.
I've been telling Maggie and The Mouse that I don't care about the fact that Sebastian is dating my (ex)best friend Lali. But now that they broke up I feel good and bad at the same time. Good because she got what she deserved. But bad because above all of this, she was my best friend for as long as I can remember. And she is suffering. A lot.

"Carrie?" says Dorrit, bursting into my room, interrupting my thoughts "Lali is here. She wants to talk to you."

"Tell her I'm not. Tell her I went for a run or something."

"We all know that Carrie Bradshaw doesn't run" says Lali, opening my room door and pushing Dorrit, who leaves.

"Well, we all know that best friends don't steal each others boyfriends" I say while I get up and dress and old blue robe with white polka dots which belonged to my mother. "Oh wait... What do you want Lali?"

"I came here to do what is right."

Oh really? Why? Did you realized something? That Donna LaDonna and the Jens are not actually your friends? That Sebastian doesn't love anything besides him and his red porsche? Or that now that you are all alone you miss me and our friends? I dared myself to say.
I opened my mouth, ready to talk but... I can't do it. Nothing comes out of my mouth. Not even a little awkward sound. I just stood there, looking at her. I wasn't expecting this. I wasn't expecting her. At all.

"I miss you Carrie. I don't know what I was thinking when I made out with him. I was a fool and what I did was childish." She says while her eyes start to get watery. "I-I-I am so sorry," And then, she just burst into tears.

My first thought was to hug and comfort her, but I resist it by turning around and staring at my reflection on the big white window of my room.

"Please... Say something" her voice is shaky and low. Like she really regrets what she has done. "Anything."

"Is this some kind of joke?" I say as I turn around and face her.

"What do you mean?"

"What do I mean? I mean that you can't just stab me in the back like that and then just show up in my house begging for forgiveness. You made your choice. You chose him over me and all of our friends. You said you loved him. You left me." I say resisting the urge to cry.

"I said I am sorry. What am I supposed to do?" She wipes the tears off her face. "I can't erase my mistakes or act like nothing as ever happened between us!"

I took a few steps and stopped next to the door.

"I think you should leave." I say, opening it.

She takes three steps and she is out of my room. When I'm about to close the door she turns. "Are you sure?"
I look at her and her face. Her big eyes are staring at me waiting. Waiting for an answer.

"Did you did it with him?" I ask suddenly.

I caught her off guard and she freezes. She did.

"It what?" She asks like she doesn't have a clue of what I am saying.

"Don't. Just.. Don't. Don't make me say it."

"Carrie..." She drops her bag on the hall floor and she tries to enter my room again.

Wrong answer Lali... Wrong answer.

"I am so sorry, I..."

I close the door while she was trying to explain herself. I can't believe it. They dated for 3 months. I never thought she was going to be this easy. Did they did it while I was still dating him? No. They can't have. No, no, no.
A tear runs down my cheek, but I wipe it before it reaches my upper lip. I am not going to cry. I am not going to cry. I must not cry. I must not... Another tear drops. But this time, it hits the floor.

"NO!" I scream.

I walk around in my room and I stop by the window. And one more time, I stare at my reflection.

"Is everything alright, honey?" My father says, opening the door.

"Yes dad." I'm lying.

"You screamed. Are you sure?"

"Yes dad. I just... I... I found a hole in mom's robe. Not too much of a deal." I'm lying. Again. And I don't take the eyes of my reflection.

"Well... If you say so." He says and closes the door.

- x -

"So, basically, she is a bitch" Maggie says.

"Well... Yea." I say smirking. This is what I love about Maggie.

"How could she?" The Mouse says, in shock. "You were there for her for years. I agree with Maggie on this one."

The Mouse was with me when I found out that Sebastian was cheating on me with Lali. She was the one who drove me home and took care of me in that moment.
We were all at The Emerald, the bar. After Lali left my house, I spent a couple of hours trying to digest what happened by myself when I realized I needed my friends. So, I got dressed and called The Mouse, asking her to meet me at The Emerald. She called Maggie and Walt, but Walt was working and he couldn't make it here.
I ordered the usual, a Singapore Sling, which comes with a tiny umbrella and fruit. I was so nervous I broke the wooden umbrella.

"Well, I need to use the restroom." The Mouse says as she gets up and leaves our table.

"What Lali did was so not cool."

"I know. What can I do about that? She did it. With him. They did it. Together. They probably did it while I was still dating him." I said with my head down.

"I don't believe it."

"Maggie, I didn't believe that she could steal my boyfriend either. I would have believed it, if she was Donna LaDonna. But I mean... It was Lali. My best friend."

"You have a point there... But remember. EX best friend"

I look away and I spot The Mouse. She is walking really fast and she looks over her shoulder. She comes up to us and says "Girls. We need to leave."

"Now?" Maggie asks.

"Now."

"Why?" I ask her.

"Because..." She stops for a while and looks over her shoulder. Again. "I'll tell you when we get out of here."

Me and Maggie got up and I grabbed my Carrie purse. We get out of The Emerald and right in front of the door I spot it. The Red Porsche. Which belongs to... Sebastian.
I freeze. Was that the reason we left?

"Mouse!" I shout.

"Carrie, get in the car." She was holding the door of her father's car. "I'll explain it to you as soon as we left."

"Mouse, I'm serious."

"Me too. Please Carrie."

I get in the car and buckle my seatbelt.

"Was it because he was inside?" I ask while I look out the window and stare at the Porsche."You can tell me."

"He? He who? Sebastian? Oh god, no. It was Lali. She was at the bathroom. I don't think she saw me."

Wait... If Lali was in there, and Sebastian car's outside it means that he is also inside. Maybe they are together again. No. That can't be. She caught her making out with her sister. If I caught him with Dorrit, I would never ever ever forgive him. Lali was my best friend, she was like a sister. But she is not a real sister. That would have been so much worse. I can't even believe what she is going through.

"A penny for you thoughts, Carrie"

"What?" I asked Maggie.

"A penny for your thoughts?"

"Oh... I wasn't thinking about anything."

"Yes you were. I know you."

"It just... Never mind." I look away. And Maggie just nods. I'm glad she didn't insisted too much.

Well, this was it for the first chapter. I hope you enjoyed it!
I am so sorry if there is any spelling mistake. If you found one, please let me know!

And oh, review :)

Love, liv xx