Very Musical Challenge: Wishing you were somehow here again

James and Sirius. There simply was never James without Sirius, or Sirius without James that was just how it was. Then when Lilly finally came to her senses and accepted a date, we didn't break apart, our friendship simply got bigger to include Lilly into a three rather than two. When they gave me the news that they were expecting I was ecstatic our three would become a four and we'd be happy.

But in a flash of green light my world was shattered. Lilly- dead. James- gone forever. The only thing that gave me hope was that baby Harry lived. Not many people knew but I'd moved in with Lilly and James when Harry was born, that was why I couldn't be secret keeper. But as long as I had Harry, everything would be okay.

There is someone who I hate more than Voldemort right now. Dumbledore. He took my baby godson from me. My only reason for life. God how I wish James was here, not that I don't wish that every day. Now I'm in Azkaban my dreams are haunted by James and Lilly 'Why did you go after Peter? My baby is lost now! How could you Sirius?' Lilly would yell as James would sneer at him before coldly saying 'No friend of mine would leave my son to defend himself, you're as worthless as your parents thought.' That hurt more than any dementor.

How I long to hear Lilly scolding me for buying Harry that broom or James to plot prank after prank with me against the 'Puffs that moved in across the street and baby Harry gurgling "'ads 'ads!" But I know I never will, but somehow someday I will get out of here to protect Harry. If it wasn't for him I would give myself to the dementors without a second thought.

Too many years
fighting back tears
why can't the curse just die!

Wishing you were here again
Knowing we must say goodbye

Try to forgive
Teach me to live
Give me the strength to try!

No more memories
No more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years


I miss you James. Lilly. Harry, I will find you Harry.