A/N: Um, I guess this is sort of a story where I tried to clarify everything that really confused me in the game. Eh, It's a lot better than it sound so you should R&R!!

Disclaimer: I do no own any part of Xenosaga (though, I wish I did) but only a genius could make a game as brilliant as this, and I sure as hell, am no genius hehe

"That girl," said Shion quietly to herself as she lay on her bed in the Elsa. "Nephilim, who, just who is she?" Shion was laying on her stomach now, her head buried in her pillow. She was still in her Vector uniform, but her jacket was strewn across the chair across from her bed. On the ground next to the chair were her shoes thrown carelessly to the side. She rolled to the side and looked far into the distance.

"She said that in order to endure the future, we needed to face out pasts, but we weren't ready." She let out a long sigh and rolled over once again. For the first time in months, Shion was now able to rest, but she had too many things on her mind to fall asleep.

"Those painful memories…" her voice trailed off. Shion moved her hand and clasped it around her neck where the gnosis had first touched her on the Woglinde.

"Why? Why did this happen? Why did any of this happen?! None of it makes any sense whatsoever!" Shion rolled onto her back and closed her eyes. Her glasses were still set firmly on the bridge of her nose and she wasn't about to take them off either.

"I guess I might as well try to sleep while I can." She whispered as she took a deep breath. Slowly, she found herself drifting off into an uneasy sleep pained with the memories of her journey thus far. Shion groaned a little as she tried to forget. Flashes of her past began flickering in and out of her mind, each of her friends, Jr. Ziggy, MOMO, chaos, followed by KOS-MOS. Then a vision of Kevin and the horrible scene from 2 years earlier, the activation of KOS-MOS, followed by the android's action of destroying thousands of gnosis with her X-Buster. Then the image of Febronia and her awful death of gnosis mercilessly gnawing at her realian flesh along with Nephilim's face appearing slowly as the painful image faded. Shion was witnessing all of it once again in her dreams. The same dreams that haunt her every time she tries to sleep at night. Too painful to forget.

"They are painful," said a quite voice. Shion opened her eyes quickly and jolted out of her bed. She sat up and looked at the wall where her desk was located only to find the silhouette of Nephilim solemnly standing there.

"Wha-what?" stammered Shion who was in shock.

"How did you..." her voice trailed off as she realized she would not get a straight answer.

"You will never forget your past, Shion. That is why I made you face it, to realize that it will always be a part of you, apart of your future as well as a component of KOS-MOS."

"What do you mean, 'A component of KOS-MOS'?" questioned Shion nervously. She was now slowly pulling herself out of bed and making her way over to where Nephilim was standing.

"All your memories are apart of KOS-MOS as well. Even during the painful accident two years ago, KOS-MOS remembers even thought she was destroyed. All of your memories, all of his memories…are apart of her"

"Who's memories? Who is the "he" you are talking about!?" demanded Shion. "None of this is making any sense!" she shouted.

"That's the way he wanted it," Nephilim stated, she paused for a second, looked at Shion and continued. "Two years ago, you lost someone dear to you; it was his wish that KOS-MOS retain all of your memories along with his."

Shion gasped and stared at Nephilim for a long time. "How do you know all of this?" asked Shion skeptically.

"There will be an appropriate time and place when we can discuss that, but now I must enclose to you what I originally came to tell you. I must hurry though, as you know, I can only materialize in your world for short periods of time. It is only when I was able to use KOS-MOS' encephalon, that I was able to stay in that form for such a long period of time."

Shion just paused and continued to stare at Nephilim, waiting for an answer to anything, any one of the million questions she had.

"Most of this is probably very confusing to you. Originally, Shion Uzuki, you were designated as the head of the third division of Vector Inc., the head of the KOS-MOS project, an android designed to combat the threat you know as the gnosis. However, you did not know that the fate of the world was at the mercy of the hands you used to create that android. It was Kevin, however, who knew all of this, yet surprisingly, none of it was disclosed to you. Yet, why then is the KOS-MOS password "Ye Shall be as Gods"?"

Shion was astonished, how does Nephilim know so much about Kevin, KOS-MOS or me for that matter??

"I- I don't know why that password was chosen" admitted Shion. "It was Kevin who originally designated that password to KOS-MOS; I just kept using it when we redesigned her."

"Yes, " said Nephilim, "Do have any idea why that is?"

"No…" said Shion as she looked down at her bare feet.

"It's because KOS-MOS herself can be compared to a God. It is she how will ultimately decide the fate of the world, with her destined battle with the consciousness known as U-DO. It is the password itself which enables KOS-MOS to determine our fate and it is the one thing he wished to have been kept." With that, Nephilim slowly began to fade away, the brightness of her silhouette now fading back into the darkness which Shion had originally hoped for. As Nephilim faded, she left a word of advice for Shion:

"The knowledge that you seek, lies only within KOS-MOS."

Shion stared blankly at the wall where Nephilim had been standing just moments ago.

"It was Kevin's wish?" asked Shion to herself. "Within KOS-MOS?" Shion took a step backward and sat back on her bed with a thump. She was so confused at the entire conversation she had just had with Nephilim.

"Password, Kevin, KOS-MOS, destined battle? None of this is making sense!' Shion screamed again. Shion tried to lay back and go to sleep again, but this time she knew she definitely wasn't going to get much sleep, even though she was extremely tired.

"KOS-MOS" Shion said, just before she managed to fall into a light sleep.

Okay, that's the end of the first chapter so you should all R&R!!