A new life

Chapter 1

I don't own Bleach (God I wish it was my idea)

The last thing I saw was blood, my own blood all around me and then darkness. I sat alone in that darkness for what seemed like years thinking about how I ended up all alone with nothing to live for. Captin Hitsugaya he was on my mind a lot we sure have come a long way for me calling him Lil' Shiro and I know he hated that. I have no right to call him that now not after I put my Zanpakutō to him.

The reason that I'm here in this darkness Aizen my captain…ha! If I can even call him that any longer. I really should anugery at him after all he betrayed me for his own needs and stabed me with his Zanpakutō. I'm sure that when I find my way out…if I find my way out of this darkness I'll have a scar from that. But it's not that scar that I'm worried about. I'm more worried about how this is going to affect me mentally. I greatly admired that mad and he used and betrayed me.

I keep hearing Captin Hitsugaya voice in the distance begging me to open my eyes and yet I can't. Can't or wouldn't I don't know! I don't want to see the world that is on the other side of this darkness! But yet Tōshirō voice sounds so sad! Like that if I don't open up my eyes he's not going to be happy ever again. I then realize that it's very cold in the room…wait room.

The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes wasn't darkness but a soft light and the back of a man's head. White hair…I know who that is…

"Captain Hitsugaya?" I asked

He turned around and looked at me! I haven't seen him smile in a long time sometimes I wounder if I've ever seen him smile but there it was.

"Momo!" He breathed "you're awake!"

He took one step and was righ by my side. He took my hand and looked into my eyes I swear that it looked like he was about to start to cry.

"How long have I been in 4th Division?" I asked pulling my hand away from his "the last thing I saw was blood and now the back of you're head"

I gave him a small smile, I looked away from him green eyes. I couln't look at them they made me feel guilty from not opening my eyes sooner.

"um…a wile" He stated "I'm going to go get captain Unohana I'll be right back."

I watched as he walked out of the room. I don't know why but I felt better now that he was gone. I felt so guilty and I didn't know why. It wasn't long before captain Unohana walked into the room looking very pleased to see me awake.

"Welcome back Lieutenant Hinamori" she said to me with a worm smile

"Momo" I corected her "I'm no lieutenant"

I saw Tōshirō behind Captain Unohana look sadly at me and walk out of the room. I looked down and felt myself cry a little I was upset that he left me in this room.

"He hadly ever left you're side" she explained to me "I'm sure you two will have a lot to talk about once you have left. But I'm not going to clear you for work for a long time you have a lot of healing to do first."

"I…um have a request to make" I stated as the 4th Division captain nodded her head "I don't want to go near the 5th division please don't make me."

Captain Unohana just gave me a small smile and left the room. I puched myself so that I could sit up and look out the window. It was a beatiful day out in the Sereitei but to me it was just the sun. I was looking out of the window long when Tōshirō walked back into the room. He gave me a small smile and sat down next to me and didn't say one word to me. That was normal but for some reason it felt like there was something wrong.

"Captian Hitsugaya?" I asked

"Yes Momo" he said looking at me like I had said something funny

"I'm sure you have better things to do then sit here with me." I said "shouldn't you get back to the 10th division"

He just sighed at me and looked out the window as if knowing that I was trying to get him to leave.

"I left Matsumoto with the paper work." Tōshirō said to me "Why are you trying to get me to leave Momo?"

"No reason" I sigh "I'm just tired that's all"

He nodded his head, stood up and walked to the door.

"When they let you out you're going to come to the 10th division to say" He told me "I'm not letting you go back to the 5th anytime soon."

"Yes Captain Hitsugaya" I said "I too want nothing to do with that place"

I said that last part more for me then for him but it was out in the open now. Tōshirō though looked at me like I had something wrong. I couldn't bring myself to call him Tōshirō or Lil' Shiro. I just didn't feel wourthy of it I was no friend to him not anymore I couldn't be. Why would he want me as one after what happoned. I don't know how long I sat looking out at nothing when of all people Rukia Kuchiki walked into my room.

"well look who's awake" She asked me "I know Renji will be happy to see you up and about it's a shame a bunch of us are going to be leaving for the world of the living soon or I'd have you come and stay with me until you're ready to rejoin."

All she did was smiled at me and it meade me feel so much better no longer feeling guilty after all I didn't try to kiil her.

"Besides you'll have the 10th all to yourself " Rukia smiled "I'm sure Captain Hitsugaya will have you staying in his room until he gets back."

"To tell you the truth Rukia I don't want to go" I said sadly "I did a really bad thing to him and here he is acting like nothing happened. why can't he be mad at me I'd feel better if he yelled at me or froze me or something I just feel like I'm not moving "