This is only the first chapter so I'm not sure if I'll continue. This is just a test chapter, so that's why it's short. R&R!
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Chapter 1: The Last Time
It was too late. God damn it was just too late. He had waited too long. Ryan had regretted not getting back together with Marissa after everything happened with Oliver, but he knew that he just couldn't. He couldn't get himself into that again without getting hurt. But now, it was too late. After all, what could he say to stop her? It's not like she would just decide to not go, especially because of everything that had happened.
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Well, today was the big day. It was time to leave. Since she had finished all her main classes, Marissa had an opportunity to graduate high school early and just go right off to college. She didn't want to go, but she knew it would be for the best. Sure she would miss Summer, Seth, her dad, even Luke…just a little. But most of all, she would miss Ryan. Ryan. Tears started to stain her cheek at the thought of his name. God why did she have to go and screw everything up? Marissa knew that after everything, there wasn't much of a chance to get Ryan back, no matter what anyone said. Now, she could just get away from everything. Away from her mom, Luke, and everything in stupid Orange County. She could finally start to forget about everything and start a new life in New York. Well, after she said good bye to everyone. See them, for the last time.
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Ryan stood out side of Marissa's house, along with Summer, Seth, Jimmy, Luke and all the others, waiting to say good bye. She came out. Sadness filled her eyes, everyone could tell that deep down, all she wanted was Ryan. But he couldn't stop her. She was leaving in ten minutes, and there was no doubt, she WAS leaving. Ryan watched as Marissa went down the line of everyone, crying more and more as she got closer to him.
"Well, I guess this is goodbye, Ryan." Marissa spoke barley audible.
"Yeah, I guess so." Ryan said.
"I'm really gonna miss you."
"Me too. I don't know what my life is gonna be like without you, but it sure as hell is gonna suck." he said.
"Ryan, we can still write and stuff right?" Marissa asked hopefully, even though she knew it wouldn't happen.
"Yeah, of course!" He said, sadly. He knew that they would probably loose touch.
Marissa took Ryan into a tight hug. "Ok, well I better get going…"
"Yeah you better. Don't forget me ok?" Ryan said.
"I won't." Marissa said in between sobs. "I never could."
After what seemed like forever, they finally let go. He held her hand as she walked away, for as long as he could. Once she got into her car, he could feel his eyes start to swell, and he couldn't swallow. He ran into the pool house and slammed the door.
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With every last word replaying in her mind, Marissa just couldn't stop crying. She really didn't know what she would do without him. God why couldn't everything just be ok? If Oliver never came along, she could be wrapped tightly in Ryan's strong arms. She could be safe, and happy. Ha. Like she could ever be HAPPY again. But everytime she heard Ryan's name in her head, her heart broke just a little more.
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Ok, I hope you like it! I won't continue if I don't get reviews, so make sure you tell me what you think. Anything is welcome. Luv ya!
~Margo
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Chapter 1: The Last Time
It was too late. God damn it was just too late. He had waited too long. Ryan had regretted not getting back together with Marissa after everything happened with Oliver, but he knew that he just couldn't. He couldn't get himself into that again without getting hurt. But now, it was too late. After all, what could he say to stop her? It's not like she would just decide to not go, especially because of everything that had happened.
*
Well, today was the big day. It was time to leave. Since she had finished all her main classes, Marissa had an opportunity to graduate high school early and just go right off to college. She didn't want to go, but she knew it would be for the best. Sure she would miss Summer, Seth, her dad, even Luke…just a little. But most of all, she would miss Ryan. Ryan. Tears started to stain her cheek at the thought of his name. God why did she have to go and screw everything up? Marissa knew that after everything, there wasn't much of a chance to get Ryan back, no matter what anyone said. Now, she could just get away from everything. Away from her mom, Luke, and everything in stupid Orange County. She could finally start to forget about everything and start a new life in New York. Well, after she said good bye to everyone. See them, for the last time.
*
Ryan stood out side of Marissa's house, along with Summer, Seth, Jimmy, Luke and all the others, waiting to say good bye. She came out. Sadness filled her eyes, everyone could tell that deep down, all she wanted was Ryan. But he couldn't stop her. She was leaving in ten minutes, and there was no doubt, she WAS leaving. Ryan watched as Marissa went down the line of everyone, crying more and more as she got closer to him.
"Well, I guess this is goodbye, Ryan." Marissa spoke barley audible.
"Yeah, I guess so." Ryan said.
"I'm really gonna miss you."
"Me too. I don't know what my life is gonna be like without you, but it sure as hell is gonna suck." he said.
"Ryan, we can still write and stuff right?" Marissa asked hopefully, even though she knew it wouldn't happen.
"Yeah, of course!" He said, sadly. He knew that they would probably loose touch.
Marissa took Ryan into a tight hug. "Ok, well I better get going…"
"Yeah you better. Don't forget me ok?" Ryan said.
"I won't." Marissa said in between sobs. "I never could."
After what seemed like forever, they finally let go. He held her hand as she walked away, for as long as he could. Once she got into her car, he could feel his eyes start to swell, and he couldn't swallow. He ran into the pool house and slammed the door.
*
With every last word replaying in her mind, Marissa just couldn't stop crying. She really didn't know what she would do without him. God why couldn't everything just be ok? If Oliver never came along, she could be wrapped tightly in Ryan's strong arms. She could be safe, and happy. Ha. Like she could ever be HAPPY again. But everytime she heard Ryan's name in her head, her heart broke just a little more.
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Ok, I hope you like it! I won't continue if I don't get reviews, so make sure you tell me what you think. Anything is welcome. Luv ya!
~Margo