"Can't knock on this Door"

Chapter 1: Guilt has become the cause

Cry's POV
I sat there on the bench waiting for the train to come by. I thought to myself, "I didn't need him." The cold rain hit the metal roof above me, some of them hitting my clothes making me a little wet. I regretted leaving only wearing a blue hoodie and a thin shirt underneath and some faded jeans. "Did I really do the right thing? Was I doing the right decision?" suddenly ran through my head. The cold night air made me slightly sleepy and to add the fact that it's 11 in the evening made it even worse. The sudden screeching of train breaks broke my sleepy trance. I grabbed my suitcase, tied my mask onto my face and went inside the train.

Pewds POV
I stood there in my house with the floor littered with shards of broken vase and my body sore from Cry's punches. I went to our, well used to be, room and laid on the bed. I grabbed the picture frame on the nightstand and stared at it. The photo showed me and Cry having our first kiss on top of a cliff with the sunset in the background. I continued to stare at the picture. Tears rolled down my face as I hugged the picture; visualizing that Cry was beside me on the bed.

-Next Day-

Cry's POV
I woke up at my bed with my eyes red and full of tears. I looked around searching for Pewds but his presence wasn't there then last night suddenly came back to me. Regret coming with it. "No, I should stop crying now. This was all for the best." I said to myself standing up from my bed. I went to the shower and started to clean myself. I quickly finished and dried myself using a towel. I grabbed some fresh clothes from my drawer and went downstairs. I was greeted by the scent on pancakes and maple syrup as I continued to go downstairs. I eyed the area; I was back at my old house with my Mother and my little brother, Nathan.
"Good morning Cry." Mom greeted me placing a plate with several pancakes before me.
"Morning Mom." I replied back ruffling Nathan's hair. "Morning Squirt."

I grabbed a fork and started to eat my breakfast with my family. It felt nice coming back here. The family has been through a lot but we always find a way to get through it. I finished my food and went outside. The morning breeze hit my face; it felt refreshing. "Hey Cry!" I heard a voice somewhere nearby. I turned to my left to find Russ waving at me, "Since when did you come back?"

"Hey Russ, I just came back last night." I said send a wave back.

"Why? It's like Thursday, don't you have work?" He asked.

"Yeah but stuff happened and well we broke up. So I had to come back here until I find an apartment to stay in. Until then I'm calling in sick." I answered him with nervousness in my voice.

"Oh… Ok…" He said hints of sympathy in his eyes. "Maybe I can help in looking for an apartment. I know some good ones and they're not pricey too."

"Thanks Russ, that's a great help." I said smiling. "Why don't we go next week?"

Russ gave a thumbs up then waved goodbye as I sat on the porch step with a smile on my face.

Pewd's POV
I woke up with tears on my face and the picture frame still in my grasp. I tried my hardest to stand up and take a shower but I couldn't; I only continued to lay on my bed still feeling fatigued. I looked around the room for Cry but I know that he left. "Why did I deserve this?" I said to myself, falling back to sleep.

I woke up feeling less fatigued and sat up. I placed the picture frame on the nightstand like before and took a glance at the digital alarm clock next to it. 3:41pm. it said. I stood up and changed my clothes not even bothering on taking a shower anymore. I grabbed a broom and a dustpan and started to clean up the broken glass from last night. The memories of last light keep stabbing as I cleaned the broken glass and threw it in the trash. I sat on the couch and grabbed the remote; scanning the tv for a show that catches my interest.

"Nothing on huh…" I mumbled to myself. I turned the TV of and dialled the Office on my phone.

"Hello? This is Game Inc. How may I help you?"

"Marzia I'm calling in sick for the next few days okay?" I said on the phone.

"Okay Felix I'll tell Bengt but can you tell me what happened?" The Italian asked in concern.

"Can we talk some other time?"

"Okay, How about we meet up at the café near the river like always?"

"Fine, lets meet up there by six."

"Okay. Bye"

"Bye…"
I placed the phone on the coffee table and looked at the window. " Cloudy; I should bring an umbrella just in case." Making a mental note to myself. I went to the shower to prepare myself for the little meet up with Marzia. I stripped my clothes and waited for the water to reach the ideal temperature. I let the water droplets run through my body as I cleaned myself. For some time I just stood there under the shower letting the water trail down my body. I left the shower and dried myself with a green towel. I opened my bureau to get some clean clothes to wear. I didn't actually cared what I wore so I just grabbed the first article of clothing that my eye met. Apparently the clothes that I grabbed were a Blue tee with a brofist sign, and some black jeans. Good enough I guess. I looked at the clock, 4:33 pm, It read.

"What should I do now?" I thought to myself. "Maybe I should just walk around the neighbourhood."
I grabbed a black umbrella and locked my house. It was really cold outside… well it was nearing December anyways. I stood on the porch step then cold breeze hit my face causing me to sneeze incredibly loudly. "Hey Pewds! Loud sneeze there." A man wearing a black leather jacket with a red shirt underneath, pants, and a bear hat stood in front of the Iron Gate in front of my house.

"Oh hey Ken." I called out walking towards him.

"Where's Cry?" The man asked.

I opened the gate, exited it, and then closed it, "He's not here…" I said with a saddened face.

"Oh, OK then. I'm going for a walk, care to join me?" He said smiling.

"Yeah that's cool. I'm just killing time 'cause I have to meet up with Marzia later."

"At the café near the river?"

"Yeah, like old times..."
We continued to walk around the neighbourhood while talking about any topic that comes to mind.

"Hey Pewds can I just ask something?" Ken said randomly. "Did you and Cry Break up?"

"…" A saddened look came to my face as I stared at my shoes. "Yeah…"
"Hey Pweds don't worry about it! There are many fish in the sea. I'm sure you can find someone else." The man said trying to make me feel better.

"Yeah…" I replied back.
My phone started to vibrate in my pocket: I grabbed it to check it out. "It's Already 5:00 pm Bro! Better get ready!" It read. I set an alarm just in case I forget. It takes an hour to go to the café from my house so yeah…
"Sorry Ken I have to leave" I said to my friend.
"No prob bro! Bye." The man said giving a wave as I dashed to my house. I opened the garage door and entered my car and drove to the designated location. I parked my car in front of a Café named Croissants. The Place looked like a log cabin inside and outside which gave of a calming aura. I glanced around in search of Marzia. I saw her sitting in the back, drinking a strawberry latte; She waved at me as I came closer.

"Hey Felix!" The Italian smiled.

"Hello Marzia." I replied back. I called for a waiter and a guy wearing a black vest and had purple hair tied into a pony-tail came. "Hello Pewds! What do you want do order?" He asked.

"Just the usual Luca" I replied back to the guy; He scribbled some stuff on his little notebook and left.

"So Felix can you tell me what happened?" Marzia asked in concern.

"Well…" I tried my best to say it but I kept shaking.

"Don't worry Felix you can trust me." The Italian continued.
Marzia is the only one that calls me by my real name which somehow gives me some ease.

"Me and Cry broke up…" I forced myself to say it.
Luca came back with a cup of cappuccino on his hand. "Here Pewds, A cup of cappuccino with cinnamon on top."

"Yeah thanks." I replied giving Luca my payment and tip. I sipped some of the liquid to try to calm myself.

"Hey Felix don't worry. I think you and Cry didn't actually break up. I think he just wants some time to be alone." Marzia said trying to calm me down.

"Well that may be true but can you explain why he punched my multiple times before he left?" I said; my voice shaking.

"Well I don't know why but I think he has his reasons. He doesn't want to hurt you Felix. He loves you." Marzia continued to say.

"But-" I tried to counter but she placed her finger on my mouth. "Believe me, I have been through worse."
Marzia has been through a lot of boyfriends and she has been betrayed, cheated, manipulated and lots more in her life but she has always been able to pick herself up and start again.

"I… I believe you… Thanks… Marzia." I said smiling; a tear escaping my eye.

"You Welcome Felix." She replied as she kissed my forehead. "You can overcome this."
We continued to chat with each other until the café closed. We waved each other goodbye and parted ways.
I rested on my bed with a smile on my face, "Yeah everything's gonna be alright."

A/N: Yay! Chapter 1 done~!