New Begining
"Should I not have told her that much Emmett
"Should I not have told her that much Emmett?" I asked worriedly.
"Rose, don't worry ok? I'll bet she loved it."
"I hope you're right."
"Aren't I usually?" Emmett asked.
"Very amusing," I said sarcastically.
The next day I tried my hardest not to look at Bella. It wasn't that I regretted telling her, I was afraid that she would think my story was too much for her and decide that she didn't like me. Yes it's unlikely since Bella is a very sweet girl, though she still wants to turn herself into a monster. I don't understand her! If she hadn't made that decision, we could be friends. Maybe it's because I envy her too much to be able to be an actually friend to her. I really hoped my story would change her mind about becoming one of us. Seeing her today though, I really don't think it did. Poor Bella, she doesn't know what she's doing to herself.
"Yes she does, Rose." Edward suddenly said.
"Oh, go away." I said angrily, I hate it when Edward talks to me from what I say in my thoughts. It's such an invasion of privacy, my thoughts are mine!
"But she does."
"I thought you didn't want her to anymore than I do." I said reproachfully.
"I don't, but I do know that she knows exactly what she's doing to herself. Or else she wouldn't do it Rose, I know it. Bella's a smart girl, if she thought this was a bad idea she would never even consider it. Think of us, if any of us had a choice we might of actually considered it! But obviously we didn't, and maybe that's why some of us don't like it. We didn't get to choose, the ability to choose things in ones own life makes it all the better for a good decision."
"What if it goes wrong? She can't go back, what would happen then?"
"It won't go wrong," said Edward. "If it did though, she would have eight of us to help her with it right?"
Eight, that included me. Would I be willing to help Bella? Would I honestly let my envious nature keep me from assisting her through that hard time?
"No you wouldn't, no matter what you think of yourself Rose, I know that you aren't as terrible as you make it seem. You would be there for her. Don't let your jealously get in the way of befriending her."
No matter how much I hated to admit it, Edward was absolutely right. How could I act like this?
"Thanks Edward." I muttered.
He answered me with a smile. I decided to go downstairs, I needed time to be alone. As I walked down the stairs I noticed someone was already occupying the area I was heading to. As if it was fate, Bella was the person standing in the room.
"Hello Bella." I said quietly.
"Oh, hey Rose."
"Bella I just want you to know I'm sorry. I'm not going to let my jealously of you get in the way of us being friends. That would be plainly horrible. I want you to know that I'm not a monster…well at least my personality isn't."
Bella smiled a little, "Thanks."
I didn't know what to do after that, should I give her a hug or just leave? Luckily Bella had the answer to that. She gave me a sort of awkward one armed hug.
"Thanks." I said. "I'll see you later Bella."
Walking back up the stairs I realized that even if my nature is to be a monster that doesn't mean I have to be one. This is a start of a very good beginning.
A/N: That was just a little something I thought of. Something to ease the time gap between chapters from It's Not My Time. Review!