-1A/N: Jeez its been so long since I wrote a fanfic. Sorry about that. And sorry if this isn't as good as my others. But hopefully this is good enough to make up for such a long time not writing. An experience like this just happened and this is how I hoped things would work out, though sadly my life is in crumbles right now. But that's my issue. Enjoy my fanfic. Leave reviews with ideas for new fanfics. I'm desperate to write anything good. Hopefully I get some good ideas and won't take so long to write a new one. Lyrics are from Tokio Hotel-Don't Jump.

On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don't want to hear it right now

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Happiness in its most blatant form is within a budding relationship. Love, loneliness, and happiness could all be mistaken as one another.

Tears fall from his eyes. Land on his leg and run down to dampen the sheets on his bed. Despair was clutching his heart. He could feel it. A smothering sensation, he could all but see a black cloud surround his heart and squeeze until all thoughts of humanity was rung out through his eyes with his tears. Which fell from his eyes, and dampen his sheets.

So many times this emptiness, this blackness has come to him. He was tired of it, tired of the pain. Of the heartache. He was done with life, done with the people who had caused his pain. He grabbed the kunai that he always kept within reach. He grabbed the paper towels which always resided beside the kunai. He pulled his sleeves up, took a moment to look at the old scars that were there. He had stopped. For so long the pain gripped him but he managed to over come it. Not now. He put the kunai to his skin and pulled.

He shivered at the bittersweet sensation that was sent throughout his body. His blood joined his tears on his sheets, staining them a beautiful red. He placed his kunai to his skin again and pressed harder. He licked his lips at the almost orgasmic sensation. His eyes fell closed. His breathing became labored. He pressed again, and again, cutting deeper and deeper.

He sighed. Let his shaking hand fall and let loose the bloodied kunai. He opened his eyes and glanced at the clock. 5:02 it proclaimed to the world of his bedroom. He needed to be at the bridge at 6:30 to meet his team. He placed the kunai in the sink on his way into the bathroom.

He looked at himself in the mirror above the sink, and shook his head. Dark bags under his eyes exclaimed his loss of sleep. Turning from the mirror he stripped, turning on and then stepping into the water of his morning shower. He hissed as the water touched the gapping scratches on his arm. He sighed again as he watched the blood pool from his arm, mix with the water and fall to the tub covering the white with red before washing away down the sink without leaving a trace, without leaving proof that it ever existed.

After he cleaned himself he dressed in his classic orange jumpsuit and cleaned off and replaced the kunai he glanced at the clock again, and he read 5:41. He decided to leave early.

He made his way slowly through the sleeping streets of Konaha. Few people were wake, fewer were actually in the streets. He made his way to the bridge. Sleeping city so easy to move through. He was the first from his team to show. He reached the middle of the bridge and looked over the side knowing it would be awhile before any of his team would be.

He stared deep into the waters below. Watching the swirling of water. He got mesmerized by the very simplicity that is waters existence. How it was so over looked, but so essential. His body sagged against the railing, and he wished it would give out. He imagined falling, landing in the water. He could feel the water rush over his head, rushing into his lungs. He imagined sinking to the bottom where he was washed away like the blood in the shower. He imagined floating up into the darkness that was sweet, sweet death.

"Hn, Naruto? Here before Sakura. Stupid dobe." Came a voice from behind him. Knowing who it was he spun around and faced the raven hair boy. "Shut up! Teme, I got every right to get to places when I very well please."

Sasuke ignored his taunting and sat on the railing. Naruto sighed and went back to starring into the water. Sasuke cocked his head to the side and narrowed his eyes at the blond. "Up late playing with your dolls dobe?"

Naruto growled deep in his throat and threw a punch which Sasuke easily caught and deflected. Naruto threw a kick towards Sasuke's stomach, which the raven haired boy dodged. They fought for five minuets until Sasuke had Naruto pinned beneath him with his arms above his head. Sasuke laughed and stood up. "You're not usually such a pansy. You're no good right now."

Naruto huff and put on a affronted cover. "I could kick your ass, but I would hate for you to brake a nail." He flipped his hand in a feminine manner. While he did his sleeve fell down a few inches to show the edges of some of his cuts. He put his arm down and bowed his head as his heart raced at the thought of his secret being revealed to his enemy.

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A/N: Ok not as good as my others but this is just chapter one I'm hoping to get back in the groove of my good writing. There is SO MUCH that I want to do with this story, but the only way that I'll post what I write is if I get some reviews. so review away!!