Chapter One: Roxy

Subject: A long week

Date: May 16, 2008

Mood: Excited

Hey guys! Wow, this week was long :P. I can't wait for this weekend! Tonight my bf Charlie, my bffs Caitlin, Tiffany and Kenzie, and Caitlin's bf Jasper are all going out to dinner and then to the mall. Well anyways, this week was hard! We had like two big huge tests, a paper, and we had this other thing. Daphne, my one triplet sister has a show tonight so she's been freaking out and playing guitar like crazy. I can't believe her lame band is actually playing in the battle of the bands tonight, whoah. My other triplet Lacey isn't back from her field trip thing yet and our brother Blade is probably with his amazingly hot friends. (: Well, I gotta go get ready for tonight!

Love,

Roxy!!

I turned off my laptop and placed it on my desk. What can I say, I had a blogging obsession. Nobody probably even reads it but it's out there if they want too. "Roxy!" Daphne banged on my door. Daphne was one of my triplets. She's really "scene" as all the kids say these days, but she has amazing style. She's in this really cool band and they actually have a show tonight. It's at the battle of the bands that's at the mall; my friends and I are going to swing by to watch her play tonight. She flew in holding two tops, one a strapless black and gray striped and another one that was a black t-shirt. "Which one?" she asked. I considered a moment then answered. "Obviously the striped one!" I laughed.

Now it was time for me to pick out my outfit. I went to my walk in closet and switched on the light. I took a look at all my clothes. I selected a pair of skinny jeans and a cute band tee and put them on. Then I figured I had some time so I put on my stereo and started to clean up my room a little. I was absolutely in love with my room. It was rather large with bright blue walls with zebra wallpaper. My walk in closet was painted neon green. I had a bed with zebra sheets, a black sofa, a desk, a stereo, and a TV. My sister's and I all share a bathroom which is right next to our rooms.

I turned on my Medic Droid CD that Kenzie had burned for me and immediately started singing and dancing crazily. After a few songs I applied my make-up and headed downstairs.

Downstairs my Mom was getting dinner ready for the rest of the family. Blade, my fifteen year old brother, and his extremely hot friend Alex were playing video games. Lacey had just gotten home from her trip and was lazily crashing on the couch. Dad was still at work and Daphne had already left for the show. "Hey mom, can I have money for dinner? Caitlin's mom's supposed to be here in a few minutes." I asked. She went to her purse and pulled out two twenty dollar bills. "Oh wow, thanks mom!" I squealed as I put it in my wallet. "No problem , have fun okay?" I nodded and went outside.

Caitlin's mom's minivan pulled up in my driveway. Caitlin, Tiffany, Kenzie and of course Caitlin's mom were already in the van. I hopped in the very back next to Kenzie. "Hey Roxy," everyone greeted me. "Hey guys" I said.

We pulled out of the driveway as Hollywood Undead blasted through the speakers. We still had to pick up Jasper and Charlie. Scene for Dummies was on and we all starting singing it. We pulled into Jasper's driveway and to our surprise both Jasper and Charlie came out. They swung the van door open and got in. "Well one less stop I have to make" Caitlin's mom said as she got back on the road. Jasper was always a little…shall we say…different. He wore makeup and obsessed over his hair and clothes. This particular evening he was wearing a tight pair of jet black skinny jeans, a band shirt and a extremely bright green hoodie that was super tight and the whole outfit was topped off with Vans.

Charlie was the most wonderful boy I have ever met. His long, shaggy brown hair, his bright blue eyes that simply sparkled in the light, the way he dressed. He seemed so perfect. I'm not sure if it was the way he talked or the look in his eyes when they met mine but something made him absolutely irresistible.

Finally we were all at Jim's corner, a restaurant downtown where everyone ate. Caitlin's mom dropped us off and told us to call her when we were done. We went in and got a large table for six. We sat down on the leather booths and opened up our menus.

The six of us pushed open the shiny glass doors of Seaside Mall. A poster for the battle of the bands was hanging up on the walls. "Let's go to Hot Topic first!" Jasper squealed. Knowing Jasper wasn't going to back down when it came to such things, we agreed and followed him there. Unlike my preppy friends, I kind of dug that store. Everything was just so unique unlike all the popular designer stores.

We stepped in and were greeted by the salespeople. Jasper made his way to the girl's clearance rack of skinny jeans (told you he was different, but that's why we love him), Tiffany and Kenzie hid in a corner, Caitlin cautiously began to look through some tops and I took Charlie's hand and we went back to the corner where all the band shirts were.

"Well I'm going to pay." Jasper said, clutching two pairs of neon yellow and pink skinny jeans and a shirt. I shot a strange look at Caitlin and she gave one back. "What's wrong?! They're crazy sexy!" He was odd, but I shouldn't judge, I'm all about individuality.

After Hot Topic, we made our way to Wet Seal. "I have to get some clothes for my interview tomorrow," Tiffany said. Tiffany was a model. She modeled for magazines, stores, companies, you name it. She was absolutely gorgeous in every way. She's the kind of girl you saw somewhere and you were instantly jealous. She's the kind of girl you lose your boyfriend too. She had long, shiny, platinum blonde hair with brunette hints and chocolate colored eyes. Her smile was flawless. I think each of us secretly despised her beauty just a bit.

I started browsing through the clearance rack with Kenzie while Tiffany tried on different sets of skirts and polo shirts. "These are hot!" We all heard Jasper squeal. He was holding a pair of white hot pumps with black polka dots. "Jasper, step away from the heels…" Charlie said. "I think I'm going to take Jasper to a man store, I'll text you."

After Tiffany got her outfit and I got a new skirt we met Jasper and Charlie at the food court where the battle of the bands was being held. There were a bunch of teenagers; most of them looked kind of scary. On stage were five long-haired rock star wannabes. A hardcore yet cheesy song pounded out of the speakers and the crowd was jumping. The song finished up and an older man came on stage. "Give it up for The Biscuits." he said, the crowd clapping. "Now please welcome Scab!"

The crowd went wild. "This is my sister's band" I told my friends. There she was in the outfit I had helped her pick out, holding her hot pink guitar, ready to rock out. The music started and Daphne began strumming. The mob began to mosh. Scab was pretty good and everyone seemed to like them. I must say I was a little jealous seeing my sister on stage looking so rad.

After Scab was done there was one more band, Emirah. They were pretty good. There were only two girls in it and they were more techno then hard core, I was pretty sure I recognized them from school. Then it was time to announce the winner. The man came back on stage and thanked each of the bands. "Now, time to announce the 2008 winner of Seaside Mall's Battle of the Bands." He was handed an envelope and opened it slowly. "The winner is…Scab!" Daphne and the guys she played with all appeared on stage smiling like crazy. I started clapping and everyone was cheering. Anthony, the lead singer, took the trophy and they all posed for a picture that a reporter was taking. Winning the battle of the bands meant you got signed! Not by a big record label, but people would hear your music. It was pretty exciting, my sister was about to be a mini celebrity.

"Thanks for taking me!" I called as a slammed the van door. I ran up the sidewalk to the front door of my house. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge. "Hey, who won?" Blade appeared suddenly, scaring me half to death. He did that a lot, he could silently creep around the house unnoticed and unheard. "You'll never guess," I said opening up my bottle of water and taking a small sip. Alex was standing next to Blade, and was obviously staying overnight…yes! "Just tell me!" Blade half squealed. "No, I'll let Daphne tell you." I replied then went upstairs before I had a chance to spill the news.

I went into my room and flipped my light switch. I set my tote bag down on my bed and turned on my laptop. I sat down at my desk and logged onto MySpace. There wasn't anything new so I logged onto my instant messenger. Caitlin was on and she messaged me instantly.

cayfay99: 

foxxyyroxxay: wats wrong babe?

cayfay99: he didn't hold my hand…

foxxyyroxxay: aww. stupid boy!

cayfay99: I don't think he likes me anymore! I don't know why!

foxxayyroxxay: I'm sure he does hun

cayfay99: well. I hope so 

foxxayyroxxay: it'll be fine !  smile sweetie, I still love you!

cayfay99: 

"AAAHH!" I heard screaming along with footsteps pounding down the hall. Daphne ran into my room and jumped on my bed. "GO US!" she cheered. Blade and Alex ran in, ALEX WAS IN MY ROOM! I underscored my conversation with Caitlin and started dancing around crazily with Daphne. "YAY!" she squealed.

"Oh my gawd! SHUT UP!" Lacey came screeching in. Her black hair was in a messy up-do and her contacts were already out and she was wearing her glasses. Blade air punched her and made a face. "Ugh!" Lacey marched out and slammed the door behind her. Lacey tended to be more uptight than all of us and Blade and her had always clashed.

"I'm moving this party to the basement, yo!" Blade said in his "gangster" voice. Everyone bolted out and I could hear them running down the stairs, stopping in the kitchen to get food.

I turned my computer on hibernate mode and turned off the monitor. I changed into my plaid pajama pants and put on black tank top. I opened my bedroom door and went down the hall and into the bathroom. I stared into the mirror. My blonde hair was a little tangled; my blue eyes looked pale in the lighting. I took my contact lenses out and put on my glasses. I had some really cool glasses! They had thick black frames and they were pretty radical.

I waltzed down into the kitchen. Mom had made cookies that evening; I could still smell the chocolate. I found the big, blue, glass cookie jar and took the lid off. Chocolate chip, I knew it! I took as many would fit into my hand and went down into the basement.

The Devil Wears Prada was pumping through the stereo and the lights were low. I could see Daphne and everyone else partying, the boys from the band had come too. "Wow guys, wow." I said laughing. I turned the lights on. "You're no fun!" Blade screamed as he picked up a pillow and threw it at me. "Let's watch a movie!" Alex suggested. "Okay, let's watch Borat!" Daphne said.

Blade put the DVD in the player and pressed play. I sat on the old beat up couch next to Ryan, Scab's drummer. On the other side of me was the lead singer/screamer Justin. Alex and Blade sat on bean bags and Daphne and the other guitarist, Sean, sat on the floor. After the movie was over, Daphne and her band stayed down in the basement to sleep, Alex and Blade went to Blade's room and I went upstairs to my room and went to sleep.

"Yes! Pancakes!" Blade said after Mom told us what she had made for breakfast. We all filed into the kitchen and grabbed a plate. Mom put some pancakes on each of our plate and then we topped them with butter, maple syrup and fresh strawberries. Lacey was sitting at the table eating her food and looking tired. I sat down next to her and Daphne sat on the other side. Everyone had their phones out texting as usual. I pulled out my sidekick and checked for new messages. That's when I got the text message every girl dreaded from her boyfriend. "We need to talk," It read. "I'll be right back," I said feeling a lump in my throat.

I walked up the sets of stairs, went in my room, and closed the door. I pulled out my sidekick and dialed Charlie's number. "Hello," his beautiful voice answered.

"Hey, it's me,"

"Oh hey sweetie," he yawned.

"Did I wake you up again?" I laughed.

"Yeah, you did, but its fine."

"Well, I got your text and saw you wanted to talk to me."

"Oh, well I have something to tell you, but I want to tell you in person."

"Well, do you want to do something today?"

"Yeah, meet me at the park at noon."

"Okay, sounds good"

"See you then, I love you!"
"I love you too," I said, then ended the call. My mind was racing. What could it be? It didn't seem like it was "the break up line" because he said he loved me, and I could tell by the way he said it that he meant it and it was true. Well, can't let it ruin breakfast, I made my way back to the table and finished my pancakes.

After looking around the park I finally spotted Charlie. He was holding a pink rose. I jogged over to him and said "hey!" He smiled and took my hand in his. "Hey, you look beautiful." I could feel myself blush. He handed me the rose, "I got this for you." he said, his cheeks showing a bit of red. I took it in my hands delicately and smiled. "Aww, thank you so much, Char!" He leaned in and softly kissed me on my forehead. "Okay, so there's something I need to tell you, and I'm just going to spit it out. I'm moving. I'm moving to Arizona." He closed his eyes and squeezed my hand. My heart fell down to my stomach. Arizona was like 1,000 miles away. It felt like tears were welling up in my eyes…wait…they were. "WHAT?" I whispered as I clung to his hand. With his eyes still closed he replied, "we're already packed," and that's when I gave in. Tears of pain rolled down my cheeks. Hearing my sobs, Charlie opened his eyes. "Oh, don't cry…" he whispered. He took his fingers and wiped a wet teardrop off of my cheek, then wrapped his arm around me. I was now sobbing, and I lay my head on his chest and held onto him. "It's okay, we can stay in touch, babe, we can be strong!" he said. I gripped his back with my shaking hands, my whole body was shaking as the sobs escaped. He started rocking back and forth while holding me, and then he lifted my head up. He cleared the hair away from my face, wiped away my tears and then kissed me.

After I calmed down, he walked me home. "We have to move because of a family emergency back in Arizona, so we had to be quick. We leave the day after tomorrow." Charlie said glumly. "Why can't you just stay here and live at my house!?" I suggested. "My family needs me right now. Maybe one day I'll come back, but I don't know. But I do promise you this, the second I turn eighteen I'll come back." I felt somewhat comforted by that, knowing he was going to come back for me. We came to my front porch and we gave each other a long hug. "I love you more than anything, Roxy." He whispered in my ear. "I love you too, Charlie, so much." I whispered back. Then we let go. A cold chill went up my back as I watched him walk away.

The screen door squeaked as it closed behind me. I felt my throat closing up and my face getting hot so I rushed to my room. I got there just in time and slammed the door right before the tears began flooding out. I couldn't live without Charlie, It was just impossible. The thought of never seeing him again killed. Texting, talking on the phone and instant messaging couldn't hold up our relationship. I couldn't imagine a life without him, without seeing him everday. I felt at that moment like I could just die.

Later, I calmed down some and got on my instant messenger. A message from Caitlin popped up on my screen.

cayfay99: bby I am so srry!!

cayfay99:I heard the news… Charlie told me…

foxxayyroxxay: I can't take it…

cayfay99: I wouldn't be able to either.

foxxayyroxxay: it just all seems so unreal right now. it feels like I'm in a horrible nightmare.

cayfay99: I know that must be horrible. I'm so sorry, I'm here for you darling.

foxxayyroxxay: thnx

cayfay99: do you want to sleep over tonight?

foxxayyroxxay: I'd love that.

cayfay99: do you want me to invite the other girls? Or do you want it just us?

foxxayyroxxay: do you mind if it's just us?

cayfay99: not at all  I'll tell my mom.

foxxayyroxxay: okay, I'll tell mine too. Talk to ya when I get there.

cayfay99: cya

I put an away message up and then quickly checked my myspace. I turned my computer on hibernate and threw my belongings into a backpack. I switched off my lights, closed my door, and went downstairs. My mom was sitting on the couch reading her magazine. "Hey, mom, I'm sleeping over at Caitlin's" I told her. "Okay, do you need a ride?" she asked, looking up from Family Circle. "No, I think I'll walk." I said.

I slowly walked down the side walk, carrying my backpack. "Everything will be fine, you'll be fine, and this isn't happening, you can get out of this." I repeated to myself over and over in my mind. My cell phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw I had gotten a text from Charlie. "Hey sweetheart, we need to get together tomorrow. Are you free?" the text read. "Well, I'm going to be at Caitlin's for part of the day but the rest of the day I'm free." I said.

When I got to Caitlin's house we went to her room. I sat down on her sofa and she put her iPod on shuffle. "I'm sorry honey," Caitlin said quietly. "I feel scared…" I managed to squeak out. Caitlin's cat, Precious jumped up on my lap and started purring. I petted it gently and then it curled up on my lap. My phone vibrated so I pulled it out. My new text from Charlie said "well do you think you could meet me at the ice cream shop around 2-ish?" "That sounds good, can't wait  I love you" I replied, then turned my phone off.

"So when does he leave again?" Caitlin asked. "Monday," I said glumly. "But I'm going to get ice cream with him around 2:00 tomorrow so, I guess maybe that's one of the last times I'll see him…" My voice trailed off.

There was a knock on Caitlin's door. Caitlin's older sister, Melanie came in holding a pizza box. "Hey guys, Mom told me to bring the rest of the pizza up to you guys, so here it is." Caitlin got up and took the box. "Thanks," Melanie left and Caitlin set the pizza box on the floor in the middle of her room. I went down and sat next to her and took a slice of pizza. "Caitie, do you think he'll find someone else? I mean…there's going to be tons of new girls there…" I whispered and then took a bite of pizza. "Well, if you guys are meant to be, everything will work out the way its supposed to." she replied. We sat there and ate our pizza almost silently expect for a few sentences. Then we watched The Hot Chick.

"Let's make him a cake!" Caitlin suggested at 3:46 AM. We were bored and not the least bit tired and we were trying to think of thing to do. "That's a good idea!!" I squealed. We went downstairs and into the kitchen. Caitlin got out a cook book and she began flipping through the pages. "Found the recipe!" She began calling out the ingredients and I went to various cabinets to get them. Once we had all the ingredients out we got out a bowl and started to mix them together. Then we put the cake mix in the oven.

"I'm going to miss him terribly…" I whispered.