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Just to remind you, this is my first attempt at getting back into writing so please take it easy on me lol

ENJOY...or not, watev...yea i'm nervous heh heh...gonna stop rambling now, rite now...okay...

now.

I Miss You.

I sit here at the kitchen window with my chin in the palm of my hand looking out the window watching it rain outside, with the

clouds depressingly dark grey.

Thinking of the time where I was desperately alone and sad but I told nobody about it because they wouldn't understand that I

was missing "HER!", when they are always there with me.

I always put on a facade in front of them making it look like I was okay when I really wasn't, I don't think they ever believed me

though.

I always think of that day long ago when I was a little kid when everything went terribly wrong. I blame myself even though

everyone keeps saying that it wasn't. Let them think that because I know different.

I hate the rain now ever since the day it happened, it was raining then too. It always makes me remember over and over again of

the feeling of being powerless as I watched the strike that caused rivers of red course through the grass at my feet as the dark

shadow with glowing eyes turn and fade away.

The feeling of helplessness as I try to wake up the person that I loved with my whole being but she never opened her eyes...of

crying tears that weren't seen as they blended with the drops of rain splattering my face.

I just hate days like this, seeing my family walk on eggshells around me like I'm ready to explode or something. I wish they'd just

stop it. I'm not some fragile being ready to shatter any moment when they come near me, especially more so on this day.

This day has been dragging by so slowly, even more slowly when the clock tics closer to the hour (that I'm so painfully dreading)

approaches. I stand up to head upstairs and work on the rest of my homework or just turn in early to get this day over with. I'm glad my

family is out today so I don't have to force myself to make conversation. One last look out the window shows me the rain's slowed

down to a drizzle and the clouds parted a little with some sun rays tryin to poke through to make it less dreary looking *sigh* as I lay

down inmy bed staring at the ceiling waiting for sleep to come claim me.

"I miss you mom."

A one shot of Ichigo thinking about the rain…..

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