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Summary: It's Sara's farewell party...someone's showing up too late...but is he really too late?

Pairing: ...I'm a GSR shipper...so what else could I write ; )

worth it

In 24 hours I'm going to sleep in a new bed, in a new apartment, in a new home, in a new city, in a new life!

She emptied her drink…everybody had been there, everybody except the only person she had wanted to be there. She wondered whether to order a new drink or to leave, giving up on all hopes she had have for this night. Saying goodbye to all her co-workers, most of them had become friends, some of them a family for her, hadn't been easy at all…maybe it was better like this, maybe it was better that he hadn't shown up here tonight. Maybe it would make it all easier…making it easier to enter the plane to Chicago, making it easier to never look back again. In her memory he wouldstay the man she had given up her life for, the man she had loved more than herself…the man who didn't say goodbye to her…at the lab he had told her that he'd show up! Why did he have to lie? Why?

She felt desperate, somehow. Then she suddenly felt a hand on her back. She turned around, looking into his eyes, for a second she didn't know whether she should be happy or sad. She swallowed hard, trying to not look into his eyes, she knew she'd get lost in them, but she couldn't help it. Her eyes were drawn to his, she couldn't look away, she couldn't free herself.

"Why are you here?", she tried to speak as if she wouldn't even care, but she knew that he knew better.

"This is your farewell party."

"The party ended two hours ago."

"Why are you still here then?"

She closed her eyes for a second. She couldn't tell him, this was something he didn't need to know. She was angry, who did he thing he was? Why did he think showing up here this late would be good for her? Or for him? That didn't make any sense! She took a deep breath, opening her eyes again.

"I don't like saying goodbye…that's why I showed up so late."

"Why did you show up at all then?", she asked angry. She left her seat,trowing twenty dollars on the counter, grabbing for her purse…intending to leave him furiously.

He grabbed her arm, making her stay, making her turn around to face him. Her eyes were glistering with tears.

She looked at him, trying to understand why he wanted to hurt her like this, why he didn't understand that it was too late to say goodbye, why it was too late to apologize.

He reached up for her cheek while she leaned back against the bar. She did not want him to touch her, but her body didn't react to what her brain told it.

He caressed her cheek with his thumb, his head coming closer to hers. "Because you're worth it.", he whispered, then closed the gap between their lips, kissing her softly.

She wanted to pull away, she wanted him to stop, he was digging a grave for her heart, she would never be able to move on if he'd go any further. But she couldn't escape, the feelings inside of her were telling her that this was what she had always wanted to happen. What did I hope for when I waited here alone for two hours? Didn't I hope he'd show up and try to hold me back? That was all I wanted to happen!

She let him deepen the kiss, twining her arms around his neck. His hands ran over her back, then he pressed her close against his body, as close as possible.

She lost herself in his kisses, melted away under his touch, she forgot about the world around her, it felt like time had stopped, it felt like this would never have to end.

After a couple of minutes he softly pulled away from her. Their eyes met and a weird feeling grew up in her when she noticed the tears in his eyes. She wished she could say something, do something…but she didn't know what.

"Stay."

She had seen this happening, she had feared it, she had prayed for it…I already signed the contract, there is no way back! She swallowed hard. She didn't want to leave anymore…how could I ever think that I could move on?

She turned her face away from him, pulling away from him, breaking his embrace. She felt the tears running down her cheeks. She had tried to swallow them, but with all her power, she hadn't been able to control herself anymore. "I can't.", she whispered with a weak voice.

"Don't leave me Sara. Please.", he pleaded.

Her heart was beating fast and loud, she tried to stay calmed, but how should she? Again he asked her to give up her life for him. If she should stay, nothing would change…just like the last time. He had promised her a job…sure…only a job he had offered, but she had hoped for more, much more. Five years she had hoped for more, now when she had given up, he started it all over again. He had just realized that he'd loose her…before he hadn't thought about her feelings and he wouldn't do afterwards, this was about possession, not about her…She didn't know if this theory was true…but it made it easier to turn around and just leave.

When she had reached the parking lot she heard steps behind her. She knew it was him, she didn't know whether to run or to stop.

"Wait, Sara please wait!"

"Why?", she turned around, crying out loud. "Why do you want me right now, when I try to start a new life? When I try to move on? Why, tell me why do you want to destroy me again?"

He stopped about six feet away from her. "Because I am an idiot."

"Yes you are.", she said sounding angry and desperate at the same time.

"Sara…I was blind, I…I thought you'd be there forever…when I realized that you wouldn't…Sara I know that I am too late. I'm sorry…I…"

"…stop it." She pleaded. "I can't hear this! I don't want to hear this! Just let me leave! Please…I…all I am trying is to start a life where I can be happy again one day."

"Let me make you happy."

"You…you…", she wiped away the tears from her cheeks, taking a deep breath. "You…"

He stepped closer to her, twining his arms around her waist. "I wont let you go Sara.", he whispered into her ear.

She was shaking, she didn't know if her heart would make it another time…she was so afraid that he would hurt her again…but his arms gently held her close to him, his breath caressed her skin, his touch felt like silk. His eyes were so warm, so promising…promising her peace, love, softness…

He caressed her cheek, softly dragging her face closer to his.

"I can't.", she whispered softly, but she didn't pull away, she couldn't. Her heart had taken control over all her rational senses.

"I wont hurt you, I promise. I'll make you happy Sara…Sara I love you. I will never hurt you again…I'll always be there for you…love you…Sara please, don't leave me."

"I can't trust you anymore.", she whispered, now pulling away. Am I insane? How could I believe his words, even if it was onlyfor a few seconds? He is Grissom, he will hurt me,…I know it, he did before, he'll do it again! Don't believe him Sara! He's going to break your heart!

He sighed. "You can trust me Honey."

"Don't call me like this! Please." He is going to destroy me…If he would really love me he would let me go, he would let me get happy, it's all about posession…all about posession. It's all about posession. Hoping it would help to tell herself over and over again that he didn't really love her, she knew better. It would always hurt. He would always be the man she'd love…and she cursed her heart for it.

"How could I tell that you're telling the truth Grissom? How? How can I tell that you wont ignore me tomorrow…and wont forget me in a month? And…"

"…marry me."

THE END

don't know if this was a good thing to write...anyway, I had to do it...just as like as I will probably have to write a sequel :lol: