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i wish
I only wished for someone beside me.
Someone, who would replace the emptiness in my heart
and fill it warmth.
Someone, who would take my hand, ride the crashing waves with me.
But for me, it is as always- never meant to be.
I would be willing, to give everything
From a shoulder, to my legs, and eye even
I would never abandon.
But I never thought, in my pursuit of happiness
I would fall, deep, into any abyss I could never quite crawl out of.
I wanted to see if it was like in the books I read
A spark, an ignited flame, soft lips, a teasing game
Clashing muscles, hot blood almost like sour plums
But just when I thought I had it, it was taken away and replaced
With something I never wished for.
Now as I sit, on the edge of humanity
Dried blood smeared on my chin and hands, so much
Convulsing, writhing, something trying to force it's way out my back
As I think, if it was worth all this pain
I never should have wished.
-k.k
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