Forgive Me: A Black Butler fanfiction
Introduction
Asea~
An OC character
A lonely girl who lives with her mother and twin brother Lido. She becomes very depressed and feels that only an Angel can help her. Little does she know, a simple goal as "true happiness" isn't as simple as it seems.
Chapter 1: Alone, yet surrounded
I felt like a zombie, walking through my school halls without a soul. My friends would try to talk to me, but I would ignore them. Why should they care what I think? I wouldn't know how to care. My life felt controlled as if I was a stringless puppet, manipulated by an invisible puppet master. What was wrong with me?! I was extremely depressed, even though I had everything I needed, but it still felt as if I hadn't felt true happiness.
After the lifeless school day was over, I lay in my bed, contemplating whether I should take my life or not. My life felt terrible, I was so depressed and felt utterly useless. "Please," I whispered, "show me true happiness. God, the devil, anyone! Just show me." As soon as I said it, a bright light lit up my room. As it receded, I saw a young-looking man standing in my room. He had white-blonde hair that reached his shoulders. He wore a white suit with a people scarf, which matched his gorgeous eyes.
"You called?" His voice was soft and warming. "I have a solution for your problem, if you are interested." I shot out of bed when he said that.
"ANYTHING! Show me true happiness!"
"As you wish. Remember, it's your choice. As soon as he said it, he left, and instantly passed out.
The next day, I didn't even bother trying to go to school. I was alone there, even when surrounded by friends. Besides, true happiness wasn't going to school. My mother begged me to at least try, but I was adamant. She soon gave up, but said that I should get groceries. My twin brother Lido, who was unable to go to school because of medical issues, offered to go with me, but I didn't want him to become exhausted and become sick so I refused.
~I was halfway home when I noticed an orange glow in the sky; a sign of a fire. I didn't worry too much because it could have been far away. As I neared my house I was thinking about the beautiful man and wondered when true happiness would reveal itself. I was looking at the white sidewalk. So pure and clean, with a reflection if orange. Wait...Orange?! I looked up with a start to see my house consumed by flame.
"Mom?! Lido! LIDO WHERE ARE YOU?" I yelled desperately. I heard a small cough near the front door, which was now ash. It must have been Lido! I ran toward the door, ignoring the searing heat and tears running down my cheeks. Half of the doorway was covered by part of the roof that fell. I peered through the doorway, and saw a small figure trying to stand. Lido.
"Lido! It's alright I'm here! Come over here and I'll lift you over!" Lido weakly got to his feet and stood facing me, and shook his head.
"No Ace. You can't save me. It's my time to go. I don't have to be a burden on you and mom anymore." Why was he saying these things?!
"What?! YOU WERE NEVER A BURDEN! You never will be! Just don't give up Lido!" Despite my panicked countenance, Lido stayed calm. His last words chilled my heart:
"But you gave up." With that the flames ate my view of my twin brother. My only brother.
"LIDO! DON'T LEAVE ME ALL ALONE!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Soon exhaustion helplessness sunk in. I fell to my knees, and stared at my hands. The hands that could've reached in and saved him themselves. I stared for hours. At last I looked up at the remains of my house. I could have sworn I saw the man standing in the ash. The heat made it seem as if he had Angel wings made of flames. Instead of doing something about him, I stared back at my hands, and blinked.
Raindrops pattered on my head. Rain always seemed to fall at the most I ironic times. I opened my eyes and saw the floor I was kneeling on was no longer singed grass, but was a wet cobblestone street. Any normal person would have freaked out being in a different place, but I didn't care. I just watched my house burn down and my brother assumingly burn to death. Besides, I probably passed out and someone moved me here. I still sat staring at my hands, muttering Japanese words that fit the occasion: *"Nan desu ka...nan desu ka..." My life was ruined...how could I ever have true happiness now?
Suddenly I was grabbed by the shoulder of my shirt and yanked to my feet. "W-who..." I looked up and realized that it was the man who guaranteed my true happiness. "You! You said you would show me true happiness! You lied to me!" Anger surged through my blood. This man was a murderer who killed my family!
"Indeed I have shown you true happiness. You did not realize that you had true happiness before, and I showed you what "true happiness" was by taking it away."
"YOU KILLED MY FAMILY AND BURNED DOWN MY HOME! I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS!" I screamed at him. Saying that I had true happiness did not make it fair.
"Did I? I believe it was "your choice." Are you so sure I killed your brother? After all, you could have reached in and saved him yourself. You killed your family and didn't think twice before you did it." Realization started to sink in, and I knew he was right. It was I that truly killed my brother.