Authors Note: Just got done watching Inuyasha, and am now listening to the ridiculous ending song(which sucks really bad, I liked the one before it!) Anyhow, this is after the episode "Hidden in the Mist: Onward to Mt. Harukei!" It's mostly about Kikyou and the way she studying Kagomes reactions to the way Inuyasha is talking to her and holding her and all that shit. Sorry, but no Kikyou bashing, this time!
Enjoy!
A Look is but a Look
Kikyou, she could feel her strength draining away. No doubt the mountain's fault. Her little soulgatherers couldn't get anywhere near her, not at least ten feet away from her, and there is where they circled in large spirals around and through eachother.
Kikyou could her someones voice, her reincarnate, speaking off in the distance, mostly it was sluggish, but she did here Kagome saying that she needed to be moved away from here or else she'd die. Kagome was telling Inuyasha to carry her, and Kikyou felt relief chorus through her, much to her dismay. She could never be more humilated right now.
Inuyasha must have been carrying her for a long while, because before she knew it, she was able to feel her strength returning, slowly, but surely. She forced herslef to open her eyes, and saw Inuyasha, and his three other friends, and...
and her.
Kagome. Her reincarnate, who, unlike the other female and male, was standing off to the side in a slightly darker patch of grass, as if trying to blend into it.
Inuyasha started asking questions, and she answered them, but didn't really hear the questions. Her sub-conciousness did the talking, much to her (pleasant?) surprise, and instead watched Kagome steadily.
The girls eyes, they were slightly upset-Kikyou then refused her urge to laugh, she never had before, and mulled over what she had just thought-slightly? More like very upset. Her eyes were sad, and her shoulders hunched. Her head was down just a bit, and her back was turned away from them all, but just so, so Kikyou could still see the side of her face, and the sadness in her eyes when she turned once to look at them, and quickly away when she saw the look on Inuyashas face.
Kikyou continued to watch Kagome, even though she snuck glances at the half demon who she once had been in love with. Kikyou could say she was still in love with him; could say that the feelings, although a bit wary, were there; could say that he was the only one she would ever love and chase him down to the ends of the earth if she could.
But then, she mused quietly, she would be lying to herself about it all, because while she acknowledged Inuyasha's feelings, she couldn't reciprocate them at all. The feelings had died when she had, and even though she knew in her dead heart, and in her mind that she still loved him, the feelings were never there. Kagome had that part of her soul, while Kikyou had the one that she most certainly did not want.
Kikyou noticed how Kagomes eyes flashed and dulled, like the glass jewel of the Shikon No Tama. Inuyasha moved closer to her, almost so close that Kikyou could feel his breath of life on her face.
And then Kikyou turned away from Kagomes sad eyes, hunched shoulders, and bowed head with a regret that pulsed through every pore of her being.
Because, thought Kikyou grimly, a look is but a look, and a kiss is but a kiss, and an enemy is but an enemy.
And there was nothing she could do about it.