Fragile Chains, Strong Threads
I love her.
I couldn't deny that.
I love her.
There was a red thread
That connected us together.
…
But I couldn't love her.
My past was too strong.
It was a black, putrid monster
That would gobble me up
And her with me
If we were together.
I couldn't love her…
But I did.
…
It couldn't be helped.
That's what told myself.
Every day, I'd lock myself
In the deep, dark chambers of my heart,
Telling myself to stop.
I couldn't love her;
I couldn't bring her
Into my dark, evil world.
…
But my resolve always broke
When I saw her face,
Her smile, her beauty, her presence…
She brought light into my heart
And taught me the warmth of love…
The locks around me shattered
Instantly when I saw her face.
I couldn't love her…
But I did.
…
Then, I heard that there was
A four year difference between us.
Anything will do;
I used it as an excuse…
An excuse to keep her away
And keep me from loving her,
From bringing her into my murky life.
It will only ruin her if she comes near.
It will only bring harm if she is with me.
So I used it.
…
I learned more and more about her.
And with the knowledge,
I came up with more and more reasons…
I could not love her
So I will create a chain—
A chain of excuses,
A chain of half-hearted dismissals
So that I will not love her.
Any excuse was good enough;
I just added it to the chain.
…
Yet as I learned about her
And saw her smile
And felt her gentle, soothing presence,
I could feel the chains in my heart
Rust and break off.
And as my chain of excuses quickly died,
I could feel the red thread
That tied us together
And connected us through rain or shine
Grow stronger and firmer.
It brought us closer together
And shined a brighter, more passionate red.
Despite being of a softer material,
The thread was stronger than the chains.
They would not break off.
…
Soon, the red thread that
Binds our hearts, our fates, our everything
Brought us so close that
I could hear the loud beating of her heart.
And I was sure that she could hear mine.
I could no longer deny it.
I could no longer suppress my feelings.
I had locked myself up with chains,
But they quickly melted in the fiery fire of my love.
I had a pure black past that followed me everywhere I went,
But they quickly disappeared in the bright light of my love.
I had no more excuses,
No more reason to run away.
And even if I did,
The red thread of love
Always bound us together
And connected our thoughts.
I love her…
I couldn't deny it.
I love her.
And I told her.