Feileacan
1.
Siobhan
I went to the Rath that night with Eliza, some one Eliza knew was playing there, and I decided to be dragged along. As soon as Eliza and I entered the Rath, I could feel the energy move through me, but I didn't know if I wanted to feel energetic. I wasn't used to feeling sad, I haven't felt sad in nearly a hundred years, well at least I was never really aware of it like I was now.
I wasn't supposed to, summer wasn't supposed to be filled with thought or sadness, perhaps there was a reason I used to despise the season, I could hardly remember that now, just a few little images scattering across my mind, fighting to form a full thought, but it was losing the battle, for there was just so many little images in my mind fighting for recognition, many I wish I could remember. How did a Summer girl deal with sadness?
"Siobhan" Eliza said, her blonde hair dancing around her face "Come on, come dance with me" she said, slurring her words a little, she was reaching out her hands for mine "Don't make me dance alone" I stared at her for a moment, before I decided it was much better dancing alone than sitting at a table alone. I followed Eliza on to the dance floor, a thousand different lights caught my attention, making it very hard to focus on anything.
Especially when I wanted to focus on the music, I wanted to lose myself in it, like I had done so many times before, Eliza, as usually was a stray bullet on the dance floor, it never mattered what the song was, no matter what the beat was, Eliza always knew how to move to it in a matter of seconds. So I just followed her lead, it was a fast beat tonight, I could feel the drums beating in my chest, the voice was male, young, raspy, some, I guessed who smoked to many cigarettes. But it was a nice voice, a voice you could easily lose yourself in.
"Siobhan" Eliza yelled over the music a few minutes later "Yes?" I yelled back "I believe there is some one looking at you" I smirked "There's always some looking at me" I laughed, Eliza rolled her eyes "I know, but look, just look" I turned to where she was pointing, there was a group of mortals in the back, most of them could be no older than 21, while most of them looked to be in their mid teens. They were clad in dark colours, the usual crowd in The Rath. But I then saw who Eliza was talking, one of the teenaged boys, with dark hair in a messy, yet charming style, and intelligent green eyes peering at her, he was very pale under the harsh lights.
There eyes met for a moment, and I stopped. I was used to mortals looking at me, I was used to Fey staring at me, and it was almost as common as breathing. Even though he was just another mortal, when he looked at me, well I was not used to that. In that moment, the music slowed down a little, because I needed to place why exactly he was different. But of course Time moves far too fast for anyone to answer that kind of question. In the next moment, his eyes turned back towards his mate who asked him a question. And I turned back "What was that?" Eliza asked "I don't know" I said, trying to blow it off, but I couldn't, because his stare kept dancing through my mind, I had met three people in my entire life whose stare I have not forgotten.
"Oh" Eliza said, with a hint of annoyance in her voice, I turned to see what had caused her remark, my stomach flipped. It was Keenan and His Queen, our Queen, even though it was wrong, and I knew it was wrong, I had the exact same reaction that Eliza did, it was difficult to watch the King and The Queen together, but as soon as The Queen's mortal emerged from the darkness. And they met each other eyes, and they were lost in them, it became simply unbearable.
Eliza and I knew, Tracey knew, Rika knew, and Donia knew, watching two people in love hurt more than anything in the world. "I need a drink" Eliza murmured, I followed her in silent agreement. In about an hour we had gotten about ten shots of something, and though we're talking, the words made no sense coming out of our mouths. I had kicked off my shoes, and sunk further into the nice booth, while Eliza was jittery and jumping, and very loud, I was giggling softly at everything she did.
"Let's go dance again" Eliza said, her pupils were huge, she grabbed my arm, but I pulled it back quickly "No" I moaned "I wanna sleep" I said, and giggled, Eliza again rolled her eyes at me "You're no fun Siobhan" she said an pouted "Don't wanna dance" I sighed softly, I fell from my careful slouching position, flat on my back, and started to giggle uncontrollably "I'm so drunk!" I crowed, when I got back up to see Eliza, she had gone. "Bye Eliza" I called out, waving to empty space. But then I noticed some one else, it was Mr. Green Eyes from earlier, I giggled again and waved at him.
He was a mere three feet away from my table, he looked a little startled for one minute, before he started to move closer to me. "Is this um" he cleared his throat "Seat free" "Free as a little bird" I said, he sat down slowly, looking a little weary of me, I had no idea why. "Are you okay Miss?" I stared at him for a moment "Nope" I told him "Do you want me to call some one?" I scoffed at him "That's not want I meant, psychically I am fine" I told him "it's all up here" I pointed to my head "That is not okay" he didn't say anything
"Well I guess no one would be after he broke up with you after 300 hundred years together" I sighed, he stared at me again "Are you sure you don't want me to call some one?" "But I guess they're all the same aren't they?" "I mean offer anyone a chance at monarchy they'll leave you high and dry" I huffed "Just like that" I tried to snap my fingers for dramatic effect but it didn't work. "I hate people" I said, louder than I meant to. I moved closer to him "Would you leave me?" I asked him, he was puzzled "If some one offered you the chance to rule a court, would you still leave me?" his faced soften quickly from confusion, it was the most beautiful thing I had seen in a very long time.
He looked down for a moment, his hair feel in his eyes, I had a sudden desire to move it away from his face, but I managed to resist. "No" he finally said, giving me a warm smile "I wouldn't leave you" I hugged him "I like you" he smelled very nice, like nighttime, like fresh grass. "You are very nice" I told him. "You can take me home now" I told him, I suddenly felt very tired, and he was very warm. Carefully he carried me bridal style out into the busy club, but I barely noticed all the lights and the people.
And then we were outside in the warm night, I took a deep breath of the fresh night air, and I felt a little better. I buried myself deeper in his arms, I decided I very much liked being in his arms, I couldn't remember the last time I had felt so safe anywhere. "What are you doing with her?" a sudden harsh voice broke me out of comfort, pretty eyes didn't say anything for a moment "I was talking her home" he finally said "Yeah?" oh, I knew that voice all to well, Keenan.
"How do you know her?" "I just met her tonight man, she was pretty wasted and asked me to take her home" "Put her down" he said, he did, and I stumbled to gain balance, I looked up at three blurry figures. "Is she like your girlfriend or something? Because if she is maybe next time you should watch her before she totally loses it" "Go away Keenan" I mumbled, but it came out as gibberish, and I stumbled again, I felt Keenan's arms reach out to stable me
"Don't touch me!" I said, a littler louder than I meant, he immediately released me, his eyes wide. "Thank you for watching her" Keenan said, but any one could here the ice in those words, pretty eyes didn't say anything he just turned away. "No, I don't want him go" I said "I like him Keenan" I said, but Keenan didn't say anything, he didn't even look at me, just like always. I was just a thing, a thing that needed to be fixed so everything ran smoothly, I wondered if he even knew who I was in that moment, just another of his summer girls.
And I hated him for that, I hated that he took away my identity from me, I wasn't Siobhan, I wasn't me, I was just another one of Keenan's girls, and I thought I hated him at that moment. "Seth" The Queen said to her mortal "Could you please take her home" the pretty mortal didn't say anything, beside from giving Keenan an icy look, which of course he didn't see. Before he swooped me up into his arms, the mortal was nice, not as nice as pretty eyes, but still very nice. "He ruins everything you know" I told him, I heard him laugh softly, he didn't say anything, but I just knew he agreed with me.