Note: I got inspired after watching Mulan AGAIN. I'm referring to when she sings "Reflection." I don't own anything, the song or anything PLL and Disney related. Hope you like it (:
Reflection
Paige's POV:
I can't believe it. Emily is here with me. As friends, even after all the shit I pulled with her. Acting all hot and cold, teasing her. I'm such an idiot. At least she's here. It's a start. How do I make her understand how tough this is for me? I want to be with her and out in the open, but I'm scared. Scared that I'll be a disappointment. Scared that I'll be shunned and left alone. Scared I'll be rejected. Why can't Emily see I was in her shoes before she came out. It's not easy, and I'm not in denial. All I'm asking for is time, time to figure it out. Maybe, if I sing it instead of speak it, she'll finally see my struggle and be patient. There's a karaoke machine over there by the stage. I'll find a song, the perfect song and sing it to the crowd. Sing it to Emily.
I find the song. It sums up my feelings a hundred percent. Hopefully, Emily realizes it too since she was in my spot last year before she came out to her family and school. At least she had the girls. I had no one, and Alison did her best to keep it that way. Anyway, Emily is walking back toward me. It's now or never.
I step up to the mic and the song starts. I wait for the introduction to end and then I begin. Begin pouring my heart and soul out to the world. To Emily.
"Look at me.
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Nor a perfect daughter."
Emily freezes when she hears my voice. She stops dead in her tracks. She only stares at me, confused. I continue.
"Can it be?
I'm not meant to play this part?"
Emily keeps staring. Although now her expression switches from confusion to sadness. Well, it's not quite the reaction I wanted, but I have to go on.
"Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself
I would break my family's heart."
Now, she starts tearing up, and I feel awful, but I have to get my point across. For both of us.
"Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?"
I choke up, and begin to cry myself. Look at us. Emotional wrecks, but I know this song by heart, so I know it'll end in a minute or less. I'm almost there. Hang in there Emily.
"Somehow I cannot hide
Who am I
Though I've tried"
I think she's getting it. She's understanding. Thank God.
"When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?"
I don't believe it. It worked. Poor Emily. Her cheeks are all red and puffy. Her beautiful, chocolate orbs penetrate my every being. I'm in awe, and so is she. She's fully processing what this admission means to me. To us. For that, I'm beyond grateful.
"When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?"
I finish the song before completely breaking down, and collapsing onto the floor. I ball like a baby and begin shaking uncontrollably. Suddenly, I see Emily rushing toward. Immediately, she slinks her arms around my body and holds me. We stay like that for what seems like forever until she quits crying, and I hear her whisper in my ear, 'I'll wait as long as it takes. I promise.' I shudder, then smile and hug her back with as much appreciation as I can muster. 'Thank you.' I whisper.
