I had everything

Opportunities for eternity

And I could belong to the night

Your eyes, your eyes

I can see in your eyes

Your eyes everything in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die

I'll never be good enough

You make me wanna die

And everything you love will burn up in the light

Every time I look inside your eyes (burning in the light)

Make me wanna dieI'll die for you my love, my love

I'll lie for you my love, my love (make me wanna die)I'll steal for you, my love, my love (make me wanna die)

I'll die for you my love, my love

Well burn up in the light

Make Me Wanna Die- The Pretty Reckless

June 22: Exile to Serbia

"I mean, Albuquerque, New Mexico"

"Is there a difference"

"Isn't Serbia, the place where they send you to die"

"And from my experience, Albuquerque isn't that much different"

"Thank Mom, Thank You for my buying me a one-way ticket to hell"

"Actually Albuquerque is a perfect place for me, Right when I get off this bus, I should run over to the pier and jump, jump off to my death"

"In fact, If I weren't alive, everyone problems would just vanish"

"I bet the only person that would care Dad, he isn't around anymore''

My name is Gabriella, Gabriella Montez. I'm 17 years old and I have one more year of hell in high school, which makes me a senior I guess. My last summer, I'm getting boarded off to My Godparents who live in Albuquerque, Lucille and Jack Bolton. Last Time, I seen Lucy and Jack, was at my father's funeral, I think. I used to live in Albuquerque, before moving to California after my father's death, when I was 6 years old. The only reason why dumped to this hellhole, is because my mother was getting tired of my "troubled ways". Anyways, I plan on killing myself before I turn 18.

"Now, In Albuquerque, New Mexico"

Sighing, I picked up my duffle bag and made If off the bus, into the crowd. That's when I heard someone calling my name, when I turned and looked, I hadn't seen anyone. When I turned around, I came face to face with my godmother, Lucille Bolton

"Gabriella, Is that you! Oh My, You're so grown and so gorgeous" I cringed when she pulled me into a bone-crushing hug and pulled away, to take in her features. She was beautiful, long black wavy hair, to die for, those beautiful crystal blue eyes, which was even visible with the black eyeliner. She was beautiful, which made me envy her. She looked about to be around her mid 30's or 40's but was still more beautiful than ever.

"Is this all of your things" She asked and I just shrugged and looked back at my luggage then back at her.

"Yeah" I answered lamely and shrugged not caring

"Okay, then. The car is right over there" I nodded and shrugged and slung my bag over my shoulders and sighed before gripping the handle and patting my back pocket making sure my notebook was there. I followed her over to the car, before getting in.

"So, Gabriella! How's school" Lucille asked before driving away! I shrugged my shoulders and then placed my arms over my head and leaned back into the seat.

"Like, hell" For some reason, I could hear Lucy sigh at my sarcasm and I shrugged, reaching into my back packet and pulling out my notebook

"So, Gabriella about College" I cut her off before she could say anymore

"About, that I don't plan on going to college" I said and I saw her turn around and frown

"What do you mean, of course you're going to college"

"The thing about, that! I plan on killing myself before I turn 18, sooo yeahh!"

"See, In this notebook here. I have a suicidal page! List of ways, how to kill yourself. Self Immolation, Hanging, Poisoning, I had there this thing, where It cooks your heart"

"Gabriella, That's Enough! Please" I twitched my mouth into a knot, not knowing what to say. So I shrugged my shoulders and leaned back into the seat then continued pop the rubber band against my wrist. That calmed me down, the feeling of the band popping against my skin, over and over.

"Were Here" I heard Lucille say and I leaned up and looked out. Their house, was exactly how I remembered It when I was last here. Same color, Same structure. It looked like a home!

"Why wont, you go In! Look around, make yourself feel like your at home. I think Jack is home and Troy is out back" When I heard the name Troy, It made me cringe. I remember that, Troy would always be such an asshole towards me! He used to pick on me! And now that we haven't seen each other, In more than 10 years, I bet he still the same asshole, he always was!

I shrugged and opened the car door then grabbed my duffle bag. I gripped unto the handle of the bag before looking up one more time and gnawed down at my lip.

I walked up to the door and pushed It opened and saw that everything looked the same. It still smelled the same, like roses, cinnamon, and peaches!

"Gabriella, Is that you?" I turned around to become face to face with my Godfather, Jack Bolton!

"Yeah! Uncle Jack, Its Me!" I replied sarcastically and mocked excitement

"Look At You! You're so grown and gorgeous! Were so glad, that you're here! Really!" I smiled fakely and shrugged

"Yep" I replied simply

"Jack! Jack" We heard Lucille yelling his name and he sighed then looked at me and I shrugged

"Well, while I go see what Luce wants! How about you up to your old room"

"Third door on the left" We both said at the same time and Jack chuckled and I just headed towards the stairs

When I reached the stairs, I spotted the third door on the left. I turned the knob and walked in. It still looked the same, I remember spending the night over here! I dropped my bag to the ground, uncaringly and walked over to the bed. And sat on the bed, ran my fingers over the satin fabric of the covers and took out my notebook! I opened It up to my "To Do Before I Die" List

1. Go Sky Diving

2. Kiss In The Rain

3. Have My Portrait Painted

4. Lose My Virginity

5. Get Into A Fist Fight With A Grown Man

6. Get A Tattoo(See Pg 27)

7. Learn How To Really Paint

8. Learn How To Ride A Unicycle

I thought about what I could add to my list and sighed before snapping the rubber band back over It and plopping up from the bed. I sighed pulling the rubber band over out of my hair and letting my curls fall loosely to my shoulders. I hardly ever let my hair out of a ponytail or a bun!

I sighed again, realizing I was bored! I grabbed my Ipod and placed the earphones in ear. Feeling the beat of the song, I moved my body to the rhythm and beat and sang along. Suddenly, I felt someone eyes watching me! So I turned around to see, a figure leaning the doorframe. Leaning against the doorway, was the one and only Troy Bolton.

Suddenly, I froze, when I saw the gorgeous boy, standing there staring at me with that smirk! It only took me a few seconds, to take in his features! The muscles and biceps poking through the white v-neck! His abs were seen also through his seat! Still the same, gorgeous ultramarine blue eyes, that were easily visible since his hair were placed on top of his head, instead of falling down in front of his forehead. The Gap that separated his front teeth was now very seen gone. And judging by the smirk on his face, he was still the same asshole, he was always had been.

When I saw him look at the bottom of my feet and then back up to my head, I rolled my eyes! Ugh! Pig! Checking Me Out!

"Well, Well, Well! Isn't It Little Miss Gabriella Montez! How you been, Dollface"

That made me furious, how dare he call me that!

"What Do you want Bolton and don't call me that" I snapped and he frowned

"I was just saying hello, so what's with the attitude" He said coolly and I rolled my eyes

"Okay, quit the act Bolton! Nobody's around" I snapped and Troy just frowned again

"Look here, Bolton! Since we gotta live together for the next three months! How about you stay out of my way and Ill stay out of your way! Go It"

"Gabriella" Troy said before I cut him off

"Shut Up! Why are talking to me. Why are you sitting here, acting like you didn't pick on me when I younger! Made me cry and hurt"

"Gabriella, we were little kids and_"

"Whatever, you have to say! I don't care! So just shut up and stay out of my way" And before he could respond, I slammed the door in his face and turned around and shrugged my shoulders feeling satisfied.

Suddenly, there was knock at my door and I rolled my eyes and turned the knob to open to see Lucille standing there.

"Hi" I said simply

"Are you hungry, because Its dinnertime" She said and I just shrugged

"I guess" I replied

"Ok, well! How about you wash up and come downstairs" She said and I smiled fakely

"Ok"

After a few minutes, I walked down the stairs to see Jack, Lucille and that thing named Troy all at the dinner table. I took a seat and saw that the plate was sitting in front of me. I wasn't hungry, so I picked up the fork and just stirred It around the plate! I kept my head down but I couldn't help to feel someone watching my every move! I looked up two see who It was, only to be surprise and met by the eyes of the one person I didn't expect, Troy!

I looked away quickly and frowned. "So Gabriella! Are you not hungry? You haven't touched anything on your plate"

"Yeah, I not really hungry! Um, may I be excused" When I saw Lucille and Jack nod in approvement, I headed towards the stairs

When I reached the stairs, I turned around to see Troy coming up the stairs too and I rolled my eyes

"Gabriella" I heard him say and I just turned around and rolled my eyes

"Can we just say goodnight please"

"Sure, Goodnight Dollface"

I rolled my eyes and sighed "Goodnight Bolton"

I close the door behind me and locked It before plopping unto my bed

This way going to be a longg summer!