Chapter One

Emma

I'm in my room, crying. Again. I don't believe how much she could break my heart.

My mind replays what happened about an hour ago. Jessie kissing Tony. I hoped it wouldn't happen. I mean, I've been trying to help as a mask to hide my true feelings, but I never thought it would happen so suddenly. I waited until she went to bed to mourn in sorrow. I hope Zuri can't hear my crying, I don't want her to know. No one knows how I feel.

I look at my clock. 10:50 pm it reads. I don't have school tomorrow, so I can not sleep and get away with it. I turn and find myself facing my ceiling. What if she doesn't understand? I'll sound like a complete idiot. I hope she will. But I can never tell her. But I have to. But I can't. I just need to get her alone...

All of a sudden my door opens. I gasp for a brief second, and realize it's Jessie. "Hey Emma," she says, "have you seen my phone? I have to call Tony."

Oh yeah, Tony. "Um... I don't know. Did you lose it in the teacup?"

"No. I had it in here and put it somewhere. I'll ask Zuri. Thanks for you help."

"You're welcome." I say and she leaves.

I flop my head onto my pillow, and stare at the wall. She'll never know. She'll never know how my heart skips a beat around her, and the fact that I've been trying to be nice to hide my feelings. I read my clock again, now it's 10:55. I roll back over to the wall again. This is going to be a long night.

I manage to get out of bed at eight, and go into the kitchen. No one's up. This gives me time to think without someone distracting me. I walk up the stairs to my room, but stop halfway when I hear, "Emma? What are you doing up at eight in the morning?"

It was Ravi. Thank God it wasn't anyone else. "What are you doing up at eight in the morning?"

"Fair enough. I always get up this early. You're usually dead asleep when I wake."

"Whatever. I just felt like waking up early this morning." I lie.

"Okay. But you know that Jessie doesn't get up on the weekends until ten according to a average time study I've conducted." he says, and he and walk downstairs.

We sit on the couch and he turns to me. "What is the matter my sister?"

"Nothing is wrong Ravi! How did you come to that?" I say in fear.

"You have dark circles under your eyes, and I heard you sobbing last night. What's going on?" he says, giving me a deep look.

"Okay. But you can't tell anyone! Especially Jessie." I sigh and decide to tell him half of it, "I was a little upset about what happened last night." here comes the lies, "I was mad that I messed up their date even tough it turned out okay. I felt bad that I really screwed it up."

"Ah. I understand." he says and pats my hand.

I really don't think you do. I think to myself, and get up off the couch. "I have to go live my life now." I say and quickly walk up the stairs, run to my room, close the door and lock it.

I lean my back against the door. I let a tear slide down my face. I couldn't keep up these lies. I let another tear slip away, and then another, and another until they flow out of my eyes. I needed to tell her. But I couldn't manage to get those words out of my mouth. I slide down to the floor and sob quietly so no one can hear me. I wish I was with Jessie.