Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Rizzoli & Isles.

Heartbreaker

- By MegannRosemary

It broke her heart to see Jane like that.

Her best friend didn't cry. Ever.

She wanted to pull her into her arms and hold her tightly. hold her tightly enough that she could absorb some of the pain the other woman felt.

When she had looked over Casey's shoulder earlier that night to see that broken woman, that broken little girl, sitting at the booth, her heart fell kersplat.

She shook her head, rolling over to face the blinking red light of her bedside clock. She knew hearts couldn't fall kersplat of course, but there was no scientific way of explaining how she felt. The feelings that had been building in her heart and in her head had finally come to the surface.

She was in love with her best friend. She'd always loved her as best friends did, but she was in love and lust and dreamed of being together forever with her best friend.

She always felt that she would be one who never fell in love. She'd never even had a hint of the feelings before and she'd never seen it happen in real life, not with her mother and father or Jane's parents. She'd only ever seen it on television or in the movies.

She was s scientist and love could always be explained by chemicals, it just wasn't real.

This time she knew that it was real. It was the only explanation for her feelings, chemicals aside.

Turning over again to study the ceiling, she felt elated that she could feel love. Closing her eyes against the shadowy white expanse, she also knew that her unrequited love was all it would ever be.

Now that Jane knew about Casey she would be staying with him, maybe because she loved him and maybe just because she wouldn't be able to leave him. Not out of pity so much because that wasn't Jane, but more out of duty.

No, that wasn't right either.

Maura cursed herself again, whatever the reason, she didn't see Jane leaving Casey.

She couldn't do anything more now than be there to help pick up her friend when she was down , listen to her and offer advice.

She would never be able to admit her feelings. She knew now that if she admitted them she would just add to Jane's problems. It wasn't an option.

Maura kicked her legs against the springy mattress, clenching her fists in the sheets; it was just getting harder and harder to keep those feelings inside.

Since she'd very nearly died all those weeks ago, she'd realised how short life really was.

She always saw people on her table, people of all ages, but they were just bodies and she was just doing her job. She disconnected herself from their lives.

Now she knew that fine line between life and death, she'd walked it, studied it and spent a fair amount of time with it.

With Jane too, to top it all off.

Life was too short and she had opened herself up to the world around her. In doing so she began to notice things; new foods and terrible television and the people who really mattered. That's when her heart fell kersplat.

She giggled at the phrase, it was late and she was nearly delirious from lack of sleep.

She pulled the pillow over her face and breathed in.

It smelt like Jane.

She'd been there a few nights ago, lying and talking about Casey. Despite the circumstances, the smell of her shampoo was comforting. She could imagine Jane beside her, her long form a soothing presence beside her. If only she was here now.

If only she could admit her feelings now.

If only Casey...

She swore out loud, the word echoing in the dark and empty room.

She felt guilty now for blaming him, but she just really wanted...Jane.

Hot salty tears trickled from the corner of her eyes as she let out anger and frustration that was building up inside her.

Jane.

Her phone rang.

"Dr. Isles." This early, it could only be for work.

"Detective Rizzoli speaking," came the deep teasing voice on the other end of the line.

"Oh, we have a body?"

"No silly, I was calling to see if you wanted to for for a run, you know, get my endorphins hit or whatever."

No way. Not now. She couldn't face the beautiful woman now. "Ok. I'll meet you at the usual spot."

"I'm at your front door."

Of course she was. "I'll be down in a minute." She ended the call and scrubbed her hands over her face to remove the traces of tears. She threw on her running clothes and rushed to the door.

Jane was sitting on the front step, eyes bright but with dark circles beneath them. "Ready to go?"

"Let me put on my shoes."

"Sure, whatever. Just hurry up."

She concentrated on the first shoe, and then looked up, "Jane. Are you ok?"

"I couldn't sleep," she admitted.

"I couldn't either."

Jane looked quizzically at her.

Maura finished the second shoe and stretched quickly, "Well I was worried for you, plus uh...the beer you made me drink had me going pee every five minutes."

"Don't be worried for me, I'll be fine. I just wish there was a way to help Casey, you know..."

"You are helping him. I know you are. If I was in his position, just seeing you would make me feel better."

"Let's just run."

"Ok."

Maura concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other, hoping that she would have the strength to be there for her friend, the love of her life, and keep those feelings to herself.

A/N: Since I don't see Rizzles getting together right away because of Casey I'm going to have to build up to it. So, I'm going to attempt a longer story, anyone up to taking the plunge with me?

P.S. Is anyone interested in being a beta?