For all the love we've made
Just one thing stays the same
The lamp gets dusty
The pipes get rusty
But I don't wanna wash my hands clean
I can't believe she just let me walk away. She didn't put up a fight; didn't ask me to stay. She just ran back to Ryan; back to what was safe for her. It's not completely her fault though. I pushed her away, although that's partly Seth's fault.
Well you say you love me too
Then why won't you go through
With the nightly kisses
With the hits and the misses
Well if you can make it on your own
I bet you want to know why it's Seth's fault. After he and I broke up, I still considered my best friend. He was easy to talk to. That is, until he told me about getting locked in the mall; about Marissa and Ryan sleeping in the tent together.
Then go if you want to go
But stay if you want to know the way
Through the mess we've made
Or lie in the bed you know or go
That's why I decided to go back to Los Angeles. I knew at that moment that I didn't belong in Newport. I loved Marissa more than anything, but her heart belonged to Ryan.
I saw your moving van
But I did not take a stand
You can't leave with 'em
You can't leave without 'em
I never thought I'd want to let you
Packing was the hardest part. I kept finding things that were hers or things that would remind me of her and what we had. One of the things I found was the necklace I gave her for helping me get my stuff back from Jodie; I gave her my heart that night. When I finished packing, there were three boxes of her things neatly packed. I put the necklace on top and wrote 'goodbye, love' on the top box.
Go if you want to go
Or stay if you want to know the way
Through the mess we've made
Or lie in the bed you know or just go